Bad Germs!

 

The nasty little buggers have made Miss bedridden today.  They simply won't leave Her body until they've had their fun.  Well.....it's not fun for Miss.  This winter bug has really got hold of Her.  There's not much i can do except to make sure She is hydrated and taking on small but regular portions of food.  i had exactly the same thing last week so it was more or less inevitable that Miss would get it as well.  i just wish i could do more.

 

We lost our shopping day and we will also lose going out to dinner tonight.  Both were going to be firsts for our FLR lifestyle....but.... we can do those another time.  Miss being better is the main thing. 

 

i've been half in male mode and half in sissy mode today so far.  Though whilst in male mode i have made sure to wear a gorgeous pink and cream lace edged silky cami top and French knickers.  Later, i'll slip into full femme sissy mode with a pretty blouse and skirt set.

 

i've tried to keep on top of household chores today but am wary of making too much noise and disturbing Miss.  The bedding for my chambers has been laundered and changed and i've taken care of dishes and waste.

 

We do have a planned engagement tomorrow with me in male mode but i don't see Miss recovering in time.  In such a case, i'll continue to be on hand for Her needs. x

And So Aids Restful Sleep....

That's the strapline for an old UK TV advert.  Night Nurse.

 

 

As much as i would love to be a sissy nurse there really has not been much i have been able to do today to get Miss back to full health.  It's a winter lurg and it just needs time and rest.

 

Miss spent most of the day in bed in an effort to get Her strength back. She has felt awful all day as the winter cold She is carrying does its worst.  While Miss rested, i spent the day being as good a sissy as possible.  Laundry, making dinner and changing the bedding in my chambers.

 

i've discovered that my own fitness regime has meant that size 14 skirts no longer fit  - they simply fall off my waist!  Size 12 it is then, which means some new skirts. Maybe Miss will help me choose some suitable ones.

 

Miss is in Her chambers now and hopefully will get a good sleep and feel better tomorrow.   

 

There are going to be many changes in dynamics over the next few weeks and I'll explain that in more detail in future blogs.

 

Exciting times for Miss and for me. x

Medic!

 

 

The cold that has been bothering Miss for the last few days has not left Her.  i brought Her tea this morning and Miss declared that She had an awful nights' sleep.  i so wish i could do something to make Her better.  This is a classic winter bug that has a tendency to make you think it is going away, only for it to come back or linger.

 

Shopping today is unlikely and Miss is right to say so.  She would not be at Her best and why would She want to expose Herself to even more germs?  Miss said that we might go shopping tomorrow which is wonderful but the most important thing is that Miss recovers. 

 

i did play last night and confessed to Miss that i had.  i told Her that i had entered a blog post about it.  Despite that my tiny clit was hard in my sissy panties again this morning as i delivered Her tea.  She noticed and i blushed.  Miss complimented me on my 'especially sissy' look.  A translucent white strappy gown through which could clearly be seen my pink lace bra, pink full cut embroidered and ruffled sissy panties (the words 'sissy cuckold' spelled out on the front) and natural hold up stockings.

 

Getting Miss back to full health is the priority of the day.  x

Permission To Play

Miss is recovering from a cold.  It hit me last week and inevitably has grabbed Miss too.  She's broken the back of it but for now is still under the weather.  She is adamant however that i will be taking Her shopping tomorrow morning!

 

We had guests over the last two days and as such the spare room, usually my chambers, is quite devoid of bedding save for a few pillows and an uncovered duvet.  Miss told me that i would be allowed to stay with Her this evening in Her chambers but that there would be no playing whatsoever if i did due to Her sniffles. i begged Miss to allow me to stay in the unmade up spare room so that Miss could get a proper sleep without my tiny clit hardening in my panties and causing Miss embarrassment.

 

Miss agreed and told me to wake Her with tea tomorrow morning. She added that i also had permission to play.  i will make the most of Her generosity and so that Miss knows exactly what i will be thinking of (She will almost certainly catch up on the blog tomorrow) i shall imagine a scenario when we are shopping tomorrow.

 

 

We are in the lingerie section.  Miss has seen some gorgeous panties. A hot red colour and seriously sexy.  i have been looking at bras, Miss calls me over.  'sissy, what do you think of these'?  She is not overly loud but i'm sure a Woman close to me has heard it and giggles.  My tiny clit hardens in my panties beneath my male jeans. 

