Thrusting Forward

 

 

My breast forms are now very much a feature of my dressing as a sissy.  Whenever i'm wearing a pretty bra, basque or anything with underwired cups then the forms go in.  It just adds to and enhances the total feeling of girlish sissiness that keeps me happy and content.  i love how they fill my bras and project the lace cups forward with a definite 'thrust'.  Then there's how they feel.  i do actually 'feel' them.  i feel their weight on my bra straps, on the back band of the bra and in the cups.  They force me to pull my shoulders back when walking in a much more feminine manner.  Believe it or not they do actually jiggle a bit!  When i occasionally (ok then, quite often!) pose in front of a mirror i simply swoon at the sight of my full cups and it makes me feel so good about being a sissy.

 

 

 

Could it also be envy?  Perhaps true.  If i am fortunate enough to see Miss in one of Her gorgeous bras i get the same feelings.  Desire for Her, pride that i am with such a sexy Woman and then the envy  - but a loving envy. 

 

Miss bought me a very pretty robe for Christmas last year and i simply have not been wearing it enough.  Until now that is.  It's now become part of my morning attire, worn over my negligees or nightgowns when serving tea for Miss in Her chambers.  Another gorgeous layer of femininity which looks even more delightful with my breast forms pushing the material open and hinting, sometimes brazenly showing, the pretty lace beneath. Secretly hoping that Miss will notice and say something.  i often catch myself bringing a hand up to just rest on the centre bow of my filled bra, enjoying the sight of those heaving, filled cups which are singing out loud - sissy!!

 

 

 

Miss and i had a wonderful text exchange yesterday.  The cleaning routine has been firmly established and now Miss gets what She wants doing and i get to enjoy serving Her commands and to be a total sissy whilst doing so.  We have agreed that i can send Her pictures via Snapchat of my attire and any words i might add to them.  Yesterday i wrote:

 

'Cleaning underway Miss and your tiny cocked sissy is dressed appropriately'.

 

'Good sissy. Is that a bulge in your panties?  Does cleaning in your lingerie turn you on sissy'?

 

'Yes Miss, very. Serving you and accepting that i have a small cock, does make it slightly bigger in my panties'.

 

Small indeed and also very wet reading what Miss had texted.  Imagine if She showed that to someone?  Oh wow! 

 

Unfortunately i have to be in male mode for the next day and a half but can't wait to return to Miss and back to being the girly sissy i truly am. x

The Rough And The Smooth

 

 

No....i'm not talking about the types of sex that Miss might enjoy...or any Real Woman for that matter.  i'm talking about what can be and often really are the highs and lows of being a sissy in a relationship with a Real Woman.

 

The smooth first....

 

Miss and i had a really good Bank Holiday Monday together.  We went out on the motorbike and spent almost four hours enjoying the slightly cooler weather with some nice stops along the way.  Miss enjoys being my passenger/pillion and we have not done it enough this year, but we will be doing it again this weekend.  Miss had hinted that we should both wear bodies/teddies beneath our riding gear and i honoured that 'hint' with a pretty white lace and satin body which had gorgeous underwired lace bra cups.  Being forced to wear panties with a body  - even my tiny cock needs support - was no hardship for me either so with the body i had on a lovely pair of vintage white satin very full panties.

 

Whilst riding the bike Miss and i quite communicative with hand gestures and i love reaching back and stroking Her legs or reaching even further back and patting Her bottom.  Miss likes to rub my back and sometimes She will trace the lines of my bra (if i'm wearing one) though in this case the shoulder straps of my body and sometimes drawing outlines of suspender straps on my thighs - i was not wearing them this time.  So a great ride out and once back home a nice evening meal, made by Miss and a good game of Scrabble which sadly for Miss, i won quite convincingly.

 

Miss had been on great verbal form in the day as well.  On the bike i heard Her laugh out loud to Herself and during a stop questioned what She had found so amusing.

 

'Was it you thinking about how small my cock is Miss'?

'No sissy, not at all, I hardly think about your cock, although that would get the same reaction'.

 

Comments like that make me feel so belittled and at the same time arouse me incredibly.  Later when Miss was talking about having a new bed in Her chambers She was talking about Her new bed not having a headboard.

 

'How would you enjoy doing it doggy-style Miss, with nothing to hold onto'? i asked. 'Not that i'd know about that anyway'.

