Tuesday 30 October 2018

The Joy Of Panties

It is quite likely that the first thing most sissies tried on during their journey into girly sissiness was a pair of panties.  Panties.  Even the word has a gorgeous girly sound to it.  In the UK the most common word is 'knickers' which i find quite a dull word.  Panties however is a much more suitable word to describe a wondrous and delightful item of Female lingerie.
 
 
 
To the sissy that does not want to be discovered or caught a pair of panties are easily worn beneath drab outer male clothing and the secret is safe.  To the sissy that wants to be caught, humiliated by their Mistress or who lives a bit on the edge then panties can also be subtly 'seen' or 'noticed' in a variety of ways.  In all cases though, since the panties are directly in contact with our 'clitties'  it is no surprise that for just about all sissies, owning and wearing them is the bare minimum gesture in order to consider oneself a proper sissy.
 
A full time sissy, such as myself will have many pairs.  In my instance i own a pretty pair of panties to match every bra that i have.  i also own several pairs of 'standalone' panties which come into play on particular occasions.  My custom made embroidered (with humiliating words) panties are amongst my very favourites.  i think most sissies will concur when i say that the best panties (for us) are the more feminine and pretty pairs.  Those with lots of delightful lace, ribbons, bows and other girly adornments.
 
 
 
Styles?  Oh so many!  My favourites are brief styles, i can't stand thongs!  A full rear panty is a must for me and even better if they are sheer or semi-sheer at the back.  Lace and silky satins are preferable to cotton but that's not to say a pair of cotton panties can't be pretty and feminine either.  Miss has some gorgeous panties - many of which i have bought for Her.  Pairs to feel pretty in, pairs to feel comfortable in and pairs to feel sexy in.  i only own one pair of black panties - it's not exactly a sissy colour - whereas Miss has several pairs of hot sexy black panties.  Panties for a lover to appreciate. 
 
 
 
Fortunately i am blessed with a tiny cock which  - unless hard - does not offer too much of an unsightly bulge in my panties.  Even with a small cock it is still almost impossible to wake up without some sort of hardness when wearing panties.  Similarly to bras, there's something highly arousing about seeing a pair of panties decorated with cum.  When Miss is feeling particularly generous She has allowed me to spurt my pathetic sissy cummies onto Her panties whilst She is wearing them and has also made me cum into my own panties in front of Her.  When you have such a small cock it is quite easy to do.  i also love those scenes in porn where the Real Man empties His love over the front or rear of a Woman's panties - again best done on a black pair.  As a sissy, i imagine myself being shown the panties later or being told to clean them up. 
 
 
 
i can't remember the last time i wore 'man pants'.  When there's such a wonderful choice of panties to wear, when there's the delightful sensation of feeling them against my tiny cock, when there's the humiliation factor of 'being caught' - why would any sissy want to?? x  

Friday 26 October 2018

The Joy Of A Bra

 
 
i think this will resonate with many sissies out there.  The wearing of a bra is just something so distinctively 'sissy' - wouldn't you agree?  Real Women wear them for the obvious - they have breasts to support.  That's a purely functional reason.  Then of course, with those breasts often being a focal for sexual attraction, arousal and play for both Men and Women, comes the follow on progression of making a bra sexy/pretty as well as functional. 
 
 
 
But there is no real functional reason for a sissy to wear a bra unless you are going to wear breast forms too.  That, to me, is what perhaps makes the 'bra' the most sissy item of clothing for a sissy to wear.  There is just simply nothing of any equivalence in a Man's wardrobe.
 
Women                                         Men
 
Panties                                           Briefs
Stockings                                       Socks
Blouse                                            Shirt
Skirt/Trousers                                Trousers
Bra                                                 ???
 
i can't decide what is the most sissy thing though:  Wearing a bra on a flat chest or wearing one with breast forms?  I suppose it depends on the situation.  When i'm dressed in drab male clothes then a bra underneath is most certainly a reminder of the real inner sissy - my real self.  There are no breast forms in this instance but i can still feel the straps and the back band as a constant reminder of my girlishness.  There's also the thrill of having it seen or noticed, especially through a thin top or a tight top - something that can be helped by adjusting a strap in public or pulling one of the cups down. 
 
 
 
When i'm wearing a bra with my breast forms then i will also be totally dressed as a sissy with every item of clothing being Female.  To me that just seems right.  i am more likely to be my most girly, submissive and feminine when my bra is 'filled'. 
 
In porn i particularly like seeing the Women keeping their bras on during the action.  Or if not entirely on, lifting their breasts from their cups.  Another delight is seeing the Man or Men with them emptying their love onto the bras.  The whiteness of their seed contrasting beautifully on black or red lace.  i have been known to wriggle and squirm quite girlishly as, on screen, streaks of semen have splashed and adorned pretty bras. 
 
 
 
i own many bras.  Almost 30 of them. Each with their own matching panties and virtually all of them being of a pretty design.  Lace, satin, bows, ribbons - the girly things.  There is hardly a day where i am not, at some time, wearing a pretty bra.  As much as i can, i go through a routine in the morning of selecting what gorgeous bra and panties set i will wear for the day and once on will check myself in a full length mirror.  It's such a thrill to run my hands over the bra cups, the straps, to turn and check my look from all sides. 
 
 
 
Evening time and usually a fresh bra after a shower - with the matching panties of course!  Insert breast forms and slip on a gorgeous girly baby doll or frothy full length gown.  Now my bra is full and presses out, the cups pushing forward, the weight on my straps increasing, the back band tightening.  If my baby doll nightie is sheer then the wonderful sight of the bra lace visible through it is truly delightful. Waking up with my bra still on, its cups full is so arousing.  My little cock damp in my panties as i caress my 'breasts' through the delicate bra material. 
 
 
 
Yes, a bra is perhaps the most distinctively sissy item of clothing that a genetic but sissy minded male could wear.  Thank you Gossard, Triumph, Freya, Lepel, Curvy Kate, Playtex, Panache, Fantasie, Charnos and all you other lingerie manufacturers.  Keep them pretty, keep them girly, keep them coming and.....keep us cumming! x

Thursday 25 October 2018

Watch And Learn sissy....

