Thursday 27 September 2018

Punishment Completed

 
 
You may recall that a few weeks ago due to a transgression by me failing to complete my daily cleaning tasks for Miss it was decided that i should be punished.  Miss gave me three weeks to carry out this punishment and today, i did exactly that.
 
Miss had decided that i was to go out and buy Her a pair of panties with the explicit instruction that i was to introduce myself to a sales assistant with the words - 'As a punishment from my Mistress, She has ordered me to buy Her a pair of panties'.  i was also to make sure i mentioned that they had to be 'pretty', 'lacy' and 'not black'.  Furthermore i was to secretly voice record the whole event on my phone.
 
My first attempt a couple of weeks ago at Next shop failed miserably simply because there were no assistants (Miss wanted them to be female) around to ask for anything.  This time however i drove to a much larger location with several large department stores.  There would and could be no excuses.  i have to admit that this morning, prior to going out on my punishment mission, i was feeling quite nervous but also excited and aroused.  It could go either way.  i could get rebuffed and called to leave the shop or it could end up being even more humiliating than Miss intended it to be. 
 
Sadly, i was dressed in male clothes but underneath was wearing a lovely pair of full back French Blue lacy panties.  i had asked Miss earlier if She wanted me to wear anything specially for my punishment trip (hoping that She might force me to wear a bra that was subtly visible) but She did not insist on it.  She's possibly starting this type of punishment out discreetly and may escalate in future?  i chose Marks and Spencer as the place i would get Her panties from.
 
 
 
Once inside the store and with the phone set to audio record i made my way to and hung around the lingerie area for quite some time, trying not to look like some sort of panty perv whilst looking to catch the eye of a female assistant.  Just like my experience at Next, it seemed that they were all too busy with other shoppers.  i simply could not walk away so went straight up to the bank of tills at the main counter for paying and approached a middle aged, quite sophisticated Lady who was untagging items on Her counter. 
 
'Excuse me, wondered if you could help.  i need some assistance in the lingerie section please'.  Just my normal voice, no sissy inflection.  'Yes of course' She replied and came around the counter, beginning to walk to the wonderful array of pretty bra's, panties, camisoles, suspenders and bodies just behind me.  i could not help notice Her tight black skirt and dark nylons - hoping they might be stockings.  The irony of it was that She looked quite strict and Mistressy in Her own way! i then made my statement to Her as Miss had demanded and kept eye contact throughout.  An immediate smile from Her....a knowing smile in every way and then the professionalism returned. 
 
We were now standing pretty much in the middle of the lingerie section and it took a great deal of willpower from me not to be distracted by all the frothy frilly delightful items of femininity.  Wanting so much to wear them myself or imagining Miss wearing them for a lover.  i carried on with my pre-set dialogue, describing the need for a size 12, something pretty, lacy and  not black.  She then proceeded to show me a few pairs of gorgeous panties and at first seemed quite rushed, perhaps nervous Herself?  Well who can blame Her....how often does this happen to someone in a major store? 
 
However, She soon got well into Her stride and was showing me pair after pair of gorgeous panties and we fell into a very easy conversation about each pair She showed me.  Bra's were mentioned.  Me coming back again was mentioned.  Miss was mentioned several times.  All the while it took me an enormous effort not to allow my little cock to harden and i was seriously worried that a damp patch might show on my jeans as my panties were by now seriously damp with the arousal of the embarrassment. 
 
i finally went back to one of the first pairs She had shown me and this is the very pair that Miss now owns:
 
 
 
 
At the till it was just a straightforward transaction but again She made sure i noticed Her giving me several more 'knowing smiles'.  i hope it makes Her day and i'm sure She will be gossiping about it with Her colleagues and friends for a long time.  She does not (yet) know that i am a sissy - She may think about that possibility later but She definitely knows i am a subservient to a Superior Female who i address as Mistress and who has the power to embarrass and humiliate me. 
 
Miss had a late start for work today and absolutely loves the panties.  She is also very pleased that i was embarrassed.  She commented that i might have to go back and get Her the matching bra - yes please Miss! Just as She held the panties up to appreciate them She told me:
 
'I'll wear these on Saturday sissy when i peg you.  So consider yourself booked in for that'.  Oh Miss!!  So Miss....in Her new panties...is going to fuck my sissy pussy arse with a strap-on this Saturday evening.  In just over two days, my sissy pussy arse will be claimed by Miss, my sissy virginity taken and things will probably never be the same again.  Oh Miss!!  x
 
 
 
p.s. i've just listened back through the audio and right at the point where i say why i am looking for some panties there is an awful amount of background noise.  Such a shame that part is swamped out. i hope Miss accepts the recording as if She doesn't i have a feeling that i might be doing this again! If She does accept it i'll post it up on this blog.  My American sissy followers will enjoy hearing the Lady say 'panties' in Her English accent! x 

Wednesday 26 September 2018

Afternoon Delights

Whilst out shopping yesterday afternoon i received a text message from Miss informing me:
 
'I'm home early sissy and going for a nap.  I expect tea in my chambers at 4'.
 
