The Office Girl

 

 

Ohhhhhh - imagine if i was one!  How wonderful!  Not a proper biological Female nor even a convincing transvestite but a sissy office girl.  i'd work for a small business in an office complex of about 50 genetic Women.  i'd be their 'bitch', their run-around, their very own 'go get it girl'.

 

None of them would be interested in me sexually, although they'd all get a certain sexual power thrill from making me do whatever it is they needed doing.  The memos, the photocopying, tea making, bin emptying - all the tasks that they have no time for.

 

A strict dress code of course.  Ruffled blouses, pussybow blouses, semi-sheer blouses.  Lace bras that show through the blouses.  Tight pencil skirts with either side slits or deep back vents.  Tight enough to show the outline of my suspender belt straps and of course my full backed panties.  Stockings all the time and above average heels on my feet.  Hair bows or ribbons and my hair in a cute ponytail.

 

i'd be addressing them all as Ma'am or Miss and they'd call me 'sissy'.  They'd all have hunky boyfriends and would gossip about them often - in front of me - talking about Real Men, their big cocks and their muscles.  All of this designed to make me feel so pathetically inadequate.  And i'd love it! 

 

Serving them tea when they wanted it.  Everything done with a curtsey.  Standing before them every morning for a lingerie check - showing my panties and stockings.  Having them laugh at my tiny cock.  Mincing around the office on my heels, my tight skirt clinging, my arse swaying.  Constantly touching up my make-up having been told to re-apply lipstick or mascara or anything they had deemed to have worn off.

 

They would all know how in a permanent state of arousal i would be.  They would all know how wet my panties would be.  They'd tease me mercilessly and i'd be grateful for it.  i'd be the first to arrive and the last to leave.  They'd make me take public transport to and from work so that everyone there could laugh at the sissy office girl. 

 

They'd show me outfits on the internet and insist that's what i wear to work once i'd bought them.  They'd ask my opinion of their own clothes and drive me insane with flashes of stocking tops, panties or bras.  Then they'd keep reminding me how much their boyfriends are going to appreciate what they are wearing for them. 

 

A dream job for a sissy.  i would probably be doing it without pay as well! x

Prissy In Purple

As most Women no doubt love to do themselves i also take quite some pride in co-coordinating my lingerie.  A matching set of bra and panties is much prettier and nicer on the eye than an odd, unmatched set.  Of course there will be times when that matching panty or bra is in the laundry box and on occasions such as that then something as close as possible will suffice.  In the main however, a set is a set for a reason - they are meant to be worn together.

 

 

 

My sissy lingerie collection also includes many suspender belts (garter belts to those across the pond).  i would think that most Women who feel sexy about themselves, want to look sexy for their lovers and who enjoy dressing up will own at least two suspender belts. One black and one white.  A stock wardrobe if you like.  i am quite a way beyond 'stock' and own at least twenty suspender belts.  The obvious black and white ones then pinks,blues, reds, beige and so on.  Why so many? Well there's the obvious sissy appeal to wearing them - so unmanly and so girly.  Another reason is that since i own so many pairs of bras and panties in lots of colours then it follows that i should have a suspender belt that matches or comes very close to matching each set.

 

 

 

With the weather in the UK having cooled down considerably today it seemed to me a perfect 'excuse' to wear stockings.  i have not worn a pair for months now and have really missed them.  Having already chosen a pretty purple set of lace bra and panties i then just had to coordinate them with a suspender belt.  The one i'm wearing now is not directly from the same range but certainly a good colour match and a very nice, sexy compliment.  Natural stockings seem best with the set - white would have worked just as well but it's the 'daily wear' look that i wanted to achieve.

 

 

 

i had hoped that i would have been entirely dressed in my ensemble before Miss went out shopping but my tardiness had left me in bra, panties and suspender belt with no stockings yet attached.  There was actually something quite sexy about having my suspender straps dangling under my panties and it was wonderful to have Miss caress my back, run Her hands over my pretty bra straps and give them a playful snap.  i love it when She does that! 

 

 

 

i do enjoy making sure that i give Her a goodbye kiss whenever She is leaving or if i am leaving the home.  A soft, puckered lip touch - so soft - and as i do so a little bend of the knees, almost a quick bob, with my hands flaring out.  Very sissy! She really does arouse me.

 

 

 

So the clock starts again to the next time when Miss may allow me inside Her.  It's up to Her when that happens.  i used to constantly badger Her for sex letting my own high libido overrule what She might actually be feeling Herself.  It used to frustrate me immensely.  It no longer does.  It used to cause friction between us.  It no longer does. 

 

i'm also going to start another 'ticking clock'.  The last time Miss allowed my little cock in Her mouth.  It's now at 98 days and whilst i would love it if She might do that again i also have to accept that what's in it for Her?  Whilst it might be easy to fit in there i think that Women often enjoy sucking a much bigger cock, that of a Real Man as a gesture of submission and to enjoy the challenge of seeing if they can get it in there. x

 

 

Morning Glory

 

 

Despite being 100% sissy i still have testosterone cursing through me.  Only a complete biological reset could alter that and that's not something i'm looking to do anytime soon. So although i don't feel or act like a Real Man my body will naturally 'behave' like one at times.  By this i mean the urge and that the urge is most prominent in the morning.  What urge?  Arousal of course!

 

i am at my most horny and sexually excited in the first few hours after waking up.  What is it that is arousing me?  Well firstly i am waking up everyday with my little cock deliciously encased in a pair of pretty panties.  i am also usually wearing a matching bra.  Over that i am wearing a gorgeously femmy baby doll nightie or nightgown.  Floating down the stairs to make Miss Her morning tea.  Delivering said tea to Her with a curtsey, seeing Her in Her slumber, feeling my pretty lingerie on me - all of these sensations make this sissy very horny in the mornings. 