  • Watch sissy, as He kisses me and how I kiss Him back.
  • Learn sissy, how a Real Man kisses a Woman
  • Watch sissy, as I grind against Him
  • Learn sissy, how a Real Man makes a Woman want Him.
  • Watch sissy, as He caresses me and makes me wet for Him
  • Learn sissy, how a Woman gives Him the signs to take Her
  • Watch sissy, as He removes my clothing
  • Learn sissy, how a Real Man can arouse a Woman
  • Watch sissy, as my lingerie, which you bought, is revealed to Him
  • Learn sissy, how a Real Man appreciates it
  • Watch sissy, as He licks, sucks and kisses my petals
  • Learn sissy, how a Real Man pleasures me orally
  • Watch sissy, as His gorgeous cock makes yours look so inadequate
  • Learn sissy, how He uses it to make me let Him do anything
  • Watch sissy, the pleasure on my face as He enters me
  • Learn sissy, as He takes me to places you can never do
  • Watch sissy, how We move together, enjoying each other
  • Learn sissy, as We whisper mutual words of encouragement and appreciation
  • Watch sissy, how I moan in pleasure as I cum hard for him
  • Learn sissy, as you see what a Real Man does
  • Watch sissy, how He cums hard for me
  • Learn sissy, as We rest before we do it again
 
 
i've never been concealed in a cupboard or wardrobe when Miss has enjoyed Her lovers.  i can imagine that some sissies have been.  Are those thoughts above, the thoughts of what their Mistress is thinking whilst She is enjoying Her Man?   Have the Mistress and Her sissy arranged it that way? Is the lover unaware this is going on?  Risky stuff!! 
 
Maybe the Mistress is not ready to tell the lover just yet of Her sissy cuckold?  Maybe She doesn't want to and is only using this scenario for a once only session - allowing the sissy some erotic humiliation? Maybe the lover will prove to be such an exceptional bed partner that She will tell Him before their next meeting? 
 
In a Mistress, lover, cuckold sissy relationship my view is that for it to work best for everyone  - then everyone should know - eventually! x

Saturday 20 October 2018

Wednesday 17 October 2018

Miss Buys A Skirt

This muse was something i should have added to my last post.  A Woman buying a skirt - hmmmm, not a big deal in most cases...but Miss buying one - well, that's quite something!
 
i've always thought (and told Her) that Miss would look great in a skirt. She has worn one or two before but in the years of our togetherness it is an especially rare thing to see.  Miss has many pretty dresses which She wears for work and for going out.  Some of those dresses are so pretty i have been sorely tempted to buy one for myself! As far as i can recall She has never, ever worn a skirt to work.  i've longed for Her to do so as She would look so hot and.....well....She would absolutely be even more noticed by Real Men.
 
Saturday last, despite the lingerie shopping not being successful, Miss did mention to me that She was also looking for a skirt, for work.  i recall the second She mentioned it my little cock twitching in my panties and i think i uttered something rubbish like 'since when did you wear a skirt for work Miss'?  What i really should have said was 'oh yes Miss, a wonderful way to look good' or something similar.  Despite my crap response Miss did eventually buy one - this one:
 
To me it's such a lovely skirt.  Both pretty and sexy.  Great colours as well.  i offered to pay for it but Miss declined.  Perhaps i can buy Her some more?  She only has to say so.

Miss did make one comment about Her purchase 'I've been thinking about wearing a skirt for a while now'.  Is this skirt and perhaps more skirts to follow something Miss is doing that might be linked to the things She has been saying recently?  My last post is all about those things She said.

i am not sure if Miss has actually tried it on yet?  She is usually quite keen on letting me see new things She has bought for Herself.  Even if She is not particularly enamoured with this one - after trying it on - has Miss now decided that for Her, skirts are in?  i do hope so!  Seeing Her go off to work in Her pretty dresses is wonderful...to see Her go off to work in skirts too would quite blow my mind.  My thoughts would be racing.....is Miss dressing to impress?  Is Miss dressing to impress someone in particular?  Has Miss already impressed someone and is keeping it going?  Has someone (not me - a Real Man!) mentioned to Miss that they'd love to see Her in a skirt?

Normal thoughts for a sissy and perhaps a normal thing for Miss to do, following on from the things She has recently said? x
 
 
 

Sunday 14 October 2018

Did She Mean What She Said??

 
Don't panic - this musing is nowhere near as marathon a post as the previous one!  It's something i felt i had to write as quickly as possible whilst the memories are fresh of certain things Miss said to me over the last four days.  i plan to take each of Her comments in turn and attempt to analyse them - to try and make sense of what She meant when She said them.  The output of my analysis will be what i think She meant.  If i'm wild off the mark, i'm sure Miss will tell me! 
 
Firstly though what a wonderful session this morning with Miss.  It could have happened last night but Miss was very tired.  i was tired too but i always have energy for Her, especially when i sense that She is going to expect me to attempt to pleasure Her.  We both retired to the same bed with us both wearing something very pretty.  In Miss' case a lovely dark blue cami-top and matching French knickers set.  Some delicious lace detailing around the legs of the knickers (they cannot be called French panties!) and made of a luscious silky fabric.  i was wearing a pair of my special 'cuckold sissy' full panties in yellow with 2 rows of girly white ruffles on the rear and the words 'Cuckold Sissy' embroidered on the front.  i've posted a picture of a similar pair in pink which i wore when Miss fucked my sissy pussy.  Over these i wore a gorgeous yellow double layered chiffon baby-doll nighties with a pretty lace trim at the sleeves, bust and hem.
 
Miss had actually admonished me for not having my breast forms in - which was a pleasant surprise - i'd actually forgotten to pack them.  'I'll let you off sissy' She said.  Once Miss had been sated with tea She gradually begin stroking my tiny cock through my panties and naturally it hardened to as much as it could with Her wonderful touch.  i too was gently caressing Miss through the front of Her French knickers and it was so nice to feel Her wetness develop.  Miss commanded me to get on top to which i questioned 'with a condom Miss'?  'No condom this time sissy' She replied.  Wow!  i fully expected Miss to use my hardness for Her own satisfaction and then discard me but She had other ideas. 
 
Neither of us were going to last long it seemed and Miss asked me if i could cum at the same time as Her.  'Oh yes Miss, i can do that'. She was of course using Her fingers to assist Her cum due to the lack of size of my cock but Her cum came hard and seconds into Hers so did mine.  My little spurts of sissy cum being allowed to go as far inside Her as they could swim.  It was wonderful.  i moaned my sissy cum, girlish and feminine and we cuddled lovingly.  A very quick entwinement but very pleasurable for us both and such an honour to be allowed inside Miss without a condom.
 
Back to the topic at hand then.  There were three things Miss said:
 
 
1.  Thursday evening.  As i stated in a previous blog, in politeness and servitude to Miss i offered my services to Miss with the words 'Does Miss need any services this evening'?  Miss scoffed - Her delightful way of dismissing the request  - and added the words 'No sissy, what I need is a lover'.  Oh Miss!  Did She really say that?  Yes She did.  In response i kissed Her lovingly on the cheek and let the kiss linger.  Nothing more was said by either of us.
 
 
 
Analysis: Did She just want to fuck with my mind or has Miss been giving this some consideration?  Remember that a few months ago, in the middle of allowing me to pleasure Her, She told me' I think it's time I found a new lover sissy'. 
 
Conclusion: i think Miss is starting to weigh up the possibility of having a lover to satisfy the needs a sissy can't.
 
2. Last night we were having a really nice dinner out together at the end of a great day.  Miss was telling me that She had a list of things She wanted to make sure i did before the end of December.....'get your dental check-up done....make sure your eyes are tested again.....'  It was a health check list in all effect but then Miss paused as if She was thinking of adding something else but had forgotten it....'Find you a lover with a big cock Miss' i interjected.  Expecting a slap down from Miss i waited but Miss replied 'No sissy, I'm doing that'.
 