'On my hands and knees and anyway you are right, it's not something you would ever know about'.

'You mean i'd never know if you did Miss'?

'You'd get to know but you'd not know from trying it out'.

 

A wonderful reply and one that certainly put me in my place and again caused my little cock to pulse and twitch in my panties.

 

During our game of Scrabble i nervously asked Miss if She would have any need of me later and to my delight She replied that She would be needing me....but there.....it all went a bit pear shaped....

 

The rough.  Miss called me to Her chambers.  i was still wearing my pretty body and panties and Miss had slipped into a sexy floral chemise top and gorgeous white lace panties with a sheer back.  We lay side by side and i fully expected Miss to demand that i pleasure Her in some way.  To my surprise however, Miss began to stroke my sissy clit which naturally hardened to the hardest it could get (only just filling Her hand) and began to masturbate me.  It was certainly very pleasurable and Miss kept telling me to 'enjoy it'.  My confusion though was uppermost.  Was i not supposed to be pleasuring Her?? 

 

It became quite clear that Miss wanted to bring me to climax this way and told me again several more times to 'enjoy it' and that She wanted to do this.  The act in itself was wonderful, the physical sensation delightful but there was something missing and it was the mental stimulus.  Miss has done this before and has been quite verbal at the same time.  This time it appeared She was not going to be and i failed miserably in letting Her know that i was being nicely physically stimulated but not mentally. 

 

Eventually i had to ask Miss to stop  - i jut was not going to cum without something verbal from  Her.  Something about my little cock, a lover, anything and i would have spurted my sissy juice, or rather dribbled it over Her hand.  Instead i let myself get so wound up that i blurted out that i could not cum and felt under pressure.

 

Pressure you might ask?  Yes, pressure.  i felt that Miss was seeing if She could make me cum without having to provide any verbal extras to go with what She was doing and once that thought was in my head there was no way i was going to cum.  i left for my own chambers and Miss followed me in.  Again i failed to explain myself properly and the whole thing fizzled out with me in a sulk and Miss extremely upset and actually quite cross.  A rubbish end to what had been a great day for us.

 

It's not all plain sailing being a sissy in a relationship with a Real Woman. x

 

p.s On a very good note today. Miss has come up with a 'cleaning programme' for me which is a fallout from the problem we had when Miss got upset with me that i was not doing the cleaning because i was not taking responsibility for it.  My argument was that as a 'sissy' i needed to be told what She wanted doing and i would very willingly do it.  i now have my programme and Miss has clearly spent some time drafting this document up so i will cherish Her hard work and respond as a good sissy should.  i've just finished cleaning the oven and oven hood wearing a pretty beige lace bra and panties set, beige lace suspender belt, natural stockings and a wonderful full pale yellow lace 'square dance style' petticoat.  i hope Miss gives my work a 'pass'! x 

 

 

 

Wear My Bras sissy!

It has been quite some time since Miss forced me to wear Her panties.  I won't ever forget the last time She did this.  Placing a pair of Her gorgeously pretty navy blue full backed lace panties on my pillow with a little note telling me 'to enjoy these sissy'.  They had been worn all day and Her smell was so wonderful.  Miss knows that i wore them and came hard in them.  i hope She will give me that honour again soon.

 

Two days ago however Miss surprised me with a really nice and generous gesture.  She had been complaining that a certain bra of Hers was itching and causing discomfort.  i expressed my sadness at this and jokingly said that 'i could wear it instead of it being thrown away Miss'.  Miss is a 34D which is quite a heavenly size for breasts but with me being a 38C/D i did not think it would fit me.  i was of course assuming that the bra would be a standard hook and eye fit.  On my bedside table in my chambers that evening was not one but two bras from Miss.  One in white and one in black. 

 

To my delight both bras were of the 'bralette' style and hence with no hook and eye fasteners would have a bit of stretch in them.  i found it quite amusing that i could not get either of them over my shoulders but instead could step into them and wiggle them up my torso until nicely around my chest.  Putting on a bra in a way i'd put on a skirt!  They both fitted beautifully and this is the first time i've owned bras like this - in this style.  They are quite feminine and pretty and although i'm yet to try them with my breast forms they look and feel very nice on me.  Lots of lace and a deep wide lace band at the back that is sure to show through my ugly male tops and be subtly noticed.