A not uncommon order from Miss and one i relish obeying.  Miss was already back when i returned so i spent the hour before being required on-line looking at some of my favourite blogs about cuckolding.  A dangerous thing to do as it is bound to get my tiny cock twitching and my panties damp.  i wanted to give Miss a visual treat when delivering Her tea, something She could laugh at and ridicule so i removed my jeans leaving me in a 'male mode' sweater top but with gorgeous pink with black polka dot panties, a deep pink suspender belt and smoky grey stockings fully on show.  Delivering Miss Her tea i wiggled my derriere girlishly as She ordered me to open Her curtains a little.  Miss commented on my pretty panties and how She was feeling a little bit chilly.  i offered to warm Her up but She dismissed me with orders to bring Her more tea in an hour.
 
Another hour of torture for me, knowing that Miss was in Her bed wearing only a wonderfully pretty red satin bra and full panties set.  i dutifully brought Her next cup up and this time Miss told me that i could get in with Her and warm Her up.  i did not need asking twice, removing the male top but retaining my lingerie.  i caressed Miss softly and made sure that my stockings rubbed against Her legs whilst also trying hard to avoid my small cock pressing against Her. 
 
 
 
Miss wanted to talk about the possibility of having someone else know about me being a sissy. She does read my blog. We both agreed that a lover, a Real Man, would get to know as a matter of course but what about another Woman?  Someone Miss could tell or have it brought up in a discussion with friends?  We discussed the potential dynamics, with me assuring Miss that i would not be seeking anything sexual from another Woman unless Miss wanted that to happen.  We had a good exchange about it and i sort of felt that Miss has some interest in it and might look further into it.  Let's see what develops.....
 
By now our bodies were warm and Miss was making the sort of humming noises She makes when She's starting to get in the mood for being pleasured.  i had allowed my hand to stroke and caress Her beautiful pantied bottom as well as the dampening front of Her panties.  Miss was thinking out loud about in what way She was going to make me pleasure Her.  'It would be nice to be inside you Miss' i suggested.  'Shall i get a condom'?
'Use one of mine sissy, from the drawer'.  i took one out as commanded and kept it in my hand whilst Miss gently rubbed my little cock in it's panties.  The moment She touches me it will always get as hard as it can.  When She does touch it i can imagine Her thinking 'this cock is so pathetically small'!  That also helps me get hard for Her.
 
Quite unexpectedly and quite expertly Miss then brought the condom over my sissy clit.  She very rarely does that and it felt so wonderful.  My Miss, not wanting to have my un-rubbered cock inside Her, making sure i am belittled with a condom for the ultimate pleasure.  After asking me if it was hard enough She demanded that i get on top of Her.  It takes a herculean effort for me not to squirt my sissy juice before Miss has cum.  Her cum is the priority and even then i am never to assume that She will let me cum in turn or even let me cum at all.  She must have been feeling very generous as She told me 'I cum first sissy, then you can'. 
 
Miss was immediately into Her verbal humiliation which is unusual as She normally reserves that to make me cum rather than to stimulate Her own orgasm.  When She does this though i realise that i am expected to assist Her as She thinks of a scenario with a lover, someone who can properly satisfy Her.  We interchanged short sentences about Her bringing a lover home.  i told Her about what He was doing to Her whilst She told me what i could hear as i listened.  i tried my best to keep my little cock hard enough for Her but Miss needs more than that, bigger than that so had to help Herself with Her fingers whilst i was insider Her.  In between moans She told me how She wanted to cum hard for 'Him', to show Him how good He was and how much better His cock is than mine.  As Her climax approached i urged Her on, telling Her to 'cum on His gorgeous cock Miss, cum for Him, cum for your lover'.  Cum hard She did and i remained motionless as Her waves of pleasure subsided.
 
'You may cum now sissy' She said and so began my own verbal humiliation as Miss mocked the size of my cock, compared it to this imaginary lover and all of the real lovers She has had in the past.  She told me how i was going to clean up after Her lover had cum inside Her and how they were both going to laugh at my pathetic clit and how much of a sissy i was.  With all of that wonderful ridicule from Miss i hardly lasted, pumping my weak spurts of sissy juice out into the condom.  It's been two weeks since Miss allowed me inside Her and six weeks since i have been allowed to cum into a condom whilst inside Her.  Thank you so very much Miss.
 
i might be well wide of the mark but there was something about Miss this time that made me think that She might be considering getting a lover to play with.  Either making me do the arranging or doing it Herself, i don't know but it was just a feeling i got whilst we were having sex.  Around three months ago She actually did say that 'i think it's time i found a lover sissy' and i recall making a note not to push Her on that, to let it develop to the time when She was ready.  Perhaps those thoughts have come back to Her again?  She knows that i would love Her to have a regular partner, someone discreet who can give Her the sexual fulfilment She deserves and maybe even cater for kinks and fantasies She has? 
 