 
 
Analysis:  Consider that comment came just two days after the first comment.  i've expressed many times how if it was Her wish to re-engage with other men then i'd do anything She wanted to facilitate it.  It's a role i've enjoyed before.  Miss knows this is something i'd willingly do.  However, there was a very quick dismissal of that with an indication if not a massive hint, that She has Her own agenda.  The use of the present tense was also very striking.
 
Conclusion:  Combining the first two statements made by Miss, is it logical to assume that Miss is already undergoing activities to find a lover?  How long has She been doing this and how?  My own thoughts believe that She may have had a look at one or two discreet dating sites for people already in relationships.  Perhaps something like illicitencounters.com or meet2cheat.com?  I just find it very difficult to detach those two statements as separate entities.  Intriguing!
 
3. Today.  Shopping.  Miss had expressly told me that we would be looking in lingerie shops and that i would be buying Her something.  Naturally i had been looking forward to this. To buy Her something nice, especially lingerie is always an honour.  Additionally Miss may have been planning to embarrass and humiliate me at the same time.  As things transpired the choices on show in the very few shops were not appealing to Miss at all which was a bit of a frustration for us both.  However it was what Miss said whilst we were looking in the first shop that made an impact.  'I'm after some lingerie for work sissy, something dark in colour, pretty, but not something for when I go out to play.  I've got enough for going out to play at the moment'. 
 
 
Analysis: 'Play' is a word that both Miss and i use for sex.  Especially when it has or might involve a lover or bull. Miss referred to Herself going out to play - just Herself - not both of us.  She said going out.  That's away from the home.  It is very rare that Miss goes anywhere where lingerie is a factor in that decision, without me.  Something is changing....
 
Conclusion: i simply can't help but add all three of these profound statements from Miss together.  That they are seemingly connected in meaning and the fact that they were uttered sequentially in such a short period of time.  Is Miss now thinking of doing something for Herself which She knows might not only enhance Her own sex life but give our relationship an aspect of what it used to have?  Is the game back on again and if so.....are the conditions and rules being developed by Miss, at Her own pace.  Where has this new approach come from?  What lies in store for me?  Is that important to Miss - i hope so! 
 
Maybe i have read too much into those statements but Miss has never said anything so profound before and i am certain She meant them to have full impact and for me to understand them as clearly as i have. Was that for the benefit of giving me an erotic mind fuck or are there plan afoot? What's next i wonder?  x
 
 

Thursday 11 October 2018

There Are More Questions Than Answers.....

 
 
It's a song title right? Johnny Nash.  This muse is not about the hit single though.  It's an attempt to try and explain why i am what i am.  The questions.....well..... they sometimes come from Miss who has on a couple of occasions openly stated that She is not quite able to understand the sissy cuckold thing and why i consider myself one.  Quite reasonable questions and they should be expected - considering the effect it has on Her life and the impact it has on us as a couple.  My attempts at answering, aren't always very good and often i fail to provide an adequate explanation.  i'm better with the written word than with the spoken word.  So in order to try and explain the 'why am i a sissy cuckold' i've scoured the www and found what i consider to be 2 'useful' extracts that i hope explain it better than i can. 
 
Interestingly, it appears that these are written by women.  Now of course we can't be 100% sure but certain nuances in the writing style and way of commenting make me think that they genuinely are.  FOREWARNING!  This is going to be a long blog with no titillation or fun games between Miss and i so apologies in advance.
 
1. An interesting definition:
 
Many sissy cuckolds feel they are not sexually adequate enough to fulfil their wife’s needs. Because of that intrinsic feeling, based on their smaller penis size or other insecurities, they are more likely to go along with a wife or partner that is interested in sex with another man, and also more likely to become extremely submissive to the point of emasculation as sissy cuckolds are.
 
A sissy cuckold is expected to do many of the same things a less submissive cuckold is, like watching his wife fucking the other man, or preparing a lovemaking bath for her and whoever will be pleasuring her that night. One of the biggest differences is that a sissy cuckold may not be ever allowed to have sexual relations with his wife. His only sexual arousal may be limited only to masturbation, alone or while watching his wife get screwed, or orally gratifying the man that his wife is fucking. Also, going beyond emasculation is a cuckold’s forced or coerced, or sometimes voluntary feminization, rendering him a virtual eunuch.
 
He derives so much pleasure from his wife’s needs it is at the complete exclusion of his own.
A sissy cuckold’s humiliation is also a component in this arena of the cuckolding fetish. His small penis is constantly a point of submission and why he does not deserve to be the one to enjoy his wife’s dripping wet pussy. The more he submits and loses his masculine identity, the more he is mocked and ridiculed. This humiliating role-play is the rocket of sexual arousal and gratification for all involved; including the sissy cuckold.
 
2. This next extract, i'm convinced written by a Woman, is exhaustive and not all aspects apply to me but most do!  It was titled 'How To Convert Your Husband Into A Sissy Cuckold' but i think it should have been titled 'How To Get The Most For You From Your Sissy Cuckold'.
 
The submissive male needs direction: Some surveys have suggested that as many as two-thirds of men have fantasized about being sexually dominated by a woman. Think about that, 66% of wife’s could take control of their marriage and yet only 23% do! Erotic power, the combination of sex and authority, directly taps into this natural submissive sexual response. Once you learn to tap into that response in the bedroom, you can tap into it any time of the day. He will become putty in your hands. You must work on both his brain and penis. The “teasing” and the “not knowing” what is next plays into how their brains are wired. There focus needs to be directed to you, and ONLY you. Be verbal, reinforce his behaviour.
Think of it like this, the dog needs to be walked, the cat needs to be feed, and your husband needs time from you EACH day. You MUST tell him what you want him to do, each day. He must be taught that the best gratification comes from you and the more he pleases and obeys you, the better or more frequent that gratification will be. But to start it has to be done with subtlety.
 
2. Confidence: Yes you CAN learn how to handle your husband. Don’t worry if you lack confidence in the beginning. You can take small steps to find your way. Your confidence will grow with positive results. Do not confuse your initial lack of confidence with a lack of commitment. Be committed and find your way to fulfilling that commitment. Age is not a factor. Weight is not a factor. Beauty is not a factor. These things are simply not relevant. Sexual attraction is 90% mental, only 10% physical. You will be surprised how unimportant conventional standards of beauty are. You don’t need to be a beauty queen to be a sex goddess. It’s all about how you act, not how you look. It’s the attitude. Erotic power is the key to igniting passion in your marriage. Erotic power is a strength and force that you can exert to arouse sexual desire in your husband. Erotic power is your capacity to exercise control over your husband through his sexual desire for you.
Erotic power is your will and determination unleashed against boredom and familiarity in marriage. Erotic power is the unrestrained exploitation of his sexual desires and fantasies toward your personal goals. Erotic power is the uninhibited expression of your femininity. Erotic power will become the focal point of your renewed marital relationship. This is not to say that it is a substitute for love. On the contrary, it will become for both of you a new and powerful expression of your love for one another. Erotic power will shape and transform your marriage. Erotic power is an expression of love. You express your love for your husband through your erotic power. And you rediscover your love for him as he courts you and submits to your loving authority. You can indulge and broaden your love of him by setting a higher standard and admiring his efforts to meet it.
 