 

White is just perfect for a sissy but the black?  i won't wear it as often but when one of those moods comes on (see my earlier post A Bit Of Black) i'll be sure to wear it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i'm very grateful to Miss for these presents and am hoping She will allow me to show just how grateful i am! It's been over two weeks since Miss required me for any services that might pleasure Her and whilst i am always ready at a  moments notice i have to respect that if Miss does not have the urge then She simply does not have the urge - for me that is! 

 

Miss is off to a funeral now. Not anyone i know and i think She is there more in support of Her children rather than having any strong affinity with the deceased.  As She left i was loading the washing machine with mostly my boring dull male clothes.  Out of the blue Miss presented me with Her black nylon clad left leg (sadly tights rather than stockings) and told me 'lick my foot sissy!'.  Oh Miss!  Such an honour.  i ran my willing tongue over Her tights and licked and gently kissed Her buckled shoe. 

 

i wish Miss would make me do more of this.  Her shoes, Her skirts, Her dresses, Her panties, Her bras.  Stockings too if She ever wore them.  i'd even love to do the same to Her arse  - both in and around it.  It's worship and re-enforcing Her Female superiority whilst confirming my sissy submission.  More please Miss! x  

Waking Up A sissy

 

 

If i go to bed as a sissy then it stands to reason that i will also wake up as a sissy. Firstly because i will more often than not be in my own chambers whilst Miss will be in Hers.  Unless i have been lucky enough to be allowed to sleep with Her this will always be the case.  Then there will be my attire.  If i have gone to bed dressed appropriately then i will wake up dressed appropriately. 

 

'Appropriately' to me means a gorgeous girly baby doll nightie or gown - usually double layered chiffon with lots of frothy femmy bows and ribbons.  With this will normally be a pretty bra and panties set - matching.  If i've gone to bed wearing stockings then i will also wake up in stockings. 

 

Lots of Real Women won't usually wake up dressed as such.  They may have indeed gone to bed dressed in something pretty or have gone to bed with someone dressed to tease and seduce but most of that will have been removed or discarded during a hot love making session.  Panties might remain, indeed a sexy nightgown may also remain but it is most unusual for a Real Woman to still be in Her bra when She wakes. 

 

For a sissy it's different.  The feelings of the clothing on me as i wake instantly reminding me of what i am.  Making me feel all pretty and girly and anything but a Real Man.  Now that i have started wearing my breast forms again it is only adding to the excitement of being a sissy and enjoying those first feelings of arousal on waking. The first few minutes of wakefulness, feeling the delicate materials against me, the tightness of my bra, my panties becoming slightly wet, easily concealing the tiny cock inside them.

 

Then there is serving Miss Her morning tea.  Mincing into Her chambers, feeling my gown swish and sway, seeing Miss naked or semi-naked, hoping She might demand some pleasuring.  Curtseying to Her, kissing Her hand as She presents it.  Then, if no further services are required, delicately mincing out of Her chambers with a soft sweep of my gown or nightie. 

 

Another pleasure of having my breast forms in my bras is the extra definition they give to the outlines of my pretty bras beneath my gowns.  i simply can't help myself looking in the mirrors of our home to check how they look.  When Miss use to regularly wear the type of gowns and nighties i always wear it used to make me so horny for Her seeing the outlines of Her bras, panties and suspenders.  That subtle hint of what's underneath. 

 

 

 

i'm aching to play with my little cock this morning but without permission from Miss that simply is not going too happen.  To take my mind away from that i have some clearing up to do outside.  Boring male clothes on the outside but pretty panties underneath.  As always! x

Text Fun

 

 

When i'm texting Miss a reply to Her message or initiating a text message i always sign with an 'x' and with a specifically girly emoji.  My favourites available are one of a red hair bow with pretty streamers, a party dress, a bikini, a stiletto and a lipstick.  Miss usually adds a 'hot kiss' emoji to Her text messages.  i believe that is Her 'hotwife' emoji. One we both use occasionally is an emoji of a bull - for obvious reasons!

 

i love it when Miss texts me and calls me 'sissy' in the text itself.  A reminder and a confirmation - if ever i needed one! 