 

'Sexy, aren't they sissy', She says as She holds them up.  'Have a feel sissy'. My hands tremble as i touch them. i'm sure the giggling Woman is discretely watching.  Miss is thoroughly enjoying my humiliation.  She knows that my tiny sissy clit will be hardening and leaking into my panties.

 

'Don't you think He'll love how I look in these panties sissy'?  Miss questions, and slightly louder.  The Woman who giggled has surely heard all of this.  Before i can answer, Miss tells me to find a black pair of the same style and to go to the counter and pay for both pairs. 

 

As i meekly look for the same pair in black and holding onto the red pair i notice Miss and the Woman chatting, with both looking my way. x

 

Miss actually deliberately humiliated me a couple of times these last two days whilst i was in male mode.  Telling me to hold Her handbag whilst She did something else and also carrying a new skirt around in a shop whilst She looked at other clothing. i was made to carry it to the till and although i was not made to pay for it (i was really hoping Miss would force me to), it was quite clear to anyone who noticed who was in charge and who was a subservient sissy - albeit it man drab.  It was wonderful - thank you Miss. x

Miss Has Chosen...

i was told by Miss the other day to 'complete the set'.  My blog entry explains what this was all about.

 

Miss has chosen:

 

 

To be honest i was not expecting Miss to come up with a set which is quite obviously styled with sex in mind.  It was the bra first that caught Her eye, in Her words 'that's a sexy bra sissy, i quite like that one'.  Then Miss played Her cards to perfection, telling me to bring up the page with the matching panties. 

 

Miss knew that i would be helpless to resist buying Her the panties as well.  Full cut, back seamed and sheer.  Gorgeous.  She knew that She did not even have to ask.  The words 'yes sissy, the panties are what i would wear'.  She just knew that they would be added to the order.

 

So... it started as a request by Miss for me to find a suitable bra and ended with Miss getting a complete set of bra and panties.  Only Miss now knows when and where She will wear these gorgeous items of lingerie.  i have the satisfaction of having paid for them - Miss will have the satisfaction of wearing them and......well.....anything else She wishes to use them for. x

SPH

.....the abbreviation for Small Penis Humiliation.

 

 

Miss is certainly quite happy to humiliate me whether i am in male mode or sissy mode.  This morning i was in male mode (sissy should be back tomorrow) and Miss was deliciously humiliating with Her comments about my penis and its inadequate size.

 

Miss must have been in an extremely generous mood as She Herself was not interested in attaining orgasm, so this one was purely for me.  What a wonderful gesture!

 

Even before any penetration took place Miss was extremely belittling with Her cutting words.  'Is it hard yet?  Can it not get any harder than that?  I suppose that's the best you can do'.  These were just some of the comments She made.  Added to that She then began referring to 'sissy' and what She was making her do over the next few days.

 

'Did you know that sissy is going to be paying for my next hair appointment'?  'Did you know that sissy will be taking me shopping on Saturday? I've got some panties I need buying to match some bras'.  'Did you know that sissy will be paying me to flirt with someone at my business convention?  I don't know who it will be with yet'.

 

That last comment was especially intriguing and my clit was now as hard as it was ever likely going to be.  How is sissy going to be doing that i thought? 

 

Miss ordered me to get on top and continued with Her humiliating comments. 'I can hardly feel that tiny clit, are you going to cum'?  'My lovers have much bigger than that small clit'. 

 

It did not take me long.  Miss would have expected nothing more than a few thrusts and some pathetic efforts to try and go deeper into Her but the cum came and Miss had achieved Her goal.

 

It really is quite wonderful to be humiliated and teased when not in sissy mode.  Miss knows it works and that in itself just re-affirms where the power and control in this relationship is.   

Complete The Set sissy!

 

 

The picture is of the new navy blue six strap suspender belt i bought Miss for Christmas.  With it are a pair of gorgeous navy blue and black lace panties belonging to Miss.  (i was delighted that they matched).

 

She brought the panties downstairs earlier and proceeded to tell me that She'd like the set completed with a plunge bra that matches.  i have been told to look at the site from which the panties came, Figleaves, and find a suitable bra or bras that will co-ordinate and match. 

 

i was secretly hoping that Miss would want me to do this - such an honour.  So i now have to look at the website and find something for Her.  Then i am to show Her what i have found so that She can make a final decision before i pay.

 

i will probably never get to see Miss in this delightful ensemble other than, if i get the privilege, to dress Her in it for an occasion that certainly won't be for my benefit.  What sissy would ever complain about that??  x

 

 

Take Me Shopping sissy!