 
 
Tomorrow is a big day for me.  It's in my sissy cleaning log.  No cleaning duties but the day i have to go out to a shop and carry out my punishment from Miss for poor cleaning two weeks ago.  i am both nervous and excited.  It's going to be highly embarrassing but also arousing.  My blog tomorrow should have all the details of how it went.  Miss is especially keen to know - after all, She came up with it! x

Monday 24 September 2018

The Sounds Of Passion.

 
 
When one or more of our senses are denied functionality it is reckoned that the others become even more acute and keen.  i believe that to be very true, especially in cuckolding situations where a sissy can hear but not see.  'Hear but not see' what?  Well... the action of course!
 
By 'action', i mean the sex/lovemaking between their Superior Miss and Her lover as they enjoy each other.  i have around a dozen video and audio files of Miss enjoying Herself with Superior Men.  Miss is fully aware that they exist - She did, after all, have a prominent part (THE PROMINENT PART) in all of them and She occasionally allows me to play with my tiny sissy clit whilst watching or listening to them.  Some of these files are both video and audio of the same occasion whilst some are just one or the other. 
 
During some of these encounters i have been allowed to be present.  Sat demurely in a corner of the room, dressed in lots of frilly girly lingerie whilst Miss is pleasured and on others i have been away from the room, forced to listen later or, if i was very lucky, to be called on the phone and made to listen to their fun.  It is the latter type of arrangement, with the sense of sight totally removed that has always provided the most arousal and humiliation for me. 
 
Miss has been fully aware that in hotel rooms where She is alone with Her lover, i have been listening through the door.  Since both She and Her lovers have also been aware of the video and audio recordings taking place and that even though the sissy cuckold is not there physically, they have made sure to 'include me' with the phone calls and verbal humiliations whilst they suck and fuck. 
 
The sounds of their voices in small-talk before the hot sex begins, the gorgeous sounds of kissing and of Her soft moans.  Zips being undone, clothing removed.  Words of appreciation being exchanged between them.  Gasps of delight.  Miss complimenting a Real Man on his cock size then comparing it to my small appendage.  Her lover joining in with the verbal humiliations.  Hearing Miss tell Her lover just how much better and bigger He is.  The sounds of encouragement, of appreciation, of Her mouth on His superior cock.  The moment He is inside Her.  The changing of sexual positions.  More verbal humiliation from both of them.  More kissing.  The bed creaking.  Then rhythmical movement, some fast, some slow.  Moans, passion, lust.  Then the best sound of all....Miss approaching and cumming hard for Her Man. 
 
Maybe.... i might have been fortunate to have had a call during their lovemaking.  Miss, in Her element, teasing me and belittling me.  Her Lover joining in.  After that it's them to themselves with maybe me being lucky enough to hear through the door of the room or from downstairs in the house or even on the stairs.  My little cock straining my panties, soaking them with sissy desire and humiliation.  The total denial of being able to see them together - having to imagine based on the myriad of most wonderful sounds.
 
Later, it all gets flipped on it's head as i listen to the session in its entirety on audio recording.  This time it might have accompanying video and whilst the video of Miss being so passionate and hot with another Man is wonderful to watch, it's the audio...ohhhhh....those sounds.  As if.....i wasn't there....x

Thursday 20 September 2018

A Secret Shared?

As far as i know, my being a sissy is something between Miss and myself.  But what if someone else knew??  Actually, they already do.  'They' are the lovers and Bulls that Miss has enjoyed in the past.  Since it has been quite some time since Miss has enjoyed a Real Man it would be fair to say that those Men will either have forgotten about it (the sissy aspect) or might only bring it up in conversation with their friends during recall of sexual exploits and experiences.  Unless Miss decides to play with one of Her former lovers again then me being known by someone else as a cuckold sissy is, in theory 'known' but not 'actively known'. 
 
So how could our FLR relationship be revealed to a third party or third parties?  The obvious one is that Miss finds a new lover.  This could be either a one nighter or a regular lover who becomes an active and contributory participant in the hotwife and cuckold arrangement.  A one night session of passionate lovemaking for Miss with a Real Man does not necessarily have to have my sissiness revealed but if  Miss chose to have a regular, reliable Man, someone who satisfied the sexual needs i can't then it would likely be that they would get to know about me.  Both of these arrangements are easily attainable for Miss, either through the type of play sites we have used in the past or through one of those selective 'discreet affairs' sites for married couples. 
 