 

My car is equipped with a voice programme that reads text messages aloud over the speakers if i activate it to do so whilst driving.  It initially shows me who the text is from and then should i choose to 'listen' it will read out the message in a bit of a robotic Female voice.  When i'm alone in the car i can be 100% confident that the context of Miss' messages will be totally for my ears only but when i might have company it becomes a challenge.....do i let the voice play or do i ignore it and read it later? i could have the text display itself with no voice but it, just like the voice would be seen/heard by anyone else in the car.

 

So for now, i am allowing voice texts to come through from Miss when i'm driving alone and the wonderful thrill i get (even if it is in a robotic voice) when the word 'sissy' is spoken out.  Hmmmmm.  Would i dare to risk doing that with another person/people in the car with me?  Depends....i might just have to do it if Miss tells me so! 

 

Then of course there's the possibility that Miss will be sending me a cuck text.  Meeting someone, about to meet someone, already having fun with someone.....endless possibilities that would soak my panties immediately.  Just think of the fun Miss could have with this......x

Boobilicious!

Last night i decided to put my breast forms on.  They are a 38C and fit wonderfully into virtually all of my pretty bras which are either 38C or 38D cups.  It's been a while since i last used my forms and having them in last night reminded me just how much i've missed them.  They add to that wonderful feeling of wearing a bra with their weight creating a delicious forward and downward pull on the bra itself and causing it to tighten slightly around my back.  For a sissy it truly is such a delightful sensation.  Additionally there's the aesthetic benefit.  A properly filled bra, especially a lacy one looks so much better with simulated boobs in the cups.  Of course, nothing comes close to a real pair of breasts inside a hot sexy bra.

 

 

 

They are purely a 'for home' item however as i could not actually wear them outside.  It would be beyond subtle which is not arousing for me.  i have actually worn breast forms in bras in front of Miss and Her lovers on occasions in the past.  So deliciously humiliating to be sat there in all my frothy feminine finery with a full bra whilst Miss enjoyed Herself with a Real Man. 

 

 

 

With the weather cooling down at last it is coming to the time where i'll start wearing stockings again.  i've missed those very much.  With suspender belts or as hold ups, it's another glorious sensation to wear stockings and to have yet more items of Women's clothing on me to keep me reminded that i am a total sissy.

 

Talking of stockings, Miss and i used to have an arrangement called 'stockings Fridays'.  On Fridays Miss would wear stockings to work and it used to drive me wild with excitement knowing that She was out there wearing them. i'd fantasise about Her meeting Men and enjoying Herself.  Miss last wore a pair of stockings in November so that's nearly 9 months.  That is to say She last wore them in my presence.  She may have found other occasions to do so and has simply not told me.  i'd love to dress Her in stockings and suspenders for a date or just simply for work.  The fact that She would be wearing them for anyone but me makes my panties very wet with excitement. x

A Bit Of Black

It is very unusual for me as a sissy to wear black lingerie and i suppose it is very unusual for most sissies to have any type of black lingerie in their sissy collection.  i do however own two lovely long black vintage style gowns and also one set of black lace bra and panties along with a black suspender belt. 

 

Black lingerie is regularly seen as the sexy colour to wear.  Worn by a Woman who wants to look hot and desirable.  It is commonly seen in porn films as the colour of choice and i would bet that with Women going on a hot date their choice of lingerie will more often than not be black. 

 

So can and should a sissy wear black lingerie?  To me it depends on my mood and how i am feeling at the time.  Whilst i most certainly do not consider myself attracted to Men at all there is a certain part of me that would definitely do something to a Bull or a Lover if Miss or He wanted me to.  Part of the humiliation aspect perhaps? 

 

Then there's the immersion aspect.  By that i mean by wearing black lingerie i am trying to actually 'be' the hot Woman, the Woman who is feeling desirable and sexy.  That must be something a psychologist would have a field day trying to unscramble!

 

This black set i am wearing today does make me feel sexy and slightly empowered.  i just love the sheer back of the panties and the delicious seam pattern on them.  They are also rather tight around my small cock, making it look even smaller than it actually is. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Many of my favourite porn scenes involve the Man splashing huge ribbons of love seed all over the pretty black lace panties of His Woman or when He shoots huge globs of His cum across a black lace bra.  Seeing cum on black stockings is also very arousing!  So how does that all apply to my thoughts of Miss?  The thoughts of Her coming home one day with Her black bra, panties and stockings marked with the hot sperm of a Lover - obviously! x

Monday Moaning

 

 

No...this is not a parody of the famous comedy 'allo allo - but a post that should have been put up by me five days ago.