 

i would also have reported that today would have been day 35 since Miss allowed me inside Her but that would be a lie.  Yesterday not only did Miss let me inside Her, She also let me squirt my sissy juices into Her - without a condom.  Is there any greater honour than that?  i must have pleased Her this week.  That as well as the fact that She was feeling very aroused Herself yesterday afternoon.  Miss knows very well that i am always horny for Her but the days of me forcing the pace in that regard are over.  It is up to Her when any lovemaking will happen and yesterday it did - because She decided it would.

 

We were sitting together on the sofa, Miss in Her sexy work dress and me in male t-shirt and shorts with pretty red panties underneath.  Out of the blue Miss remarked 'i think i'll go and try on that new teddy you bought me so let's have some hot sex'.  Wow!  i told Miss that would be lovely and that perhaps She would like to summon me when She was ready.  Not 5 minutes later She called me up - 'sissy, come upstairs'.  There She was, looking so hot in Her new black lace teddy.  i asked Her if i could join Her on the bed and She beckoned me onto it.  i asked Her if She wanted anything in particular, Her love petals soothing perhaps?  'i need a man, to be taken' was Her reply.

 

This is where i panicked somewhat.  Without doubt the vision of Her there was turning me on so much but to 'take Her like a Man'?  That could be difficult and not something that was going to come naturally to me.  My arousal  - natural.  My love for Her - natural.  To 'fuck' like a Real Man does?? 

 

i caressed Her gorgeous lace clad body whilst Miss reached into my panties and did likewise with my tiny cock.  Fully erect it still does not even fill Her delicate hand.  It was however hard and that is what Miss wanted most of all - the hardness inside Her.  As i have already mentioned i cannot 'act' my love for Her - that's real.  i cannot 'act' my desire and arousal for Her - that's also real but i cannot be the forceful and dominate Man, taking Her - that's not me. 

 

However, Miss was going to let me be inside Her and my hardness was hopefully going to satisfy Her.  First with me on top, then from behind.  Miss asked me if i wanted to take Her from behind - 'is that what you want Miss'? 'Is that what YOU want' She replied.  i think She wanted me to be making the decisions, to have a Man take Her, have his way with Her.  All of this quite difficult for me to come up with naturally.  i did get behind Her and then later back on top where Miss worked hard at Her clit whilst my hardness was easily maintained just looking at my oh so beautiful Superior Female beneath me.  Miss was going to cum and cum She did - quite hard.

 

'Am i allowed to stay inside you Miss' i asked?  'Yes, you can but don't take too long'. There....Back in control and back being the 'decision maker'.  Miss did not treat me to any sort of verbal humiliation or teases.  i imagined myself as a lover of Hers.  i imagined myself as a lucky Man who had 'pulled' this beautiful woman beneath me.  Still a sissy and still feeling like one.  No words from Miss but soon my inadequate pulses of sissy squirts were pumping weakly into Her.  i felt so much love for Her at that moment but also felt sad in a way.  Sad because i don't really think that i can give Miss what She genuinely wants sexually.  Most profound with that however is that this inability to do that actually reinforces my sissiness and makes me love Her even more.

 

The clock begins again.....x 

Ultra Femme

Dressing in some sort of feminine attire is an everyday occurrence for me and every sissy should always try her best to at least have something on every day which reminds her of the sissy she is.  For me, lingerie is pretty much worn every day.  That will usually consist of a pretty bra and panties set.  There are occasions in the day where i will have to take the bra off, especially when it is being worn under a top that is allowing it to show extremely obviously!  i like subtle hints not great big ones.  i like the thought of people being unsure as to whether i'm wearing something totally un-male, not great big declarations.

 

There are of course occasions where there is no need to be subtle.  In the past when Miss has been enjoying a Real Man i've been in attendance dressed in very frilly girly things.  In those times it was fitting that i should be dressed as such as it perfectly suits the occasion.  A Real Man and Miss enjoying each other with the inadequate sissy - me - being forced to watch. 

 

 i've discovered that the best way to make sure that what i am wearing under a male top - and it's usually a bra - is subtle rather than glaring, is to ask Miss how it looks.  On Tuesday the bra i was wearing was screamingly obvious under my white t-shirt and so i only wore it in the house and removed it when out.  Miss commented that it could be seen so clearly.  Yesterday, a different bra and male t-shirt and Miss remarked that it was hardly noticeable at the front but the straps and band could be seen at the back, especially if the t-shirt tightened.  i told Miss i rather quite liked that and She replied 'really'?  She was almost laughing, in fact i think the tone of Her response was meant to ridicule me and make me feel belittled.  It worked.

 

That's the sort of thing i really love Miss to do.  To mock, to humiliate, to ridicule and to embarrass me.  To make me feel sexually inadequate.  To belittle my cock and to generally laugh at my complete lack of maleness. 

 

There are days when i feel even more femme and sissied and today is one of them.  i am not entirely sure what makes those days happen.  Maybe it is a culmination of things that have happened recently?  Just yesterday Miss reminded me that i had yet to buy Her another pair of pretty yellow panties.  i got straight on to that and correctly asked Her if there was anything else She wanted - all at my expense of course.  Miss sat down with me at my laptop and 30 mins later i had paid for two pairs of lovely ivory panties, a strapless ivory bra, a black lace teddy (body) and of course the yellow panties.  Wonderful!  i will probably never get to enjoy Miss in any of these items and that thought, along with Her making me buy more things for Her made me love Her so much and my sissy clit harden in my own panties. 

 

Miss told me that She might reward me later 'but i don't know exactly how' were Her words.  The 'how' was a condom, on my bed in my chambers that evening.  The silly thing is that i entirely missed it and must have fallen asleep with it still there in it's wrapper.  i told Miss about that this morning and She said 'yes sissy, that was for you.  It was for last night but you can use it at your leisure and for your pleasure'.  i'll use it this afternoon.