3. How do you get your husband to do what you say: You must train yourself to be sexually independent if you want to control your husband. Much like a well-trained pet that is happy because he has rules to follow and boundaries to keep him under control, a submissive man will only be truly happy when he is being obedient. Obedience pleases his wife, and when she is pleased, he is satisfied and calm. Submissive men are proud of the service and devotion they can bring to their Dominant females, and this pride leads to a sense of overall happiness and bliss. Correctly obeying orders and receiving praise for a job well done are forms of love and respect for him, and are emotions he dearly craves.
Men need to be obedient in FLR relationships because it is what makes them happy, and it is the reason that they gave up control in the first place. It reinforces their submissive role, and allows them to enjoy the emotions of freedom and carelessness that they experience while being dominated. Take one small step at a time so that the male will be totally unaware he is being reprogrammed to behave in the manner that you desire. One small goal after another so that at the end of the journey he will not even realize he has been on a trip. It might help clarify what needs to be done to develop a general theory of female domination. A woman has to use psychology to gain and maintain her control.
This brings us to the basic principle of female domination: If the man has to accept being dominated, there has to be something in it for him, his orgasm. Forget everything else you read on line a stick with positive reinforcement. Be sure to praise him when he does something submissive and self-sacrificing for your benefit. This will condition him to find fulfilment in his role as a subordinate person. Sexual energy can then be used to remould his personality. A man's sexual energy, or libido, can be stimulated through sexual teasing. You can give him a peek up your skirt. You can have him help you change clothes. Or you can go about the house from time to time dressed in fancy underwear or a skimpy nightie. This brings us to the subject of lingerie.
The first thing to remember about lingerie is that it has a cosmetic value. Not very many of us look like Cindy Crawford or Naomi Campbell, and our intimate apparel can take attention away from whatever figure problems we might happen to have. Men regard our wearing fancy lingerie as something done for their benefit; they are too self-centred to see it any other way. They are totally unaware that we are using it to hide things that we don't want them to notice. A sexual fetish is an object that a man finds to be sexually stimulating in itself. Because the man is stimulated by the object, the object has power over him. So the woman who controls the fetish has all the power over her man. Once you have established promises, you must be prepared to reinforce them. When, for example, your husband does the dishes, you should give him some attention. I recommend a whispered “thank you” or “good job” in his ear as you rub your hand roughly across his crotch. Such an arousing gesture, consistently given, reinforces the association between the promise kept and sex and therefore reinforces the keeping of promises.
 
4. Domestic Housework: You’re going to kill yourself when you realize that your submissive husband will take on more of the domestic housework. For 19 years I could have had him cooking and cleaning for me while I relaxed! This is a Win/Win for sure, the trick is you must play with his mind, tap into his submissive side when you want him to be domestic. If you don’t take the time to tease and direct he will just feel that you are taking advantage of him and not respond. Start by getting him naked or in a domestic “outfit” and then give him simple directions ”Honey it would make me very happy if you can get a bath ready for me and then do the dishes”, “Babe could you please pour me a glass of wine and vacuum the family room”. USE YOUR Praise words, “you did a great job”, “I’m so happy”, “Thank you for getting my car washed”. The more praise he gets, the more he will do. DON”T take him for granted. Tell him when he is done with the filth in the kitchen you have some filth between your legs that will need cleaning and watch how fast he gets to work. This is the first “upside” you will discover. It is well known that men love to do domestic chores for a dominant Female. Your submissive husband will enjoy the attention and direction that you will be giving him. You will make it clear on how you expect him to serve you by doing domestic chores around the house. You may discover that what helps your husband with his domestic chores is how you dress him for his tasks. Check his lie detector and find out what is going on in his head. It may be naked, with an apron or dressed up as a sissy maid when he is doing the house cleaning. If your husband likes to dress up this is a good place to do it. Get him an apron, maids outfit or a full girls outfit (many options on line), then all you have to do is lay it out for him and when he is dressed treat him like your personal maid.
 
5. Body Hair: Understand that the symbolism involved by having your submissive man remove a nice mound of pubic hair and keeping his little dick and balls cleanly shaved. It’s a constant reminder of your dominance over him. I removed most of my husband’s body hair, his back, butt, chest, armpits and most important his pubic hair. I only left some hair on his legs and arms, after all in the summer we do go out in shorts. The submissive male thinks that the “alpha” male should look like a “man” and they should look more like “boys”. Your husband sees the difference between his feminized body and the bodies of the masculine men you will tell him that you like. He gains a better appreciation of the things that turn you on. He becomes curious and he even finds the contrast of a large, stud cock attractive when compared to his smooth, feminine body. Again this naturally helps to encourage his submission to you and of course being clean shaven makes his chastity device much more comfortable.
 
6. Clothed Female and Naked Male: This is going to sound a bit odd, but, you want him naked as often as possible, while you remain clothed. Forced nudity is a means of subjugation, and one person’s subjugation is another’s empowerment. Forced nudity produces feelings of humiliation and humiliation is as a tool that serves to emphasize a submissive husband’s sense of being controlled. Forced nudity causes your husband to reveal his private parts to be judged by all and that's a scary thing for all men. Nudity like submission shares an important commonality, exposure. When he is naked and you are not, he is in an exposed, embarrassing position seeking your direction. His entire life he has been told to put cloths on, now his wife is making him take them off. Even if he likes being naked it will become humiliating for him. Use your words and toy with him. If he is soft, say things that get him hard. This will allow him to shift control to you. Clothed women easily dominate and humiliate naked males, one of the many ways the stronger sex has of controlling weaker males. The more often the male is nude, obediently passive, meekly obeying his wife, the more he is reminded of his place. A naked male submissive is a good way to arrange a marriage/relationship, a clear sign that "SHE wears the pants in the house." You will mostly likely find in your area a CFNM (Clothed Female Naked Male) Party, just google it. At this party the males are naked and the Females are clothed for the entire party. The males are there to serve and entertain the Females. The Females are in charge of the party. They can have the males do whatever makes them happy. The males are not allowed to touch or initiate interaction with the Females without the wife’s permission.
 
