100% sissy

 

 

Miss and i had a bit of a watershed moment at the weekend.  i suppose it has been coming for a while though.  The pretending is over and i finally had to confess to Her that i am totally and utterly, 100% a sissy. 

 

Since the birth of our Miss/sissy relationship back in October last year we worked out that sissy and me in male mode would split the time to 60/40 of the week.  Initially that worked well but it's quite clear to me that one of those 'personalities' was gradually chiselling away at the other.  Over time, 'male mode' has become harder and harder to pull off when in the company of Miss.  Easily 'acted out' when with friends/family but when alone with Miss i have found it increasingly more difficult to pretend to be anything other than a sissy.  What is causing this?  Is it the chemicals in my hormones?  Do males who consider themselves sissies have some sort of imbalance in hormones that totally squashes their maleness?  i think that's where i am and what i am.

 

This has to be so horribly confusing for Miss and i can totally understand that.  What i can't do however is pretend to be something i am not.  That would be unfair to Her.  i love Her so much and Her happiness is my reason d'etre.  i just simply cannot escape the fact that i need to be a sissy both for emotional and physical contentment.  i know that Miss finds it odd at times for me to want Her to be more assertive, more in charge and more dominating - and this does not just mean for sex.  She sees the concept of me expecting Her to make the decisions somewhat unusual and weird.  Perhaps Miss could let me make some decisions occasionally but by giving me permission to make them and thus alleviating Herself from the responsibility whilst actually keeping it at the same time? 

 

i think that like many sissies, my very high libido does not help.  i simply have to achieve orgasm at least once a day.  Masturbation is the main source of release for this but i'd much rather be sharing this release with Miss in some form or another.  i feel that Miss looks at sex quite differently from me in so far as that She wants it for when She wants an orgasm and that there is not much point having sex unless She is going to get an orgasm from it.  It then follows that since She does not want as many orgasms as i do and therefore sees no benefit in getting me off if She is not going to or indeed is not in the mood to get Herself off.

 

i'm quite the opposite.  As a devoted sissy, i'd still do all i could if Miss wanted sexual pleasure even if i could not cum or was being deliberately denied cumming by Miss.  This is because i love Her and worship Her and need Her to be the strong, dominant, independent Woman most sissies crave for.  Someone to idolise, adore, to feel sexually inadequate for, to expect humiliation and embarrassment from.   

 

 

 

All of this is so much better out in the open rather than simmering away under a lid.  Miss and i have a good life.  We don't have any major overheads left, no real constraints to what we can do. We share more than a few interests and between us have solid family foundations and a good network of friends.  There is very little to stress about.  i want to with Her for the rest of my life. x

 

p.s i asked Miss this morning by text if there was anything She wanted done by the time She got home today.  i'd missed seeing Her leave - which i always find so exciting, with Her dressed so nicely and always looking so good.  A text has just come back....'you could wash and hoover the kitchen floor sissy'.  Oh thank you Miss! x x x