 

I think that gesture from Miss for me  which i see as Her love for me is what has made me feel wonderfully extra sissied today.  That is why i am now wearing a lovely floral patterned silk sheath style summer dress with a rose and white lace decorated bra and panties set underneath.  Just before Miss left for work i asked Her what She thought:

 

'Very pretty for the weather and very sissy for the weather'. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i'll be wearing this ensemble when i unwrap the condom and imagine Miss with someone else - at the flirting stage.  This will certainly get my small cock hard for the condom and i'm sure i won't need much thinking of Miss before my squirts into it complete the humiliation.  My love for Miss is as strong as ever.  x  

More Condoms sissy!

Actually....Miss did not order me to get more condoms...rather i suggested by text that we might be running out and that maybe it would be a good idea if i bought some more for the occasions where She would allow me to use them on myself. 

 

Miss agreed that this was a good idea and stated in Her text reply that She actually did not know how many were left.  i texted back if would Miss like any for Her own use and if so that i would get two boxes.  Miss replied 'good sissy'.

 

This followed last night when Miss retired to Her chambers but not before giving me permission to 'play'.  i took a sneaky chance and asked if i could play using a condom.  It really is so belittling and humiliating to masturbate into a condom.  My little cock encased in rubber - not allowed anywhere near Her wonderful pussy - and being forced to squirt its sissy juice into a sheath.  Is there anything more demeaning?  Miss consented to my request and left a durex on the pillow of my bed in my own chambers.  Just as i went to bed i heard Miss call from Her room 'i hope you found your present sissy'.  i had!

 

It was somewhat awkward waiting for Miss to fall asleep before i started to touch my tiny cock in my panties in the hope that it would get hard enough so that the condom would stay on.  i imagined Miss texting me from work to tell me that She would be late home 'because I am meeting someone sissy...and i think you can work out already what that means....it's not a first date....and i doubt we will be fucking.....but i'm sure we will be moving on to that in the near future'.  Oh God i came so hard thinking of that. It was difficult to stifle my girlish moans and sissy sighs of pleasure as i thought of that scenario.

 

Back to the condoms i bought today. i did indeed by two packets.  One being the standard condom for Miss to use on me, either for when i am allowed to play with myself using one or the very rare chance that Miss might want me to be insider Her.  These cost me £10 for 12.  The other packet were a more luxurious specification and were £10 for 6.  i left both packets in Her chambers this evening with a sticky label on each.

 

 

 

 

Just in case Miss might want to use them elsewhere? 

 

It's now 31 days since Miss has allowed me to be inside Her. x

Skirting The Issue

i did say in an earlier blog that i really should start wearing skirts more often during the day - especially in this relentless heat.  So today out came a lovely dark blue 'schoolgirl' style skirt with pretty knife sharp pleats all the way round the back and a nice wrap over at the front.  My male clothing shorts are nice in the heat but even they are getting a bit hot to wear.  Naturally, slipping into a skirt has nothing to do with feeling sissied and girly - no of course not!  

 

 

 

 

Underneath i have on a lovely French blue set of lace bra and panties.  Full backed panties with a gorgeous satiny behind and the bra is full lace.  i did some hoovering earlier and just as before it is so much more comfortable to be doing that chore in a skirt whilst simultaneously reminding me of just how much of a sissy i am.  There's always time for some naughty pictures though!

 

 

 

 

 

Miss has come home early from work to do some essential admin so i shall be getting our evening meal prepared shortly.  i like to have everything out, measured, cut and portioned all in advance of the actual cooking.  It was going to be something that contained processed ham cubes but Miss has been making it clear that She won't eat that so instead i will make something with pasta.  If Miss does not want it then it has to be changed.  x

Vintage Porn

 

 

By 'vintage' i mean porn from the 80's and 90's.  The 80's being my teen years is when i was first aware of porn - in wonderful VHS!  Or the top shelf classics such as Mayfair and Club.  Do they still exist?

 

There are quite a few internet sites that concentrate on classic porn clips and films.  Some of them are subscription free which is great as i don't pay for porn - there's so much free stuff why would you bother paying?  For me porn has to be realistic.  By 'realistic' i mean that the people involved have to be enjoying it or doing a very convincing job of making it look like they are enjoying it.  To be turned on with it i need to think that they are so into what they are doing.  The slightest sign of disinterest or boredom or outright obvious fakery then i'm not interested.

 

i like to see the Women in skirts, blouses, dresses - with pretty lingerie beneath.  Stockings, suspender belts.  If they keep they bras and panties on as well then even better.  i like to see the Women go from a form of full dress to being in their lingerie for the action.  i like build ups - not just wham bam and straight into it.  Kissing, foreplay, fondling, caressing.  i like to hear the Women moaning softly and the sounds of kissing and clothing being removed. 

 

 

 

Seka is one of my favourite porn stars from era past.  Always beautifully made-up, pretty blouses, gorgeous skirts and always stockings and suspenders being worn.  Some modern porn is good but for me it does not touch the classic stuff from the 80's and 90's.  There's definitely a link between what the stars of porn in those decades were wearing and what i enjoy wearing as a sissy. 

 

Miss knows that i like this kind of porn but i am not actually entirely sure what type of porn Miss likes?  x

Make Me Cum sissy

Last night, just after i had served my wonderful Miss with a cup of tea She told me that in the morning i was going to make Her cum.  She told me that She wanted me to bring Her morning tea dressed in my long nightgown and panties - but no bra.  It was very difficult getting to sleep last night, my little cock straining in my panties, wondering what Miss wanted me to do and if there would be any release for me too?