 
 
There is also another way.....Miss tells a friend.  Miss confides in someone, most likely another Woman, that She has a sissy.  Women do chat of course!  Where and when might this happen?  At work, on a night-outwith friends, on-line, perhaps Miss might join an online forum for other Women who have sissies?  It could actually happen and if it did what would it mean for me?
 
 
 
It would seriously increase the control Miss has/potentially has over me - a good thing!  i would become even more vulnerable and open to manipulation.  Miss would be able to use it as another domination tool with opportunities for humiliation and embarrassment.  Her friend or friends might find it fun to give Miss ideas or make suggestions to Her.  They may even have experience of this themselves, might be active players or just fascinated and intrigued?  Naturally, if Miss did chose to confide in a Female friend then it would have to be a very trusted one or one who also opens up to Miss about an aspect of Her life that is a trusted secret.  An on-line 'friend' would not necessarily have to be so trusted but could again be a useful resource for Miss. 
 
Some of the blogs i read from other sissies and cuckolds do have environments where other Females known to the Superior Woman and often known to the subservient sissy are involved in the dynamics.  It does not have to of a sexual nature and in the main it is not, but they certainly have some input and involvement which is designed around their enjoyment and the embarrassment and humiliation of the sissy cuckold. 
 
A fascinating aspect and one i would probably seriously enjoy and one which Miss could also use to Her advantage. x

Thursday 13 September 2018

Luscious Line Of Lingerie

How much lingerie do i own?  My goodness - so much!  Miss and i had a brief exchange about this today shortly after i had hung out a full load of my pretties to dry.  We agreed that i own far more than most Real Women and perhaps even more than a few of them combined.  That's what sissies do though isn't it? They just love having a huge collection of gorgeous girly lingerie that they can call upon any time to make them feel femmy. 
 
i don't want this blog to sound boastful but i can easily let my own laundry basket fill to the max with my dainties and still have enough matching bra and panties sets, bodies, suspender belts, stockings and baby dolls to carry on wearing sissy delights for weeks.  As a sissy who wears at least one pair of panties everyday that should give an indication to the extent of my wardrobe. 
 
Why do we have so much of it?  A tough one.  It's addictive.  We are so easily convinced - by ourselves - that another set won't harm.  What about we do it because that's how we'd be if we were a Real Woman?  Interesting. Or maybe we wished our wives/girlfriends (if we have them) would do the same and if they aren't as prolific we console ourselves by 'wearing it for them'?   In my case, Miss has quite a decent collection of luscious lingerie including plenty of suspender belts, stockings and gorgeous gowns and baby dolls.  Her propensity to wear them however has somewhat waned over the years.  Yes, Her bra and panties sets are very pretty but it's now nearly 11 months since i last saw Her in stockings and suspenders and well over a year since She has worn any of Her delicious vintage Olga gowns.  Let's caveat the above statement - worn them for me anyway. 
 
So back to my laundry.  A relatively quick cycle on 'delicates' and suitably dry weather meant that they were going to be on the line today.  In hanging them up i was wearing male jeans but also a Woman's roll neck light woollen white jumper.  Under that a very pretty purple lace bra with matching panties, a white suspender belt and natural stockings.  The jumper was unmistakably 'Female' with my bra showing quite obviously through it both front and back - yummy!  i deliberately took my time hanging everything up, just simply revelling in the process of being dressed in a semi - sissy way.  Let's think about it - how many Real Men will you see hanging up and taking back down so much lingerie? 
 
Summer is gone and there will be fewer days on which to allow my things to flutter so wonderfully in the breeze to dry but if i see another opportunity to 'dodge' the tumble dryer you can rest assured that the line will be suitable adorned. x
 
 
 

Wednesday 12 September 2018

A Hot Weekend In Every Way

Temperature - hot!
The event we went to see - hot!
All weekend Miss looked - hot!
The sex we had - hot!
 
So that should accurately sum up that everything was hot.  Miss and i had been looking forward to this long weekend away for some time and like these types of weekend have been in the past this one did not disappoint.
 
We had plenty of fresh air, lots of great food, lovely wines and beers, had some enthralling conversations with new people and.....well....i'll describe that bit too!  Our first afternoon was spent getting to know our local surroundings and to grab some local food for lunch.  Eating outside, with local beers is great abroad when the weather is comfortably warm and the atmosphere is so different from home.  Miss had already stated the agenda for the day:
 
1. Go out
2. Get some lunch
3. Have a walk around
4. Back to the hotel for a nap and then....sex.
 
With items 1 to 3 completed we returned to our hotel room for the nap Miss wanted.  i took the opportunity to slip into something more suitable for a sissy and caught up on e-mails and various other admin stuff.  Whilst Miss snoozed i donned an extremely sissy pink frilly baby doll - which was so short that it totally failed to hide my pink sissy panties.  These were one of my special pairs of embroidered panties, deep cut and with gorgeous ruffled rows of lace on the rear.  The words 'Prissy Sissy' emblazoned on the front are such an accurate description.  Miss slept in a pretty black lace bra and panties set and when Her alarm went off i waited in hoppe for Her to initiate item 4 on Her agenda.
 
