Shifting Sands

 

 

i think that Miss is warming to the idea of undergoing the process of taking a lover.  Now.....that's not necessarily the same thing as actually having a lover and i think it's important to separate the two things.

 

The process to me (and i also think means the same to Miss) is the groundwork beforehand, putting Herself out there as wanting to play, becoming interested, seeing what's available.  From developments over the past few days i believe that Miss wants to begin that process. 

 

Firstly, let's be absolutely certain that me being a sissy is not providing any sort of sexual fulfilment for Miss.  Whilst we are still being intimate and i'm still able to give Miss orgasms and pleasure it is a fact that the sex for Her is lacking.  We both know this. We both accept this.  It does NOT however mean that there is no love between us. 

 

i wrote previously about how i ended my experiment and showed Miss what it was all about.  A follower of mine, Stephanie, who is almost psychic in Her perceptions of reading between the lines, made a very accurate remark about what me showing Miss would mean to Miss.  So it was then that on Saturday afternoon Miss again brought up the subject of the Ashley Maddison site which to me looks like the very best site to use for 'the process'.  Miss asked me to show Her the profile i created and wanted to know more about how it worked.   It's quite an odd feeling showing the person you love a site which could eventually be Her path into finding excitement, flirtatious fun and potential sexual fulfilment.

 

As i have learned, it is not good policy to push Miss or to try and force the pace.  i took a very laid back approach as i showed Her how the site worked and the different types of responses, pictures, comments that 'my profile' had received.  About an hour after i had finished this with Miss She simply came out with the statement 'have you set up my profile on Ashley Maddison yet sissy'?  An absolute bolt from the blue and it rendered me utterly speechless.  i simply failed to reply.

 

Miss also started mentioning things about 'not really wanting to have another phone, i could use my work one perhaps with a separate number'....and 'i'll need to have a picture up, blurred out would be best'.  Again i was lost for words......have i missed the moment, failed to seize the moment??  What do i do now??  Is Miss just waiting for me to set it up for Her or is She going to get on with it Herself?  i really don't know what to do next. 

 

Bear in mind that Miss was not saying these things whilst we were being sexually intimate.  She was openly letting me hear Her thoughts and how She Herself could see things happening for that 'process'.  Of course i would gladly set something up for Her if She asked.  We would have to talk about it and then do it together - if that's what She wants?  So even before 'the process' begins i think we will both need to work together.

 

 

 

i've decided therefore to do nothing until Miss decides She's ready.  It's the best thing and the right thing to do.  They say butterflies in the stomach....?  i say there's a whole Amazonian Forest of them in my stomach right now! x