 

 

Oh such wonderful words from Miss today!  i hope all sister sissies will agree with me when i say that to be told by your Miss that you are to take Her shopping sends shivers of sissy delight up and down the body.  As She told me, i felt a few leaks of sissy juice in my dainty white panties and tried very hard not to show any unsightly bulge beneath my skirt.

 

Miss described how, this Saturday, we would go together to a city where She knows the shops very well.  An early start to beat any potential rush and crowds.

 

Regrettably, i'll have to be in man drab but will make sure that underneath i'll be wearing very pretty lingerie. i'm sure Miss would expect me to do so anyway.  Miss did not state any specifics as to what we would be shopping for but it goes without question that primarily Miss will be finding things She likes for Herself and that i will be paying.  Exactly as it should be in a FLR arrangement. 

 

Miss could quite easily use this occasion for some humiliation and embarrassment.  Clothes for me perhaps?  Things for Her to please someone else?  i had better expect all possibilities. 

 

This sissy is very happy and very excited! x

A Very Grateful sissy.

Miss and i exchanged our presents this morning.  Most important to me was that i hoped She liked the two presents i had for Her.

 

1.  A personalised fitness and nutrition tracker A5 folder with Her logo on the front and back.

 

2. A sexy navy blue six strap suspender belt.

 

Miss loved them both.  The folder probably most of all.  She was also quick to point out that i would probably only see Her in Her new suspender belt if i was lucky enough to dress Her for an occasion.  As it should be. 

 

Miss gave me two lovely presents.  A gorgeous silky floral dressing gown/housecoat and some lovely demure pink house slippers.  Both items very girly and extremely sissy. 

 

 

i did not expect anything at all from Miss so it is wonderful to be treated. It makes me feel wanted and appreciated.

i did tell Miss that i would like Her to find something to go with Her new suspender belt so hopefully She won't keep me waiting too long. x

 

Merry ChrisMiss

i will be summoned tomorrow.

 

i have two presents for Miss and apparently two from Miss.

 

It's the giving that counts and i am so lucky that Miss has got me something. i expect nothing and want to give Her everything.

 

Tomorrow will be very exciting for me when we open our presents together.  i hope that Miss has also seen things in the end of year sales that She will make me buy for Her.

 

Lingerie

Dresses

Skirts

Shoes

Jewellery

 

Take advantage Miss.... x x

 

 

Is This The Real Life...?

...Or is this just fantasy?

 

 

 

Last night i was in male mode and Miss was feeling decidedly horny.  She could have summoned sissy but She clearly wanted penetrative sex and so far, that type of activity is being denied sissy.

 

Right from the beginning it was clear She was going to get verbal. i think She knew that penis humiliation and cuckolding talk was going to get my tiny clit as hard as it was ever going to be and that She needed something hard (albeit small) inside Her to stimulate the cum She wanted.

 

So sissy stayed away and instead Miss described a scenario, in fact scenarios that had been taking place for some time.  A lover.  A work colleague.  A married man.  They had been having a tryst for at least a few months.  Once a week for hot passionate love making.  In hotels, in his car, in Her car.  Discreet meetings.  Miss described how this lover knew about sissy and at first had found it weird but now found it quite a thrill. 

 

Miss knew that this would keep me hard enough for Her and of some use for Her to cum.  But was it real??  Had this really happened and was it still happening?  To me it seemed very very real! i told Her how wonderful it all sounded and how pleased i was that She had found a reliable, trusted lover.  Miss told me that it was always going to happen as She had needs for something much bigger inside Her.

 

Miss came hard. i came hard.  Inside Her.  If we ever do go back to real life playing then both sissy and i so want Miss to have this kind of arrangement.  A trusted lover.  Discreet meetings. No strings attached.  Miss getting what She needs.  She could so easily do it and it would not be very complicated at all. 

 

sissy will be away for Xmas now so both her and i hope everyone has a great time and let's all look forward to a wonderful New Year of serving our superior Women. x

Torture

 

 

Ok, perhaps it is not quite like torture but it's got to be close.

 

Being allowed to join Miss in Her bed this morning for cuddles.  Being told to stroke Her bottom. Feeling Her gorgeous silk panty clad rear.  Being told to stroke Her lovely smooth back.

 

Thinking that Miss might want something more....

 

Being told..'I'm not in the mood for sex or an orgasm sissy'.  Being asked 'how is your tiny clit sissy'?  Having to meekly reply that it is very wet in my panties.