Miss was feeling very horny and was very keen on having an orgasm.  She told me to get my sissy clit hard, put a condom on and get inside Her whilst She concentrated on thinking about someone else fucking Her.  'Just get that little clit hard sissy' She ordered.  Knowing that i have to use a condom and being denied the feeling of Her gorgeous sex on my small cock always gets me hard for Her and She knows it.  Once inside Her i established a rhythm, being mindful not to cum myself and hoping She was getting some degree of satisfaction from having my little cock inside Her.  Clearly not!  Not long after being in Her Miss then ordered me to get between Her legs and do what a sissy does best with their tongues and lips.  Miss, as ever, tasted wonderful and soon She demanded that i insert a finger as well. 
 
She was enjoying this - i asked her later that evening if i was better with my tiny cock or my tongue - She told me that i already knew the answer to that. i certainly do!  Miss must have been very turned on by Her thoughts as i gently licked, lapped and kissed Her aroused clitoris because She began bucking and moaning louder as Her delicious cum washed over Her.  i so love it when She cums on my face.  What would Miss offer sissy now?  Getting off the bed Miss told me that She was going for a shower and that i was to masturbate myself into the condom still on my pathetic cock and to then 'show me the tiny amount of sissy cum you make when you are finished'.  Oh Miss!!  She can't have been in the shower for more than a minute when my weak spurts of sissy juice pulsed into the rubber.  i bucked and heaved my hips, imagining Miss texting a friend, telling Her or Him exactly what was happening.  Removing the condom, i showed Miss the contents and She laughed - 'not much is there sissy'.  Indeed Miss - not much at all!
 
Miss found another way to make me feel so sissy and embarrassed.  Carrying Her handbag. 
 
 
 
What an honour and oh so girly!  It delights me when She does this and outside, in the cool evening air with it still light, we  passed so many people with me carrying Her handbag.  With it on my arm it makes me feel so very sissy and i almost want to start mincing.  i did not look at too many faces for reactions but i'm sure it will have been talked about by those who noticed.  On Saturday morning Miss ordered me to masturbate on my own whilst She got Herself ready for our day out.  This time without a condom and again i hardly lasted a minute as i imagined myself fully sissied in broad daylight, walking next to Miss, the giggles and laughter of those we pass. 
 
Sunday evening brought another hot session with Miss.  We'd had the best meal out of the three and incredibly sat very close to this sign!
 
 
What a coincidence!  Miss wanted to take a picture of me underneath it which i would have loved to have done with me in pretty panties and bra but there were lots of people around so we both just enjoyed the fact that we were sat so close to it. 
 
That evening, back in our hotel room, Miss at first hinted that She was going to sleep but perhaps the sad look on my face changed Her mind?  Or maybe She was feeling generous?  Either way i was finding it hard to control my little cock especially as Miss was dressed in such a gorgeous black and gold bra and panties set.  'If I let you inside me sissy it's with a condom on.  I don't want your sissy squirts going off in me'.  When She verbally humiliates me i can't help but get hard - even if that hardness is nothing compared to a Real Man. 
 
Miss allowed me to be verbal this time and even though it is rare to get to tell Her what i am thinking i do think it's something that could help Her get even more aroused.  Before i could start however Miss jumped ahead of me and told me to 'imagine yourself sat in the bathroom sissy whilst I am with my Man'.  i took this up and continued the scenario but instead of describing what He would be doing to Her, focussed on me sat there, what i was wearing, what i was feeling.  Miss told me to describe the two of them together and to concentrate on what He was doing to Her.  This i duly did and Miss must have loved it as even though my condommed cock was barely filling Her, She climaxed hard and long. 
 
'You won't be staying inside me sissy so kneel between my legs, get that condom off and wank your little cock over my panties' She commanded.  Yet again She had played it to perfection and again i was allowed to verbally describe what i was thinking and how i felt.  i asked Miss to describe my cock compared to a Real Man.  She did it wonderfully, using all the right words to belittle and humiliate me.  i particularly liked how She used the words 'when' and 'will'.  Predictive words perhaps?  Something that is going to happen?  Oh i do hope so.  She deserves so much what a Real Man can give Her sexually. Hearing Miss tell me that She could hardly feel my cock when it's insider Her sent me over the edge and my weak spurts of sissy juice landed directly on the satin front of Her gorgeous panties.  i so wanted Her to make me clean it up with my tongue but that did not happen.  Instead Miss ordered me to remove Her panties and She rolled over into a deep and well deserved sleep.  i felt blissfully ignored and so honoured once again to have served Her and so grateful again that She allowed me release in Her presence. 
 