7. Masturbation: Many of the sites I saw on line are big into Chasity and NOT allowing your man to masturbate, I 100% disagree. All men masturbate, all men masturbate, and all men masturbate. Now you have a choice, you can pretend that it is not going on, or you can use it to take control of him. I am told that boys under 20 could masturbate up to 4 times each day, 20-30 up to 3 times each day, even men over 50 can average once a day! So what’s important is that you become the centre of his masturbation. Now this has most likely been his dirty little secret since he was 12 so you need to “change” the habits. So first get him naked then talk to him. Let him know that you want to take control of all his orgasms and get an agreement that he will let you be in charge of his penis. Then force him to masturbate, a lot, more often than he has been doing. 2-4 times a day the first few weeks. You want to drain his balls so much that he gets to the point where he just can’t do it anymore.
Then for the next few months 1-3 times a day, then down to 5-7 times per week. This is important, it’s OK for you to masturbate him each day if that is what is required to have him focus on you. Make sure to tell him on occasion NOT to masturbate, you need to mix it up on time and location. You want his mind racing with when your next instruction will come. What you read on line is WRONG, he will be much more willing to please you knowing that his reward is getting to masturbate. Yes taking this away will make him work hard to get the right back, but, take it away too long and he will build resentment and just do it anyway!
 
8. Oral Sex: Oral sex, by which I mean cunnilingus, is an important element of a wife-led marriage for a couple reasons. First, you want him to focus on your sexual satisfaction, even to the point of giving you orgasms more frequently than you allow him. Oral sex obviously satisfies that, or at least it will once he gets good at it. But as importantly, oral sex has connotations of social hierarchy. Generally speaking, when one person is giving oral sex to another, the one receiving it is perceived to be in a position of power over the one giving it. By demanding and receiving oral sex from your husband you are asserting your dominance over him. In giving oral sex, he is submitting himself to you. Needless to say, you should never give your husband oral sex, only your lovers if you decided to have them. However, while many men today are comfortable performing oral sex on their wives most are not and some are absolutely horrified at the thought.
If your husband is inexperienced with giving oral sex it is likely that he will initially resist the idea both because of the social connotations and because he will imagine it to be dirty. But by removing his objection to the scent and taste you can focus on overcoming his objection to the power dynamic. This can be an important opportunity for you to gain confidence in your ability to direct sex to your own satisfaction as well as to advance his trust in you to initiate beneficial changes in your marriage. The very things that may initially repel him will eventually become a powerful addiction for him. In time he will crave your scent and taste and will seek your permission to satisfy you orally. The greater his initial inhibitions about giving oral sex, the greater will be the emotional impact when he learns to enjoy it. If you teach your husband to give you oral sex then you can enjoy quickies at any time. You can do this not just in bed before you go to sleep, but also in the morning before you dress for work or in the evening when you come home to him. Use your imagination.
 
9. The Scent of You: The sense of smell will work to control your submissive husband. I hope you have been enjoying oral sex from your husband he has become trained to the scent of your vagina. This smell has become a “trigger” for him. Your scent becomes his world.
 
10. Humiliation: Submissive husbands crave humiliation, submissive husbands crave humiliation, and submissive husbands crave humiliation. Humiliation can be tricky so it should be used carefully. Humiliation is intended to humble, not to cause emotional harm. It’s important to find the right balance and one way to achieve that is by mixing humiliation with humour. Never humiliate in anger. There are basically two types of humiliation: private and public. Private humiliation is simply any act that is kept between you and your husband.
Public humiliation is anything revealed outside your marriage. In most cases, the threat of public humiliation is more effective than the actual deed. But a little public humiliation can lend credibility to threats of bigger humiliation. His masturbation is the starting point, each time you require him to masturbate you are feeding his need for humiliation. Be creative on how you masturbate him. An example of simple public humiliation, you insist on paying the check at restaurants, this is a small humiliation as social custom is that the husband does this. This small humiliation can serve as the basis for threatening a larger humiliation: the public revelation of your domination of the marriage. Each time you pay the check he will be reminded of this. You can also set up potential public humiliations with private ones. For example, by requiring your husband to wear panties as his underwear he will feel a gentle humiliation throughout the day. But if he misbehaves in public you can remind him of it in a loud voice. Submissive husband humiliation ideas; Insist that he sit down at all times when using the toilet, if you find out that he peed standing, send him outside naked to pee for a week (the bathroom just got much cleaner).
Make him kneel in front of you regularly, to beg for something with his nose in your vagina. Make him carry your handbag occasionally when in public. Send hubby out shopping to buy something that will embarrass him, for you or for him. Tell your husband you're horny because you have been thinking of some other man. Make him wear female deodorant. Send him to the get a pedicure and make sure he gets his nails done in a colour of your choice, he needs to tell the girl it’s at your request. When he is in chastity, make a point of walking around the house naked, or in sexy lingerie.
 
11. Hygiene: Make it part of your routine to have your husband attend to YOUR hygiene. The submissive male craves serving his bride. When he bathes you, shaves your legs, shaves your sex (if you want it shaved), or gives you a massage or a shower it plays into how he is wired. Don’t make this about sex (unless of course you want sex). During this time it’s about him taking care of you. I am not opposed to having him take care of your tampon changing (yes changing) or even wiping and cleaning you after you use the restroom, just not my thing.
 
12. Chasity device: You locking it up and taking control of his cock is very powerful. The submissive male needs to be punished and this is a good tool for masturbating without approval. Managing your husband’s sexual activity requires a certain level of trust. Unfortunately, not all men are trustworthy. The risk of infidelity is actually not as great as it might seem; if you have established yourself as an object of adoration and addicted him to your erotic power, then he is far less likely to take an interest in another women (unless you drop the ball and a dominant bitch gets her hands on him and plays to his submission). Other women will seem boring next to you. A male chastity device is simply a locking cage that encloses his penis and makes masturbation impractical. You hold the key so you decide when he can come out to play. Not only does it enforce your management of his sexuality and prevent masturbation, it represents a constant physical reminder of his submission to your authority. In a sense, it is a wedding ring around his penis.
Managing your husband’s orgasms gives you enormous power over him. Delaying and denying his orgasms will make him putty in your hands, for a short while. He will not be able to refuse you anything. But there is a limit to how far you can go. Everything depends on his trust in you. Betray that trust and you will find yourself in a very difficult situation. Maintain and reward that trust and he will be more loyal and obedient than you can imagine. Above all, you absolutely do not want him to lose hope, a mistake made by using Chasity too long, too often. If he loses hope he might be tempted to seek relief outside the marriage, either by himself or worse. At a minimum, you will invite a rebellion’s. The more you deny his orgasms, the closer attention you must pay to his happiness and enthusiasm. Remember, once you own his heart you are responsible for it. DO NOT OVER DO IT, ½ a day to 2 days maximum to start, but DO IT when it needs to be done, or just to keep him off balance.
 