 

This morning Miss looked totally gorgeous in bed.  A very pretty floral pink and white cami top and gorgeously pretty pink satin backed full panties with delicate lace front.  Miss beckoned me into Her bed and told me to wait until She had finished looking at things on Her tablet.  i noticed Her glass dildo at the side table and worked out that Miss would be wanting me to use that on Her.  It was quite clear already that Miss was not going to be needing my small cock in any way whatsoever.  The dildo looked exactly like this:

 

In comparison to my less than ample sissy clit, the dildo was about 7 inches long and at least an inch thick.  Much more in proportion to what a Real Man would offer than what a prissy sissy can.  Miss usually begins by making me stroke Her bum from behind.  i love doing this.  Her full panties beautifully framing Her arse cheeks.  After a few minutes of my caressing Miss brought the dildo into play telling me 'you are to make me cum using this sissy'.  She was very wet already as i gently worshipped Her breasts and kissed Her softly.  i told Her how sexy She looked.  My little cock was hard in my own pretty yellow panties and i could feel myself getting very wet.

 

Miss eased Her panties to the side and whilst She gently stroked Her clit, i slowly worked the simulated cock into Her.  She really was very wet and the wonderful sounds of Her love juices were driving me mad with lust for Her.  i wanted to talk to Her whilst giving Her pleasure but Miss told me to be quiet whilst She concentrated on thoughts of 'my bull, His huge cock, me worshipping Him, Him fucking me so much better than you ever could'.  i took the hint and stayed quiet whilst Miss moaned and groaned with pleasure.  i know the signs when Miss is about to cum and as Her climax approached encouraged Her with words 'cum for Him Miss, cum on His wonderful cock'.

 

Miss came very hard. It's beautiful watching Her cum. It's beautiful knowing that She is thinking of someone else.  It's beautiful knowing that Her pleasure is what matters most of all.  As She came down from Her orgasm Miss asked me 'is your little sissy clit hard'?  It was very hard - well - as hard as it gets.  Miss then told me to go to my own chambers 'and play with your little clit sissy, cum into your panties and then show me your cum in your panties - but keep them on.  I want to see that pathetic amount of cum from your sissy squirts!'

 

i thanked Her for the permission, of course slightly sad that Miss was not going to allow me inside Her.  Back in my chambers i moaned softly as i pumped my pathetically small cock in my panties.  The total humiliation that Miss preferred to use a dildo to cum rather than my 'sissy clit' more than enough to have me squirting my weak pulses of sissy cum into my panties.  These are the panties i wore.

 

Just to the left of the pretty bow you might be able to see the leftover marks of my squirts and also at the bottom left another dribble.  Not really very Manly is it?  i returned to Miss, lifted my nightgown and stood there pathetically, showing Her the less than impressive cum marks in my panties with my miniscule cock encased in the panties.  Miss looked very pleased. 

It is now 24 days since Miss has allowed my little cock to be inside Her.  24 days since She has let me cum inside Her.. i think that Miss is letting me know that She really does have no use for it anymore.  i love Her so much. x

 

 

 

 

Pretty Pleats

i had a busy morning and early afternoon yesterday.  Some things to do out of the house and some hovering to do inside the house.  Miss had drawn me up a written list which She had titled 'sissy list'.  It was the tasks on the list that kept me busy. 

 

Under my drab male clothes i was wearing a lovely salmon pink bra and panties set.  My male t-shirt was blue and white striped but quite thin.  There was certainly a hint of my bra outline under it if you looked closely enough but neither my barber (yes, i had my hair cut - Miss demanded it) nor anyone in the supermarket noticed.  The Lady in the dry cleaning shop did though - i think.  She certainly looked at my chest for longer than a quick glance and i felt quite embarrassed, humiliated and of course aroused.  There was no facial expression from Her but if i was betting i'd say 80/20 that She recognised that i was wearing a bra.  Something for Her to talk about and laugh about with Her friends. 

 

Hoovering the whole house was going to be quite a uncomfortable thing in my male drab because of the heat so i decided to femme up a little and don a pretty white short pleated tennis skirt.  It even had Reebok on the front!  It made me feel so much more girly and sissified.  Doing the housework with the sharp pleats dancing and swishing over my bare legs. 

 

 

 

For a sissy like me, doing such housework becomes completely natural and enjoyable when i'm wearing items of Women's clothing.  i feel better mentally and emotionally.  Knowing i also still had on my lovely bra and panties just added to the pleasure.  i was in the middle of doing the stairs with my back to the door when Miss came home. She approved of my attire and my reason (much more comfortable than shorts) for wearing the skirt.  It's nice to have Her appreciation.  i took a few pictures as i was hoovering:

 

 

 

 

 

Actually, that's more than a few!  i could not help myself. i was getting quite turned on and feeling very sissied.  All sorts of thoughts in my sissy mind about how i was cleaning the house for Miss to bring a lover home to and that they would both come through the door to find me posing for my camera.  Oh!!  i just love the contrasting pink panties to the pure white of the skirt.  That tiny little cock in there, no threat to anyone and at the same time of no use to anyone.  The sheer back of the panties stretched tight across my arse - vulnerable and exposed. 

i think i should slip into skirts during the day more often now.  There are plenty in my wardrobe to choose, including two other short pleated ones like this skirt.  When the weather finally cools down it will be wonderful to combine them with stockings and suspenders.  It's so much fun being a sissy! x



 

The Joy Of Chiffon.

i have a very large collection of gorgeous feminine nightwear.  Long floaty gowns and skimpy baby-dolls.  What bonds them in commonality is that they are all 'vintage' and all from the times when Real Women wore the most wonderfully feminine of evening attire.  My collection includes classic brands such as Olga, Vanity Fair, Shadowline and many others.  Each item is beautifully made and just oozes class, sexiness and style.  i find each item such a joy to wear as i delight in the sensations against my skin of chiffon, lace, satin and silk.  Above all of the materials of my gowns, it is chiffon that makes me feel the total sissy that i am.  Especially if it is double layered!