 

Being told to leave Her chambers and make more tea. for which Miss will come downstairs for.  Thinking that Miss might be indulging Herself?

 

She has every right to if She pleases.

 

Looks like sissy might be in for a long period of denial.

 

Wonderful torture. x

Scrabble - Episode 3

 

 

Miss came within 8 points of victory this evening.  Very close!  It was always a close scoring affair with my word 'freebies' being decisive.

 

Unusually, Miss did not employ any distraction tactics tonight.  She's had a very long day so perhaps lacked the usual vim.

 

Words of note this evening:

 

Miss - Jerk

sissy - Jerks, Cummed.

 

The last one....cummed... i particularly enjoyed and we were both quite surprised it was accepted by the dictionary.

 

i could have made 'cummer' - but not as many points.

 

i wonder when Miss will next allow me to.....cum...? x

Housewifey

 

 

When Miss is out all day doing things, either for Herself or for whatever reasons then it goes without saying that She can't attend to the daily things at home that She would normally want to.

 

So that's where a sissy comes in.  And a sissy that is so willing to do these things is hopefully a real asset for Miss.

 

'Housewifey' might come across as a bit of a sexist word but today i have been extremely busy doing laundry, cleaning bathrooms, cleaning my own chambers (for guests in a few days), preparing and making dinner, shopping and putting clothes away. And then...being attired in a pretty pink skater dress and appropriate lingerie to greet Miss when She arrives? 

 

i'd like to know of any Alpha Male that would willingly do all of that?? x

 

 

Is This Total Humiliation?

Miss is very good at belittling me.  Very good at verbally humiliating me. Very good at using just the right words to make me feel sexually inadequate.  Most of that centres around my tiny sissy clit.  It really is not very big at all.  When flaccid, it is hardly detectable under panties and when hard it's no more than the average flaccid male. Size does matter to Women!

 

Miss has enjoyed lovers in the past with much better equipment.  Proper length and girth to satisfy Her.  One particular 'Bull' (BBC) was, in Her words, 'the biggest cock I have ever had in me.  I felt so stretched and full'.

 

i read on a sissy site once (though i can't remember which one) that the sissy was occasionally allowed inside her Miss but when she was allowed, she had to wear a condom.  her Miss made sure the sissy knew that only 'real men' were ever going to cum insider Her.  Whether She did actually let 'real men' or perhaps just one or two trusted lovers empty their love seed into Her is one thing but the real humiliation for the sissy was having to wear the condom.

 

Along with denial, surely that's Total Humiliation?

 

Miss has only once let me pleasure myself inside Her.  Only of course after She had used my face for Her own pleasure. i remember Miss telling me that She hardly felt a thing and did not even know that i had cum. That was over 6 weeks ago. x

Giggling Girls

Miss has made me clean the conservatory this morning.  Polish, dust and hoover.  i'm wearing a pale blue satin blouse and a fully pleated white calf length skirt.  It's quite 80's - an era where most of the impressions of femininity were made on me.  Underneath this, pale blue bra, panties and suspender belt with honey coloured stockings.

 

As i cleaned, i noticed quite how exposed i was to passers by.  Not that it bothers me in the slightest.  i don't deliberately try to be noticed nor do i try to hide.  There's nothing unusual about someone cleaning a conservatory - the only unusual bit is that if someone cared to look longer than a glance they'd clearly see a sissy. 

 

Miss was worried this morning that i might 'compromise' myself going out to Her car to retrieve Her phone left there from last night.  A pink chiffon baby doll, cream bra, panties, suspenders and tan stockings was my garb but the thoughts of compromise were furthest from my mind.  Doing what Miss wanted doing was uppermost - enjoying the cool morning air on my femininely attired body was thrilling, knowing it was dark and early morning gloomy so if i was seen it would be quite difficult to recognise also gave me confidence. 

 

But the point of the muse is that i have had some quite humiliating experiences when in male clothing but also wearing female lingerie underneath.  The white t-shirt with a delicate white lace bra beneath - clearly visible  - being noticed by two teenage girls who sniggered and giggled.  The dark blue satin panties showing at the top of my jeans when bending down to get something form a shop shelf and being seen by a woman who smiled so sweetly and then laughed. 

 

There's something very exciting for a sissy when 'compromised'. Especially when it is Women who have made the connection.  For a Woman to laugh and ridicule a sissy is wonderfully humiliating. 