13. Panties: You need to have a “naked” talk with him about cross-dressing, pay attention to the lie detector. Regardless of what turns you on, you need to understand what is turning him on, so ask about it all, and find out just how far he would go. Cross dressers are often heterosexual men that get aroused by wearing female clothing. There are lots of fantasies that people have and this just happens to be one of them. Your husband is not a pervert or baby-molester but may be a cross-dresser with a certain fantasy. Take a look at a few “sissy cross-dressing sites and ask him how he feels about what you found (a maid’s outfit, bra, nightgowns, panties etc.). Almost all submissive men love panties. Now I had no interest in dressing my husband up as a girl and taking him out for a walk, but he did react to panties and other female items.
So I did my research and found that panties are a control item for women. When you make your man wear girl panties, he is focusing his attention on you even when you are not with him. I understand why some wife’s put their husbands in panties full time, I have no problem with that. Regardless of how YOU feel, if cross-dressing is a trigger for him then you need to dress him up. You do not need to do it full time unless it’s what you both want. I did surprise him one day and put him in a maid uniform for obvious reasons, he was going to help the house keeper. Our housekeeper of 15 years saw his new panties in the laundry, saw how I was controlling him, and loved the help she was getting. She taught him how to clean to her standards (and did not travel in our social circle), WIN/WIN/WIN. She had many questions on how she could work with her husband. I was shocked and surprised just how helpful our house keeper was with my husband’s training and humiliation.
 
14. Forced feminization: Forced feminization is the act of stripping his masculinity away from him as part of your training and forcing him into the role of a girl. His beautiful male heart is captured, overwhelmed and engulfed by femininity. There’s more to this than just the forced cross-dressing part. Beyond wearing very feminine clothes, Forced feminization often involves him taking on other feminine characteristics and also playing the role of stereotypical women or girls. What’s so exciting about it? Erotic humiliation is a very intimate act if anything. And feminizing him can be a very powerful way to humiliate a man. He becomes humble and very submissive when feminized. He lets go of the need to be strong and fearless and isn’t afraid to be weak in your arms. What a beautiful gesture of love that is. A man who likes to cross-dress but feels ashamed of it, might feel better about himself if he’s forced to cross-dress. I should point out now that when I mean ‘forced’ I’m talking about following your directions in regards to dress and action.
An activity that submissive men sometimes seek is feminization. And if they have "natural" feminine traits, the probability of him accepting feminization may be very high indeed. More men than one might suspect will enjoy, and even embrace, the concept of being forced to wear female clothing, lingerie and perhaps even costumes. Men will usually act like being feminized is a threat to their masculinity. Men fear that their woman might think less of him as a man. Remember: Forcing him to be feminized helps eliminate his fear and embarrassment of doing it. His male ego needs to be "taken off the hook". His internal rationale is, he'll do it to please you. All the while, he will be sexually aroused at the thought of it. Check the lie detector.
 
15. Punishment: Simply put, punishment is the association of a negative consequence with an undesired behaviour. For example, disobedience is an undesired behaviour that ought to be punished to discourage it. If you want to be a good parent you need to punish your kids, if you want to be a good wife you need to punish your submissive husband. Discipline is the practice of applying bondage, spanking, cbt or other behavioural enhancements as a method of increasing the feelings of submission on the part of the husband and the sensation of dominance on the part of the wife. One of the simplest forms of physical discipline is denying the man one of the basics of human pride: clothing. Simply by limiting or specifying the clothing a man wears when attending his wife major behavioural changes can occur.
I prefer the husband be kept naked, but that can be overwhelming for most wives. An alternative is to choose clothing which may cover the husband, but leave his aroused state exposed and apparent. Now for me what I saw on line in punishment was way over the top, I’m not looking to “brand” him, just get his attention. So I went “old school”. I started with an over my knee spanking with his penis locked between my legs. What I found is that the spanking excited him, he was very hard and leaking. I realized that when I was punishing him he had given me complete control during the punishment. A submissive male NEEDS punishment, they want the negative attention directed on making them better husbands, who knew! Beating my husband with whips and chains is not my thing so I found other ways to punish him. Once I handcuffed him to the bed and put on Cuckolding DVD on TV and left the room. He watched the images of wife’s and their lovers for an hour or so. I know how much this turns him on so this punishment has 2 upsides, the first is that he cannot masturbate to the images on the screen, and the second is he is getting used to the idea of me with other men. So punishment can be carried out without a beating. Now I do use the Chasity device from time to time but rarely over 48 hours. Most of the time it’s a 1 day fit and I don’t even give him a reason other than “I want you focused on me today”.
 
16. Corporal Punishment, Spanking: Corporal punishment, or spanking, is perhaps the most extraordinary form of punishment. It can be very cathartic for both parties. Men are particularly fond of enduring physical pain in their devotion to love. For men, enduring physical pain can be a powerful symbol of manhood, even more when that pain is at the request of their love. They do not involve torture, brutality, cruelty, or anything that could cause lasting harm. Some of the physical punishments described are meant to be painful. There is no question that welts will be raised and bottoms bruised, but chastisement should never leave permanent marks. For you the act of spanking can be a way to release and direct your anger. The next time you find your anger has overwhelmed your love for your husband, try pulling down his pants and paddling him on the buttocks, hard, until you can truly forgive his wrong and make love to him. Vent your anger against his buttocks until you forget his transgression and feel pity for him. As for your concern that your husband will not accept punishment from you, I can assure you that most men will actually welcome the idea. When you discipline your husband you tap into that submissive fantasy to serve his wife and improve your marriage. Another reason he will acquiesce to your discipline is the control you have taken over his ejaculation. When he has become accustomed to awaiting your permission to ejaculate, he will obey you without rebellion.
This is important to remember AFTER the punishment is done, reward him in a very humiliating fashion by making him masturbate. 100% of the time my husband must consume all his sperm as part of the punishment. The foundation for all forms of punishment is the spanking. The experience of being spanked hard by you makes him more cooperative with the less physical punishments. By this I do not mean a simple slap on the buttocks. That can be used, if you like as playful foreplay. What I mean is a serious, over-the-knee, bare-bottomed, hard spanking with something other than your hand. You may begin with your hand if you’re like, but in order for it to be truly disciplinary you must use something such as a paddle, the backside of a hairbrush or a belt. Lecture him quietly on why he is being spanked. Tell him if he weren’t so bad and naughty you wouldn’t have to spank his bottom so hard, that sort of talk. A good, sound spanking releases built up tensions and frustrations in a marriage and can actually be enjoyable for the wife. So, instead of feeling helpless and despairing, a wife can threaten a punishment she is more than willing to carry out and feel power and hope for her marriage instead. Additionally, her punishment of him will be loving as well as disciplinary. No matter what instrument is being used, the wife must always keep in mind that the part most commonly on the receiving end, the buttocks, lay in close proximity to such vital areas as the kidneys and tailbone. For this reason you should never use a heavy or blunt instrument. I did not feel comfortable spanking my husband in the early days of this process. If you feel that this is a bit out of your comfort area, then do what I did and start by visiting a professional. A professional will do the job for you without mercy and teach you at the same time. WIN/WIN/WIN. Once a month for the first 6-9 months I would go with him to a professional dominatrix and have a session with him. He would be the only one naked and she and I would discuss his faults and she would administer the punishment. I got the hang of it after a few visits. We will still see a professional from time to time just to expose him to new women and the humiliation that goes with it or visit B&D clubs and spank him in public.
17. Eating Sperm: Much has been written on this topic, this is my take on it. Straight men have been programed that “the bitch sucks cock and swallows”. Guys who swallow sperm are “gay”. Your husband is NOT gay, he is not even BI, he is a sexual submissive. He will eat sperm or suck a cock (gay things in his head) to please the love of his life. So it is very important that he becomes the “bitch”. Husbands are naturally more attentive to their wives when they are aroused and excited. There is much you can do to maintain your husband in a state of arousal and excitement but such excitement is in anticipation of sexual satisfaction. Once that satisfaction is achieved, his attention to you will tend to fall off for a while. This is just natural. Promises are useful because they bind your husband at one time to perform at another time. In particular, your husband may make a promise when he is aroused to perform when he is not. Right after a man orgasms his brain recovers back to its “baseline” of what tastes good, feels good, and smells good and how he was programed as a little boy. This is an important process to “re program” his “baseline” so that you become the centre of his world.
This is why almost every site I found made this the number 1 item on training your submissive husband. The goal is that after his orgasms his love and affection for you is more important than how he feels about eating sperm. You need to break out your best mom voice and tell him what you expect him to do, don’t wimp out he needs it. The best place to start is after his orgasms in you, take a few minutes and cuddle with him. Then whisper something in his ear that is sure to turn him on. When he begins to get erect, take your hands and guide his head to your sex and talk him through it, or better yet sit on his face and drain it into him. After a few times of doing this, just take his head the same way and guide him to his task. This is a line in the sand for all women, he must do it. Use his masturbation to reinforce his place, when he cleans you well and follows your directions, the next time you masturbate him praise him for his last cleaning, let him know how happy it made you, then have him masturbate and continue with your praise.
Try after him cums dipping your finger in it and bring it to his lips, work towards him Cumming in your hand and him doing it on his own. Try the “yoga” masturbation position where is cock is pointed at his face, then he hits his mouth while he is still in the “zone”. Test him by “milking” him while in Chasity and making him eat it from your hand (milking is using a prostrate toy on him which will cause his penis to release sperm even if he is not hard).
 