 

Miss was taking what She calls an 'admin day', one of those days where She tries to catch up with things that have been going on whilst She is out at work proper.  She must have been getting on top of things as She came downstairs from Her office to join me in the living room.  i was dressed in boring male clothes but underneath was wearing a very pretty French blue lace bra and panties set.  i had no inkling of Her mood but quite out of the blue Miss said 'let's have hot sex sissy'.  i do love it when Miss takes the initiative and as a sissy that is how i expect any interactions between us to take place.  Even though i am always ready to perform for Her it is not the place of a sissy to instigate any sexual activity between us.  i must not be pushy.   i must be subservient and i must be ready for whenever She wishes to use my less than manly sexual capabilities.

 

Both of us were soon upstairs in Her chambers.  Miss had changed into a pretty blue and floral patterned cami top and a quite gorgeous pair of white lace panties.  As i began to remove my male clothes Miss told me to get rid of my bra and go and put on a camisole or something similar.  i don't think Miss likes me wearing a bra when She wants to use me to pleasure Her.  As a total sissy, i do prefer keeping my bras on as it is a re-enforcement and reminder that i am a complete sissy girl and nowhere near being a Real Man.  However, Her wishes must be respected so i quickly moved to my own chambers and from my lingerie drawers selected a pretty silk and lace ivory teddy to go over my blue panties.

 

i will never just jump straight onto the bed with Miss, rather i'll wait for Her permission.  i'll usually stand there sheepishly with my hands folded over my tiny cock until Miss summons me onto Her bed.  This She duly did and then commanded that i stroke Her sex petals through Her pretty panties.  Miss was very wet and i was pleased that She was enjoying my caresses.  She asked me if my little cock could get hard enough for Her and then proceeded to stroke me through my own panties.  My 'sissy clit' was certainly as hard as it could ever be and was gently dribbling sissy pre-cum into my panties. 

 

Miss then deliberated out loud as to whether She was going to allow me inside Her and if She did would it be with a condom.  i meekly replied that both scenarios would be an honour.  Miss then told me to get a condom from Her dresser.  In there were two packets - the packets i had bought a couple of weeks ago.  One box has been labelled 'Miss' and the other 'sissy'.  Those were labels put on by me.  Miss told me to show Her both boxes and chose a condom from Her box.  That was totally Her prerogative however i had assumed that Miss knew those 'special' condoms (more expensive) were for Her to use in any way other than involving me.  Maybe She does know that and was just giving me an extra treat?

 

As usual my small cock, even hard, did not fill the condom but Miss demanded that i get on top of Her and try to fuck Her like a Real Man.  Of course i can never come up to scratch in that respect but i tried my best, maintaining my hardness for Her as She no doubt was lost in thoughts and fantasies about being fucked by a lover.  Unless Miss is vocal before Her own orgasm i don't say anything to Her.  As much as i'd like to i know that i should let Her concentrate on Her own pleasure.  It is only when She is close to cumming that i might say a few words to Her and this time as She began to approach i encouraged Her to 'come hard for Him', to 'cum for your lover'.  Miss did indeed cum hard and i stayed inside Her, still sheathed.

 

Miss then told me to withdraw and kneel next to Her whilst keeping the condom on and to masturbate.  The condom was almost off my tiny cock by now and even fully hard, my little clit was not filling it so masturbating into it was quite difficult with most of the rubber flapping off the end.  Miss then told me that i could take it off and keep going until i came on Her camisole.  She knew it would not take me long.  i kept my free hand on Her lovely panties, telling Her how pretty they were whilst Miss told me how good those panties look in contrast to a big black cock.  She told me to cum, 'cum for Me and my Lover sissy'.  Oh Miss!! That took me over the edge and my weak pulses of girly sissy juice dribbled out and onto Her camisole. 

 

This post really should have gone up very soon after that wonderful afternoon session but due to having lots to do (real world stuff) i was unable to get into done in time.  i really loved how Miss involved me cumming for not just Her but a lover as well. It's something that would be so humiliating and arousing for a sissy.  Even in the past, during our real life cucking that did not happen but it would be so good if it did!  x