Sorry for the long post but when Miss and i do go away together it's usually a busy time as we do lots of things.  Not just the sex either.  It's good that we get to do this. 
 
It was a great weekend away with Miss.  x
 

Thursday 6 September 2018

It's Going To Happen!

 
 
i've always fantasised about being fucked up the arse by Miss with a strap-on.  Being taken by your superior Female has surely got to be the most submissive, feminine thing a heterosexual sissy can have happen to them - isn't it?  Now.....finally.....sometime soon, Miss is going to put on Her harness, chose one of two 'simulated' cocks and is going to take my virgin arse cherry - an act that will utterly confirm and leave no doubt that i am Her sissy and that She is my superior.  i can't think of any one single sexual act that affirms these statuses. 
 
It's all thanks to this...
 
 
 
Early this week i was in our kitchen, dressed in a pretty white pleated tennis skirt, light red lacy bra (breast forms in), matching suspender belt and panties and natural stockings.  i was reading the ingredients of a menu i was preparing for our dinner and was slightly bent over the worktop.  Miss surprised me from behind and began to simulate fucking me through my skirt.  Like a good submissive sissy i wiggled my bottom back as a sign of encouragement and appreciation and gently said to Miss:
 
'i'd love it if one day you took me with a strap on Miss'.  Her reply was quite unexpected but also delightful:
 
'Then get the hardware needed and sort it out sissy'.  Oh wow!!  i didn't need a second invitation.  Miss was telling me in no uncertain terms that if i purchased the equipment then She would take me - in my sissy pussy - and by doing so, claim my cherry. 
 
On the second night of Miss being away on business i scoured the internet for something suitable.  It had to be stylish, classy and well reviewed by users.  It had to be something that would 'ease' an anal virgin sissy into that world of pleasure.  What i eventually settled on also had to have another purpose.  To please Miss as a potential receiver as well as a 'giver'.  The model chosen (as in the picture earlier) has two 'cocks'.  Both in delicious black and in different sizes.  i e-mailed Miss my findings with a link to the lovehoney site, explaining that the bigger 'cock' could be of use to Her if She wanted to feel something much more substantial than what my tiny cock can provide.  Yes, Miss could use it by having me strap on to Her - or......She could use it on Her own as a dildo.  Totally Her choice. 
 
It must have worked because Miss replied very quickly 'Looks good for the job sissy, buy it'.  It will arrive tomorrow and i am so excited!  So many sissy thoughts.  On my knees, skirt up, panties pulled aside, stockinged legs spread (as so many Women have been positioned to so many forceful dominant Men), Miss behind me - in control, with the power, dominant but hopefully gentle at first?  Oh i hope i enjoy it!  i wonder how it will make Miss feel?  Will She feel the power?  Will She become aggressive and forceful?  Will She love fucking Her sissy? 
 
 
 
This morning i went out on a mission to carry out my punishment from last week.  Unfortunately the environment was not suitable and i told Miss as such before She decided that i would have to try again next week.  i shall leave that as a separate blog post so hopefully next week it will be worth the wait.  We are away this weekend and Miss has given me permission to pack the condoms.  One day...She might be telling me to pack them...for Her.....x

Tuesday 4 September 2018

A HotWife Holiday.

If Carlsberg ever did Hotwife Holidays then i'd imagine them to be something like this in their brochure....
 
'You know you are attractive, you know you are sexy, enjoy what you've got - make the most of it as a wife that is hot'.
 
They'd probably come up with a better strapline than mine but you get the idea?
 
'Are you getting tired of the same old tiny cock?  The same small penis that barely fills you?  Do you live with a sissy?  Do you crave being taken by Real Men?  Does your sissy know they are not cutting it sexually?  Have you told them this?  Yes?  Then we have the horny holiday both you and your sissy cuck will remember forever and will be back again for more'.
 
Welcome to your HotWife Holiday!
 
 
 
Imagine if it were real.  A secluded resort, probably in the Caribbean (where else would there be an abundance of young, athletic hunks with real endowment and stamina?).  No need for shyness or uncertainty.  Everyone knowing why they are they, what they are there for and their place.
 
Cuckolds - either sissies or plain cucks escorting their hot sexy Wives/Girlfriends to all the functions - having first dressed them for hot action and being appropriately dressed themselves.  The 'Bulls'.  Waiting.  So smart and handsome.  Muscles rippling, obvious bulges.  Superior men in every way.  The Wives.  Dressed to arouse their Bulls and to humiliate their cuckolds.  Excited.  Eager to enjoy. 
 