If you've read all of that, phew, well done!  It's really for Miss but if it is of use to anyone else then you are most welcome! x

Wednesday 10 October 2018

Asking Permission To Play

i'm always horny, i'm always feeling sexually aroused.  i always need to have an orgasm at least once a day and sometimes twice.  i can easily cum three times a day.  Am i abnormal?  Is my sex-drive off the scale?  Is once a week normal?  What is 'normal'??  Before i go on with this muse, here are two cute pictures from last weekend.
 
 
Miss quite liked them and gave me permission to put them in the blog.  i wonder if anyone saw them?!  We actually had a bit of a bad argument on Saturday night which was my fault because i did not get my view over tactfully.  Then it became a battle of wills and a good day/evening was spoiled, on the whole by me.  i was not entirely in sissy mode when it happened and i think therein lies the problem.  Even though under my male clothes i was wearing a lovely red and cream suspender belt, red lace panties and natural stockings, i did not feel very 'sissied'.  i get it that sometimes out in public i have to put on the pretend 'male' persona as there are occasions where i simply have to do that but i also feel that Miss could pre-empt some situations.

How.....by making sure i know that She's in charge.  By 'activating' me as Her sissy prior to a moment or event that my male personality - even though it is mostly subdued - might rear its horrible head and cause problems.  How could this work?  Perhaps Miss could use an explicit word or phrase that is designed to 'trigger' me and which i understand quite clearly that She is going to do or say something that i categorically cannot disagree with. Miss gets Her way....i enjoy Her exercising Her power/authority and peace is assured.

So back to the title of the blog then.  i think i am going to try a new approach with Miss that will stop me from getting sexually frustrated.  I tried it last night and it went like this:

sissy: 'Does Miss require any pleasuring this evening'? (a polite and respectful request to service Miss without asking for anything myself).

Miss: (Laughing).  'You hardly pleasure me sissy, you can't actually think you give me pleasure, so no, not this evening sissy. (Miss belittling me and thus arousing me and making it clear She had no need for me sexually at that time)

sissy: 'Yes Miss, i do try to pleasure you though'. (Feeling very insignificant and sexually inadequate for Her needs - aroused even more).

Miss: 'You do try sissy but it hardly satisfies'. (Beautifully humiliating, dismissive, an honest appraisal and very true!).

i curtseyed and left Her presence with my panties exceptionally wet.  Other than during the times when Miss has allowed my little cock to be inside Her, She has not made a comment like that before outside of the bedroom and it delighted me immensely.  After some minutes i came back to Her and kissed Her softly several times before saying: 'Miss, that was wonderful to hear you say that i don't satisfy you, thank you.  i so hope that you are not missing out on anything because of it'.  She did not make further comment but i hoped that She understood the meaning of what i said. 

Before i retired to my chambers i politely and respectfully asked Miss if i could play with my little cock with the obligatory condom over it.  Miss granted that permission and i had a delightful play with myself, thinking of Miss, moaning and sighing as i came into the sheath.  i think that from now on my best approach should be to ask Miss if She requires anything first and then ask if i am allowed to acquire relief of my own - if She is not interested.  Her downright refusal to allow me to cum on my own would be just as rewarding as Her gift to let me. 

My own inability to give Her the 'real' pleasures She deserves?  Back to my line 'i hope you are not missing out on anything because of it'.  Miss might actually be thinking of finding a solution to that.  It won't be difficult for Her and if She wants my assistance in helping to make it happen, making arrangements, paying for things associated with it and anything else then i hope She knows i will always be on hand.  x
 

Saturday 6 October 2018

Miss Takes My Cherry!

Last night.....my sissy pussy...taken by Miss...with a strap-on.  i have now been fucked by my Superior Female and i love Her more than ever for it. 
 
It was always going to happen this weekend and Miss had set the agenda earlier in the day:
 
1. 'sissy, you will get changed'.
2. 'You will then dress me sissy'
3. 'You'll put the strap on on  me and then I'm going to fuck your sissy pussy'.
 
We had decided that it would be called my 'sissy pussy'.  i think that's a beautifully apt name for it. 
 
Miss and i had both had an energetic day and when finally able to relax, with a few drinks, the fun and pleasure began in earnest.  Following Her instructions i showered and dressed.  i felt that since my virginity was going to be taken then i should be dressed in some of my most sissy girly things.  Something to highlight and emphasise my full subservient sissiness.  My set comprised of a ridiculously short gorgeous pink lace and chiffon, baby doll, pink and white ribboned suspender belt, pink lace bra, my pink pair of 'cuckold' panties with suitable wording across the front and mink stockings. 
 
Miss took these pictures:
 
 
i love how She made me pose.  Revealing my 'cuckold' panties, my tiny cock getting very wet, my baby doll lifted submissively, my pretty bra showing nicely with my breast forms thrusting the bra cups out.  The gorgeous suspender straps holding my stockings taught. A pose i so enjoyed holding for Miss and would so enjoy holding for Her and a lover whilst they laughed and humiliated me. 
 