 

It's as if the manufacturers knew exactly what they had in mid for the wearer when they created them.  They must have known that even the handling of a chiffon nightgown would be a mind blowing sensation in itself.  Then of course there's the separation of the double layers as the item floats so so softly over the wearer and the final settling of the material around the waist, knees or floor.  Then the look - or more accurately what is seen by the other party.  Even double layered chiffon nightwear allows the subtle showing of what other pretty treasures lay beneath.  An outline of panties, suspender straps, bra cups or luscious breasts and sweet love petals should the wearer be naked.  i refer of course in these descriptions as the wearer being a Real Woman but the same still holds true for a sissy - minus the breasts and petals!

 

Miss has Her own collection of vintage gowns but the days of Her wearing them regularly appear to have waned somewhat.  Miss often tells me that i will be too hot sleeping in my gowns/nighties however i can only reply that i am prepared to put up with that as a trade off for the glorious physical sensations they provide as well as the 'appropriateness' of them to me as a sissy in having to wear them.  To be floating around in my chiffon evening wear, running errands for Miss, curtseying for Her and generally feeling like such a sissy girl is a wonderful experience. 

 

The last couple of evenings i have worn and slept in one of my favourite Kayser 3/4 length double chiffon gowns.  In a pale blue with delicious bows adorning thin, delicate shoulder straps. It has a delightfully pretty lace bust line which i simply can't help running my fingers over.  It falls fairly straight but is floaty enough to respond to gusts of wind or a house fan by flaring and lifting wonderfully around my waist and legs.  If worn with anything underneath it subtly shows off the lines in a very teasy flirty way and feels so sensuous when gathering the material underneath in order to sit and then again when crossing legs.   

 

Here is the very mentioned gown. 

 

 

 

 

 

The last picture, taken from the rear, showing that gorgeous hint of a full panty worn underneath. 

 

A sissy can't really ever own enough chiffon nightwear can she and it does take an extreme exercise in self-control to stop me from being tied to e-bay and drooling over the gorgeous creations in the vintage nightwear section.  The American Ladies seem to have been far more into the really feminine things from previous eras than us Brits and it is from those shores that nearly all of my collection has come. x

Miss Exposed!

Our guests have departed now after an excellent weekend.  Lots of fresh air, good food and good company.  i hope i did a good job of the 'Real Man' act at the right times and in the right places for Miss.  She did however manage to send out some very subtle signals that there is a Female Led Relationship here.  The first was a wonderfully delivered command, in fact an order to me to go and get Her iPad from upstairs.  The way She delivered it was so good.  A straightforward 'go and get my iPad'.  Said right in front of our guests. i don't think they picked up on it but i certainly did and it made me love Her so much at that moment in time, as well as arousing my little cock.

 

The second one was a form of financial domination.  We were at an outdoor show and Miss had not brought any cash with her.  i had £25 in notes and gave that to Miss so that at least She could buy something if She saw something She wanted.  i don't know exactly how it happened but Miss seemed to cotton on that this was not a loan but instead Her taking my money and that She would give me back what She had not spent and that would be that.  This is one of the more subtle aspects of FLR.  Some sissies do not include it on their relationship with their superior Female but i find it so arousing and so gorgeously humiliating when Miss uses my money for Herself in any way She sees fit. 

 

Ultimately i would be so honoured to pay for everything She might need for and do with a lover.  It would be a privilege. This morning i received my change from Miss and did not even need to ask  about the difference from the initial £25.  She had spent what She wanted to spend and i felt so pleased to have been financially humiliated by Her.

 

Even though i have spent the last three evenings sleeping with Miss in Her chambers, She has shown no interest in any sexual activity.  Of course i have been next to Her these last three nights with my little cock hoping that She might want to get intimate.  As a sissy should know, it's not for us to pressure our Superior Females into anything.  If they want to make use of us then they'll let us know. Just as it should be!

 

Miss was however in a playful mood this evening once our guests had gone.  On our regular walk, in the lovely fresh air She agreed to let me see Her lovely arse and panties and.... to photograph it and publish it on my blog.  Regular readers will know that this is now the second occasion where Miss has allowed that to happen.  Miss does have this exhibitionist streak about Her and i'm certainly not going to discourage it!  So halfway through our walk, in a secluded spot, She lifted Her dress from the back and stopped too allow me to savour this wonderful view:

 

Miss stated that 'I'm not wearing the sexiest of panties sissy'.  No Miss, they were sexy.  They were sexy because you were in them. Pale pink cotton, full and luscious.  Such a treat for a sissy.  After i had snapped the photo, i bent down and kissed each of Her cheeks through the material, my little cock hardening in my own panties beneath my male shorts.  i so wanted to hear Her order me to keep kissing and to keep licking, for Her to force Her arse back onto my tongue and to make me administer a thorough cleaning and worshipping between Her cheeks.  Could this become a regular occurrence?  Oh i hope so Miss.  Thank you Miss. x

 

 

 

Small Cock Humiliation

Yesterday, Miss made quite a few comments over the course of the day about my tiny penis.  A Real Man would find these sort of comments quite offensive and hurtful. A Real Man would probably fight back and defend themselves verbally.  A sissy like me accepts the truth.  A sissy like me cannot deny it. 

 

When Miss says things like 'your little cock sissy' or 'there's not much down there' or 'it's a bit of a worm' a Real Man would probably get rather upset.  A sissy like me gets rather aroused and excited instead.  On each occasion yesterday when Miss belittled my cock i dribbled a little bit of sissy excitement into my panties. 

 

Instead of getting cross, like a Real Man would, i feel even more love for Her.  A typical reaction from me is to kiss Her in an almost grateful acknowledgement, an acceptance.  To see Miss smile when i kiss Her after She has just said something derogatory about my little cock is wonderful. 

 

This is why She makes such comments:

 

 

Can you blame Her??  x

Body Talk

Another item of femme attire that i love to wear is a Body.  They can also be called Teddies.  Whatever the name applied they are a one piece garment, either strapped or strapless, usually with popper fasteners at the crotch.  To Real Women, bodies tend to be worn as foundation/shapewear.  It's easy to see why as they pretty much hold all of you in and stop wobbly bits spilling out.  i say 'hold all of you in' quite loosely however as i find that i have to also wear a pair of panties with them to keep my little cock from peeking out of the side.  So for me, when i choose to wear a body i will also get the added bonus of having to wear panties with them.