One by one the cuckolds are dismissed.  Pairs are formed and in some cases threes, fours and mores.  Fine dining.  Dancing.  Everyone knowing what is to come.   Wives and Bulls texting the cucks - teasing, humiliating.  Then the action.  Where they stand or in private rooms.  For some it's by the pools, for others  - those cucks that are lucky enough to be allowed involvement - it's back in their very own rooms.  Whatever the Wives want, the Bulls provide it.  Whatever their sissies and cucks lack - the Bulls provide it.
 
Soft and sensuous or hard and forceful.  Passion. Lovemaking. Fucking.  All of it available for these wonderful Wives.
 
7 nights, 10 nights, 14 nights.  How much do you want?  How much can you take?
 
Enjoy your Hotwife holiday! x

Monday 3 September 2018

Sexy Sunday!

 
 
Or also Super Sunday? 
 
Miss and i enjoyed a great morning and early afternoon out together.  Doing something we both like lots and having a lot of fun doing it.  Plenty of fresh air and lovely scenery coupled with nice cups of tea and.....a yummy bacon roll!  Whilst we were out Miss hinted that 'your luck might be in when we get home sissy'.  These word causing my little cock to twitch in my panties - as it always does when She teases me.  Miss looked really hot as well.  There was something particularly sexy about Her and i told Her so with a sneaky text message whilst we enjoyed our tea.  i already knew that She was wearing a stunning lace black and gold decorated bra - i'd seen Her put it on in the morning and told Her it was a gorgeous bra.  The type a hot sexy woman would wear.  Probably not for the benefit of a sissy, more for a Real Man on a date perhaps.  However Miss may have been feeling particularly sexy about Herself, hence wearing it.  That and Her verbal tease to me had me quite nicely flustered.
 
Once at home Miss made a comment about one of the replies to this blog. From GT.  She told me that what was written was a very accurate summation of how She felt about the whole sissy thing and the roller-coaster of emotions She has been going through ever since i admitted to Her that sexually, i am 100% a sissy.  We had a good conversation about it and i think we can make some good progress from it.  One thing Miss did say though was that i would have to lose the bra or any underwired items (bodies, basques etc) and breast forms on occasions where we were being intimate.  She told me that they just did not do it for Her and made Her feel uncomfortable.  Panties - tick.  Stockings - tick.  Nightgowns/babydolls - tick. Chemises and camisoles - tick.  All acceptable. 
 
That was a fair comment and from now, during moments of intimacy solely between Miss and i, there will be no bras or similar on me and no breast forms.  i can wear them as before but not in Her chambers during sex.  Whether She or a lover would accept them on me (if that occasion arose) that would be something to discuss as and when.
 
Anyway.... Miss is more than entitled to lay down the rules!  So with that established we moved to Her chambers where Miss stripped down to Her gorgeous black lingerie with me in a pair of pretty red, very full lace panties and a pink chiffon babydoll nightie.  i had removed my pretty red lace underwired body - those are the rules!  We fondled and touched each other with lots of nice kisses. i was a little more forceful in my kisses than usual with lots of tongue play. Miss liked that.  Naturally my tiny cock was hardening and Miss stroked it lovingly - asking if my little sissy clit was enjoying it  - oh yes Miss!  Miss ordered me to gently finger Her sex and it was delightful to notice how wet She was. 
 
She then wondered out loud how i was going to make Her cum.  Teasing me with the faint prospect of actually being allowed inside Her but eventually telling me to use my mouth and tongue.  Always an honour.  i just adore orally pleasuring Her and when She told me to use a finger as well it was certain that She was going to cum like this.  She was beautifully loud as well.  Telling me 'I'm going to cum on your face sissy, oh yes, oh yes, oh that's it sissy....I'm cumming'!
 
Once Miss has been pleasured it's always uncertain to me if She is then going to allow me any pleasure of my own.  It is not an entitlement.  It's a privilege if it happens.  Miss deliberated.  She said She would then not allow me to cum as my punishment for last weeks' cleaning failure.  i cheekily asked if She had seen my recent blog 'Punishment' and hoped She might steer that punishment along different lines?  We lay together as She read it and my small sissy cock stayed hard - hoping!  Eventually Miss told me what my punishment would now be but i'll save that for another blog entry - it's very, very good!  She then told me that i could cum and that i was to cum over the back of Her gorgeous black panties.  Oh Miss!! 
 