 
The wording on the front of my panties.  So, so true!  My tiny cock and the little wet patch of sissy excitement. 
 
 
Miss made me face the corner.  The rear of my pretty panties on display.  The delicate ruffles across my behind and on the legs.  The rear of my suspender belt visible through the sheer back of the baby doll.  Oh i felt so so girly and sissy.  Another pose which would be so appropriate in front of Miss and a Real Man.
 
i had by now dressed Miss.  i love doing this and have not done it nearly enough for Her.  i wish She would make me do it more often.  In the past when She had lovers it would be a ritual for me to dress Her and it would be wonderful to be able to do this again.  She had chosen a sexy navy blue six strap suspender belt, black seamed stockings and a gorgeously hot and sexy blue lace/satin body with stunning lace around the breasts.  She looked so fucking hot and i made sure i told Her so.  i wanted to include some pictures of Her but Miss was not having it, even though i would have not included Her face or anything compromising.  She did however take these and gave me permission to publish them:
 
 
Her gorgeous stocking clad feet. 
 
 
Her gorgeous stocking-clad foot, pressing down on my tiny cock through my baby doll and sissy panties.  A very symbolic picture! i also love my bra and tits in this shot. 
 
Miss told me to lube my sissy pussy and by that really lube it with my fingers inside me.  i made sure my pussy was very very wet.  She then adjusted the strap on around Herself and attached the smaller of the two 'cocks' to the harness.  Miss was giggling to Herself and i could tell by the look on Her face that She was really enjoying this.  Next She told me to get out a condom - 'we have to be safe sissy' and to sheath the cock.  God, that was sexy doing that.  i imagined sheathing a lover for Miss but instead this cock was for me!  Even though it was the smaller cock that was going to take my pussy it still looked ominous.  Miss made me kneel and then without warning forced the cock into my mouth and began vigorously fucking my face. 
 
This was the 'cock' for my 'sissy pussy'.
 
 
About 4.5 inches long, an inch wide.  My own little cock is not this long fully erect nor as wide. 
 
She literally made me gag with it and i absolutely loved it!  i grew into the role of a little sissy cocksucker and licked, dribbled and drooled.  i made soft sucking sounds and girlish moans as Miss continued thrusting it into my mouth - occasionally rubbing it across my cheeks and everywhere on my face.  She was really getting into it now as i gripped Her gorgeous arse, encouraging Her to give me more.  Miss though now felt it time to get on with the main event and forced me onto the sofa, with my knees on the floor and my pussy raised up to accept Her love.  More lube on the sheathed 'cock' and then the initial press onto and into my pussy.  Miss was gentle, She held my hips lightly and occasionally caressed my bra clad tits. 
 
Oh it felt so good!! So hot, everything on fire.  Pain, but not a pain i wanted to go away.  She eased Herself into me and waited until i asked for more - and more She gave!  Each press, each push feeling like a searing poker but i wanted more and pushed back onto Her.  Miss laughed at my girlish wiggling and absconded me for pushing back.  At one point i felt like i was going to pass substance and had to go and relieve myself.  All of that considered by Miss to be a very normal reaction!  Then more, more fucking by Miss and more moaning by me.  Miss regularly asking me if i was ok, if i liked it and me moaning my pleasure in confirmation.  Did i mention that when i dashed off to the toilet that the whole of the cock was plugged right up into me?? 
 
One thing that was noticeable to both Miss and myself was that my tiny cock hardly got hard.  It was certainly very wet with arousal but there was absolutely no significant erection at all.  Is that normal?  i don't know.  i was certainly turned on but my little cock was not hardening in the slightest.  Very strange.  Nerves? Eventually we decided that my pussy had had more than enough of a fucking and that we would definitely be doing this again.  i suggested that we try it bi-weekly and Miss agreed that as a good training schedule for my pussy.  i know that eventually i am going to be able to take it with Miss fucking me just as a Real Man would fuck a Woman.  Miss was wonderful.  Caring, considerate and compassionate.  She made it a wonderful experience for me and i am so grateful. 
 
But that's not the end of it.  As we sat on the sofa together, still in our lingerie, i noticed Miss fondling and seductively handling the larger of the two cocks. 
 
 
As you can see from the pictures it's considerably larger and thicker than the little one I took!  As She sat there playing with it in Her hands i wondered what She was thinking.  She had not asked me to pleasure Her in any way after fucking me.  i guessed She might be thinking that this bigger cock reminded Her of the cocks She had enjoyed previously with lovers?  i recall one of the black lovers She had a great session with  - was She thinking of that?  Whatever it was, Miss was getting turned on and with that monster in Her hands why would She want my pathetic little cock?  Oh no!  Miss had other plans.
 
'I'm going to play with this sissy and you can sit in the corner and play with yourself, watch me as i cum'.  Oh Miss!!  'Don't forget your condom sissy'!
So now Miss was going to pleasure Herself with this massive cock and i was to be humiliated with a condom on my little thing.  Miss knew the scenario She was creating.  Her with a lover.  A Real Man with a proper cock.  Someone who was going to satisfy Her. Me, humiliated, belittled, made to watch.  She lay there, the crotch of Her pretty body pulled aside and proceeded to 'condom' the big cock.  Oh Miss - to perfection!!  i wish She had made me do that.  'This is how a condom looks on a real cock sissy, they were made for real cocks like this one'. She was considerably wet by now and i knelt transfixed as the cock entered Her love petals to the accompaniment of Her moans and sighs of pleasure.
 
My own little cock was hard in the condom now as Miss commanded that i was not to cum until She had.  She told me 'keep your thoughts in your head sissy, just know that i'm being pleasured by something so much bigger and better than your little clit'.  i wanted to provide Her with verbal encouragement but Miss did not need it. It was quite clear that this cock was giving Her the pleasure She needed, deserved and that She has been missing for so long.  As Her cum approached i knew that i could take risks and edged closer to Her, running my hand along Her parted stockinged legs, urging Her to cum for Him to cum hard for Her lover.  'Oh I am sissy, I'm cumming for Him oh yes.....oh fuck yes...Ohhhhhhh!'
 
It was beautiful to watch.  To see Her pleasure Herself with something so substantial.  For Her to prefer this huge rubber cock over my own was wonderful for me.  Then, She began to verbally assault my sissy mind with a barrage of humiliating references to my small cock.  i was now sat next to Her on the sofa and knew that my cum would happen in seconds.  Just a few pumps into the rubber of my sissy juices, weakly dribbling.  Miss took me over the edge with Her teases. As a final act of dominance and to humiliate me Miss then made sure that i saw Her door to Her chambers close as She left me for a well-earned sleep. 
 
A truly memorable evening of hot loving between Miss and Her sissy.  My Superior Female has taken my virginity and i feel ever more closer to Her for it.  x