 

My favourite types are the lace and satin versions.  i just love the ones with pretty lace patterns and a defined underwired bra cup section.  They do come in softer cup styles which i also enjoy but definitely prefer those with the underwire.  Some have gorgeous lace patterns going deep down from the bust area almost to the crotch and those with shoulder straps are better for me to wear - well, without natural boobs, what's going to keep it up? 

 

Here's the body (and red lace panties) i wore earlier in the week:

 

 

i don't think the panties spoil the look at all and serve as an extra restrictive layer against any unsightly bulges.  Not that there's much of a bulge there to be unsightly!

Wearing a body under male clothes is very exhilarating and exciting.  The types i wear, with shoulder straps and lots of lacy patterns are probably more likely to be noticed than a bra.  They are comfortable to sleep in and equally suited to wear under long flowing nightgowns.  i have 6 bodies in my lingerie collection.  Three white and one each in red,, blue and black.  Finding a pink one is proving very difficult. 

We are going to be having visitors this weekend so i am going to have to put on the 'real man' act for most of the time.  The one bonus of this is being able to sleep with Miss for three consecutive evenings.  Once alone with Miss in bed i will be my usual sissy self and Miss may or may not require pleasuring and indeed may or may not wish to allow me to pleasure myself.  x

p.s - i received a text this morning from one of Her former lovers. Miss enjoyed Him on at least four occasions.  This is not the first text He has sent recently.  He was asking to see if we are still 'playing'.  Miss has said previously that He is a nice guy but a bit too extreme and that if She's going to 'play' again it would be with new lovers not the same one.  i gently let Him down and told Miss by text what i had done.  i hope i did the right thing as i am sure we won't be hearing from Him again - which is, after all, what Miss wants - i think?  x

 

Household Chores

Something a sissy just loves to do!  Why?  Because there is something quite feminine and submissive about keeping the house clean and tidy.  Especially if it is for someone who you love so much.  Yes, ok, in this day and age Men and Women are equally responsible and equally expected to do their bit, however, if i am sure that if you took a snap survey of every modern Western household it would show that the majority of the domestic housekeeping chores are done by Women.  So in line with that, this sissy, who is hardly a Real Man, is delighted to do them.

 

In any case, Miss is full time at work so when and how She might do them is not even up for debate.  At the weekend?  No....that's Her own time to indulge in what She wants to do.  i do hope that with me being 100% sissy for Miss when we are alone together that She will 'use' me fully.  i actually did have a gorgeously prissy pink satin maids set which i foolishly threw away during a time when Miss and i were arguing often.  Maybe Miss will make me remedy that silly decision and make me get something similar again? 

 

Miss actually wrote a book out for me just after the turn of the year which was to act as a schedule for the household tasks She expected me to do.  i started well with that but lost my way somewhere and failed to keep to the schedule.  i've also misplaced that book - which is not very good of me!  Another factor is that i really like it when Miss actually verbally tells me what She wants doing.  A command.  Miss though seems to prefer me to use my own initiative and look around and do what needs doing.  i sort of get where She is coming from with that as She probably can do without the badgering and questioning when She has other things on Her mind.  Perhaps there could be a compromise? 

 

Miss expects me to send pictures of my attire to Her when i am cleaning and to give Her updates on progress and completed tasks.  It's nice to text Her to let Her know that Her sissy has done such and such or is doing such and such.  Accompanying this will be a picture of what i am wearing.  Today i have chosen a lovely pink and caramel bra and panties set with pretty polka dots adorning each piece.  A very 'sissy' set which makes me feel wonderfully femme.  These are the pictures i sent Miss:

 

 

i hope She finds them pleasing. 

I do wonder at times, what with some arrangements where the Woman is out at work and the male is home, just how many of those males are mincing around in lingerie?  Just how many are doing it with the full knowledge of their other half?  How many are doing it in secret?  How many Women are at work, smug in the knowledge that they have a sissy at home who is totally in awe of them, worships them and is never going to cause them worries about 'playing away' or being unfaithful?  How many sissies are there at home right now, dressed en femme, knowing that's how their Superior Female thinks of them with their sissies hoping that their Superior Female is actually playing away and having fun? 

 

In the latter case, there might be cleaning duties of a slightly different kind for a sissy. x

 

My Favourtie Panties

In and amongst my rather large selection of lingerie i have four pairs of panties that i consider to be extra-special.  They are the ones that i choose to wear when i am feeling especially sissy.  They have also been worn in the past on occasions where Miss has been enjoying a Real Man either with me there to watch or out of the room but close by. 

 

i have only seen these panties available on the internet by mail order and they are manufactured in the USA.  Comically, they go by the name 'manties' and should you visit their webpage i'm sure you'll agree there is a massive choice of styles, colours and designs to appeal to every sissy.  One of the reasons i acquired these panties is that they will embroider them, front, back or both, with words or pictures of your choice.  They will also adorn them with extra bows, ruffles and lace.  It's as simple as pick a style and then go mad designing them to reflect just how much or how little (no pun intended) a sissy you are feeling.

 

My four panties come in baby pink, white, baby blue and a pale yellow.  All very sissy girly colours.  On each pair are two rows of delicate ruffles at the rear and i have had them embroidered at the front:

 

Sissy Clit

Sissy Cuckold

Prissy Sissy

Sissy Girl

 

They are a French knickers style and feel absolutely gorgeous to wear.  My tiny cock always leaks sissy dribbles of arousal when i'm wearing them and they are stretchy enough for a sissy erection to remain concealed inside. 

 

i had two pairs out on the washing line this week:

 

 

Those are also my some of my pretty bras and chiffon baby doll nighties in the background hanging prettily out to dry

 

 

If panties such as these are of interest to other sissies or their Mistresses then this is where you can find them:

 

http://www.manties.net/

 

x

 

Miss Was In The Mood!