She lay face down, still in Her bra and panties and i knelt next to Her.  My tiny cock in my hand, gently stroking it, listening to Miss tease me about how pathetic my sissy cum squirts would be compared to those of Her lovers.  How right She is and how i hardly lasted either!  i moaned and sighed as my clit pulsed in my hand before it weakly shot out several jets of sissy juice.  Compared to previous cums it was a lot more than usual but compared to a Real Man - pathetic. The sight of Her there, sated, Her sexy black panties stained with white cum made me think of a Real Man doing the same - but no doubt that would be His second or third load of a lovemaking session - with perhaps more to follow?
 
(for illustration purposes only)
 
 
Miss goes away for three nights today - on business.  i hope She has a productive time and of course i will think very sissy thoughts of Her maybe flirting or taking an opportunity.  Even if nothing does occur - and She's first and foremost there in a professional capacity - it was lovely to be intimate with Her yesterday.  Almost four weeks since the last occasion so no wonder i had a bit more cum than usual! x
 
 

Saturday 1 September 2018

Punishment!

This week, Miss drew up a very comprehensive cleaning programme for me and for the first two days i lovingly complied with Her orders.  Ahead of Friday, Miss asked me  - quite generously - if i could cope with Friday's schedule despite having to go away later that day for something i was going to do in male mode.  i told Miss that i could cope with the task and that i could get it done and get away on time.  As Friday developed i realised that there was no way i could complete the cleaning task and offered my pathetic excuse to Miss via text that i had failed.
 
i also told Miss that i expected to be punished for my transgression, especially as She had given me plenty of opportunity beforehand to agree with Her that it might be impossible to achieve.  By text reply, Miss agreed that i would be punished - and rightly so.  But what exactly is 'punishment' for a sissy?
 
Tonight Miss started to hint at what that 'punishment' might be and to my wonderful surprise, i think She has twigged on to what would be the perfect punishment for a sissy.  Humiliation.  Embarrassment.  Yes!!  She's got it!! 
 
 
 
As we both enjoyed a lovely meal out - paid for by me and rightly so, Miss brought up the subject of my punishment.  'Maybe I'll make you buy me something sissy.  Perfume....jewellery.....maybe some new panties.'  All of those i'd lovingly do and have done anyway so perhaps not quite a punishment?  'How about i make you sleep on the sofa when your parents visit'?  Oh Miss!!  Yes!!  Now that's a proper punishment.   With the spare room (my chambers) occupied by my parents Miss would normally allow me into Her chambers BUT......by then making me sleep downstairs..... on the sofa.... and if they knew....what a statement that would be. 
 
i don't think this is what Miss will eventually decide on but She's now thinking along the sort of lines that a Superior Female would and does think in an FLR.  She's thinking....'what would embarrass the sissy...what would humiliate the sissy....what would make it obvious to a 3rd party that I'm in charge and that i 'own' a sissy?  So even though the punishment is not yet set, it seems that Miss has worked out what type it should be.  It could be something public....it could be something She says to a friend.....it could be making me do something....whatever it is Miss is going to make it very very effective.
 
Just tonight as Miss was stating that She was ready for bed i asked, more in hope than expectation, if She required me for anything.  We both know that those words or expressions of a similar nature by me are an offer of sexual services for Her pleasure.  Miss replied with a truly wonderful belittling comment:
 
'There's nothing that a sissy could do for me, so no, I won't be needing anything from you sissy'.
 
My little cock instantly hardened in my pretty pink panties and i had to hold my knees together under my pretty pink chiffon baby doll nightie.  i even brought my hand up to delicately touch the ribbon bow on my gorgeous pink Triumph Doreen bra (Google them - they are soooo sissy!).  All of this being a reaction to what Miss said.
 
What Miss Meant By What She Said (1) - 'Yes, I am feeling horny and would actually like some sex but not from you.  You can't give me the sex I want and feel like having right now so I'm not going to bother.  I would love to have sex right now with a Real Man, you are not a Real Man, therefore there will be no sex.'
 
What Miss Meant By What She Said (2) - 'I know you want me sissy and I possibly could use you for my own pleasure but instead I'm going to torture you and deny you enjoying me when I know I can do so much better than you in the sex department.  I'm not going to let you have your little thrills.  I'm going to have a good nights sleep and you can continue to worship me, pamper me and you can hope that I'll eventually reward you by allowing you to pleasure me.  In other words ''work harder for me sissy''. 
 
Part 1 is probably inevitable.  A Real Man probably soon will, as they have done before, provide Miss with the sex She deserves as a gorgeous hot looking Woman.  How that actually happens i may only find out when She is ready to tell me. 
 
Part 2 is what i will always, in perpetuity, strive for.  To be Her subservient sissy, to give Her whatever She wants, to pamper Her and worship Her.  To put Her needs before mine and to consider Her happiness uppermost.  By doing that, i might, just might be rewarded.  x