Last night, a few hours before Her bedtime, Miss received a LinkedIn message from a former work colleague who She has also enjoyed sexually.  In fact this Man was my first experience of cuckolding with Miss.  As it turned out He was not particularly competent in the sheets and was also not very reliable.  Even though He was quite skilled with his fingers and tongue (Miss came hard on His face in one of their sessions) Miss got bored of Him quite quickly and let Him drift off. 

 

His message to Her last night was non-sexual but perhaps that put Miss in a mischievous mood?  As She left for Her chambers She told me that i had permission to play with my little clit and to think of Her with a Bull.  'You can watch some porn as well sissy - if it helps your small cock get hard'.  i thanked Her for the 'permission' and then added that 'You are my best porn Miss'.  i was of course referring to the wonderful videos i have of Miss playing with Her lovers.  It was one of these that i enjoyed last night, watching Miss riding up and down the huge cock of a black lover.  My sissy squirts pulsed at the part in the video where Miss phones me whilst Her black lover is stretching and filling Her pussy like no cock had before or indeed has ever done so since. 

 

That's how i played last night.  However, even before that, Miss told me that in the morning She wanted me to bring Her tea and to bring my own tea as well to Her chambers.  She commanded that She wanted me to be wearing lacy panties.  This is usually a signal that Miss requires some form of pleasuring.  That thought and the permission to play from Miss made me a very horny sissy last night!

 

So early this morning at 0630 i entered Her chambers with our tea.  With the usual curtsey i placed Her tea on Her bedside table.  Miss, still quite drowsy, then told me to get in bed beside Her and rub Her bottom and back.  She was wearing a gorgeous pair of red lace panties with a wonderful sheer back to them.  As i was caressing Her Miss asked what i was wearing.  i told Her that i was wearing pretty panties, a matching bra and a very girly pale blue chiffon baby doll nightie.  Miss told me that She only wanted me in panties so off came the rest of the items i was wearing. 

 

 

 

Miss had by now guided my hand to the front of Her pretty panties and i was gently rubbing Her petals through the delicate lace.  Her hand occasionally stroked my tiny cock through my own panties causing it to become very wet with arousal.  i was fully expecting Miss to tell me to use my mouth on Her but instead She brought out a condom and told me to get it on my sissy clit.  'I'm not letting you sully my pussy with your sissy clit so get this on and get on top of me sissy' She commanded.

 

The humiliation of having my clit covered to be allowed inside Her caused it to become as hard as it was going to get and i asked Miss if She thought it would be hard enough.  'It will be adequate sissy' was Her reply.  i think Miss was being very generous by describing it as 'adequate'!  i had no problems at all keeping my erection for Her - Miss is so damn sexy that it's impossible not to be aroused.  My usual thoughts about just how small Miss was thinking my cock is, even when hard also helped me stay solid enough for Her.  She had to use Her fingers as well but it was not long before She moaned out Her cumming.  i had to exercise severe restraint in not cumming myself and as Her moans subsided, hoped that She might allow me to stay insider Her.

 

Not likely!  Miss had used me for what She wanted and now that Her pleasure had been achieved She had no further use for me nor did She intend to give me the thrill of being in Her.  i totally get that.  A Real Man?  No doubt He would have been rewarded by Miss and given the honour of cumming insider Her but not so for a sissy. Instead Miss got out of the bed and told me that i was to play with my little clit whilst keeping the condom on and to make sure all the mess is cleared up.  Miss then pointed to Her panties and did a little twirl and wiggle saying 'think about these panties sissy'.

 

Miss was no more than a minute out of Her chambers when my little clit pumped its pathetic sissy squirts into the rubber sheath. i moaned and sighed like a girl thinking of Miss, perhaps on a lunch date today with a Real Man who had asked Her out for a date.  Miss accepting.  Miss finding Him attractive.  Miss coming home later and telling me that She might have found someone to play with.  x

Lusting For Miss

i'm always lusting for Her.  She knows it too.  It is Her control, Her power, Her carrot to dangle.  My high sex drive and Her sexiness are a painful combination for me to cope with.  When She's not in the mood, i'm denied.  When She is in the mood She might allow me to play with my sissy clit or better, allow me to pleasure Her.  The best outcome of all is that rare occasion where She is in the mood and allows me to be inside Her.  It's been quite a while since that happened.

 

Miss knows all of this and maybe She enjoys the torture?  Take yesterday evening for example.  It is still scorching hot virtually all over the UK and last night was probably the hottest evening yet.  Miss has slipped into a gauzy robe type dress, very transparent and through that could clearly be seen Her wonderful panties.  The whole look was driving me insane with lust for Her.  i so wanted Her but.....that's not for me to decide is it?  Miss has the say, the power, the control.  It is She who leads.  The best i was allowed to do was to compliment Her on how sexy She looked and daringly i asked Her if i could take a picture of Her and post it on my blog.

 

Now Miss has been known to be a bit of an exhibitionist - when in the mood and i must have caught Her in such a mood because She happily agreed.  So here She is!  The first ever photo of my gorgeous Miss - albeit face hidden for privacy.  As i took the shot i just so wanted to bury my face into the rear of Her panties and to worship Her arse and perhaps more.  None of that happened but i am so grateful to Her for allowing me to take and show the picture on this blog.  Thank you Miss! x

 

 

Play With Your sissy Clit

Miss retired to Her chambers five minutes ago.  As a devoted sissy i had been hoping that She might require the use of my fingers and tongue to give Her pleasure.  i don't know when Miss last had an orgasm - with me it was nearly two weeks ago.  On Her own - who knows - maybe this morning?  With someone else - i definitely don't know that!  Miss is certainly feeling very considerate and generous however because She came back downstairs a few minutes later and presented me with this:

 

 

 

She said 'you may play sissy, with this, for your tiny sissy clit'.  Oh how humiliating and degrading, oh Miss!  Things have certainly now become even more Female led.  My own masturbation must be controlled and restricted by a condom.  My sissy pulses and squirts must now be pathetically leaked into a condom.

 

Miss is certainly showing no interest in having my tiny cock inside Her - and why would She? 

 

Is this the way it is going to be from now on when i have permission to play? Forced to masturbate into a condom?  Such power Miss has - and it is that power that will keep my small cock hard inside the rubber and Her power which will make me think of Her and squirt my pitiful load of semen into it. x

Hints Of Lace

 

 

i think all sissies enjoy lace.  Either seeing it worn by Real Women and especially wearing it themselves.  Mostly featured in lingerie or nightwear but certainly equally as feminine and pretty in blouses, skirts and dresses. 

 

i am especially fond of seeing lace under other items of clothing and my favourite is the lace bra showing subtly through a blouse or through the material of a baby doll nightie or any type of nightie.  There's something so girly and flirty about that.  i'm sure the wearer actually wants the bra to be seen, wants to be flirty.  A subtle indication that the wearer enjoys showing off and signalling that they are wearing something pretty to be noticed, admired and maybe even wanted.

 

Miss has done this for me once  - actually it may not have really been for me but She was with me in public on a shopping day together wearing a gorgeous white lace bra under a semi sheer white blouse.  Her pretty lace clad breasts were very noticeable and i thoroughly enjoyed watching Real Men looking at them and enjoying the sight.  Miss did not actually tell me that She noticed any Men looking but i definitely saw them and i think Miss enjoyed the fact that i saw them looking.  The visual effect for was for them but the mental effect was for Her sissy.

 

It's the subtle effect that i like most.  Definitely not anything really trashy and slutty such as a black or dark coloured bra under a white top - unless the situation is appropriate of course but in public, pretty pale coloured lace under light coloured tops is most alluring. 

 

For humiliation and embarrassment in public a sissy can always wear a pretty lace bra under her male tops as a reminder of her status.  i enjoy doing this and really enjoy the reactions it sometimes gets from those who have seen the bra outline or seen the straps and band at the rear.  More often than not it is the Real Women who notice the tell-tale outlines and their smirks and grins are so excitingly embarrassing and humiliating. 

 

Last night i wore a lovely white semi sheer double chiffon baby doll nightie with a white lace bra and panties set.  It achieved the desired 'look'.  Subtle hint of bra lace just able to be seen through it, which of course kept my tiny clit very wet.  Miss and i were exchanging texts about me being allowed to play but She was so tired that She actually fell asleep mid texting.  i hope She is feeling refreshed today. x

 

 

Enjoy The Fantasy sissy.

Yesterday before i left home for two days away from Her visiting family Miss told me to lay out lingerie for Her to wear for a lover that evening.  My previous post describes the emotional turmoil of that experience.  Miss put me out of my turmoil by telling me just as I left that 'it's a fantasy sissy, so calm down, it was a fantasy for you to enjoy'.

i have to admit that i did think it all too good to be true and despite wishing it was real it was quite unlikely that Miss had set up something for Herself so quickly.  However it was a delicious tease from Miss.  i can recall yesterday shaking with excitement and nerves as i laid out Her gorgeous lingerie and was still shaking an hour later. i even admitted to Miss that i was shaking!

So as i hugged Miss to say goodbye and as She told me the whole things was a fantasy She stated again....'it's a fantasy sissy, a fantasy. ......for now.'

i said 'Miss,i don't know what to say'.  'Don't say anything sissy, just be led'.

Do i really need to explain the magnitude of those words?

'It's a fantasy...... for now and just be led'.

Good sissies will certainly understand the word 'led' coming straight from FLR.  FEMALE LED RELATIONSHIP.  The written words themselves are enough to make my tiny clit twitch and my panties moist.

Good sissies will also understand the implications of the words 'for now'. 

i love Miss very much and it seems quite obvious to me that She used those words very deliberately so as to leave no doubt in my mind of their implications and the potential. x

Has She Found A Lover?

i'm going to be away from Miss for a couple of days visiting family.  It's a scheduled visit so Miss has known about it for a while.  i've always wondered that if Miss was to enjoy Herself with a Real Man again, without me being in the way then what better opportunity than occasions where i am physically out of the house?  The whole place to Herself.  A lover just simply has to turn up for Her and they will have the freedom to enjoy each other without me being there.  Has Miss actually been planning something along these lines?

 

Because....just five minutes ago Miss called me upstairs and told me this....

 

'sissy, you're going to be away for 2 days so before i go to work today, i want you to lay out on my bed the lingerie, including stockings, that i will wear for my lover this evening.  You can then go and play with your little clit either in the shower or wherever it is you do it'.

 

Oh wow!!  Now my sissy head is spinning with all sorts of wonderful thoughts.  How long has Miss been planning this?  Who is the lover?  Someone from work?  Someone from a special internet sight? Has Miss been actively searching on the internet for a Real Man through one of those discreet 'married affairs' sites?  Is He coming here to stay the night or two or is Miss meeting Him somewhere else?  Is this their first time together?  Is this actually real or is Miss mercilessly teasing me?

 

As soon as She told me my tiny clit literally soaked the front of my panties and i found it extremely difficult to curtsey properly.  The thought of Her making love with a Real Man again is just so wonderful - if it's real??  Is it??  i can't blame Her for wanting to do so - after all, now that She knows i am totally a sissy perhaps She has come to the conclusion that i'm never going to satisfy Her physically in the ways that She needs or deserves? 

 

This is what i have laid out for Her to wear.

 

 

 

She's going to look gorgeous and so hot.  A Real Man would certainly appreciate Her in this.  All i can do is imagine what they will do with each other.  Miss may not even tell me.  Am i being cuckolded again?  Oh Miss!!  x x