 

sissies enjoy the humiliation, the embarrassment, the shame. 

 

 

'Ridicule is nothing to be scared of'. x

Tell Me About It.

 

As is always the case, Miss looked so sexy this morning as i delivered Her tea.  She just glows.  Extra glows this morning no doubt attributed to Her wonderful landmark achievement last night.

 

Miss asked me if i had played last night and i told Her i had and that i had blogged in advance what i would be thinking about.  'Oh I know sissy, I've already read it' She replied.

 

Cue a little bit of a flush on my face and the accompanying stirring in my panties.  Having Miss know exactly what i think of when i have been given permission to play is, i feel, quite crucial to the FLR dynamics of a Miss/sissy relationship.  Miss will see this as power - giving Her more angles and approaches to manipulate and control me.  Miss is fully aware that i am a very typical sissy - not at all complicated - easily dominated and easily kept in line.  

 

Which is why She asked me 'so did I enjoy it sissy'?  She was referring to what i had used as a fantasy to get myself off last night.  'Yes Miss, you really did' was my quite rubbish reply.  i think Miss was telling me something.  i think She was telling me that if i was going to blog something that was about what i 'used' to pleasure myself then i should express Her feelings and what it did for Her in my narrative of that fantasy.  x

Once Bitten...Twice Not So Shy

Miss has given me permission to play this evening.  She has retired to Her own chambers. i just love hearing Her door shut loudly - such a strong statement. A statement of power and domination, of control.  She certainly has the control!

 

i am not going to waste this opportunity.  Having been en femme for virtually most of the day, having been allowed to wear my boobs, having dutifully served Miss, having read Her comments on my embarrassingly small hard clit this morning, having heard Miss tell me that Her 'everyday bras' are unlikely to be worn for lovers - but then again maybe they could be.  All of the above has made me typically sissy rampant.  i won't waste it!

 

i shall retire to my chambers shortly.  Gaze lovingly at the closed door opposite me.  i shall fantasise.  Of Miss.  Away on an overnight business meeting.  She promised to text me a photo of Her lingerie for the evening meal and dance.

 

The text comes through...early in the evening.  In the picture, laid out meticulously on Her hotel bed.  The new sexy black lace bra and panties set.  Along with one of Her gorgeous black suspender belts and barely black stockings.  There, in the centre of Her panties, across the lace, a condom.  The words from Miss in the text.

 

'I've got all I need tonight sissy. Sleep well!'

 

 

 

x

How Proud Am i?.....

 

 

 

Of Miss.

 

It's not just at work that Miss strives to succeed.  Also in Her personal life.  Fitness and healthy eating for the last three months have resulted in Miss reaching and surpassing Her targets.  Considering the hectic work schedule She has, Her family, me and the other half of me, what Miss has done is absolutely brilliant.

 

i will be welcoming Her back into the house this evening with a glass of champagne.  The least i can do to recognise the efforts that this wonderful Woman has put in to get to where She is now.  What a star She is.

 

i so hope that i can buy Miss something to landmark this occasion.  Miss?

 

Knowing Miss, She won't rest on Her laurels and i hope She knows that i will be backing Her up all the way for as long a journey as She wants to take.

 

Wow Miss - brilliant!  x

Relief!

sissy just dodged a bullet.

 

 

The gorgeous lingerie set i bought Miss for Her performance award with Her company.  i ordered the wrong bra size!  Not intentionally of course. Every sissy should know the bra size of their superior.

 

On scroll down menus for online ordering, sometimes you think you've made a selection and then a touch of the mouse wheel can change it and you've missed the change.  That's how a D cup became a C cup and therefore on trying the new sexy black bra today Miss told me it was wrong - Her gorgeous breasts are D. 

 

The returns process these days is very simple and very efficient but my worry was that Miss had already decided when and where She was going to wear this new set and that the delay would scupper that plan.  Relief however for sissy when She told me She had another very sexy black bra that would go with the panties. 

 

No mention of when and where (or who?) but that's not information Miss needs to disclose to me.  i'm just relieved that She is not being inconvenienced.

 

Phew! x

Get Your Tits In!

So not 'get your tits out' but get them in!

 

This morning whilst i was changing the bed linen for Miss in Her chambers, She called me into Her study.  i was wearing a pretty cream lace bra with pale blue and red floral designs on the cups, matching panties, a beige suspender belt and natural stockings.

 

i thought Miss was going to express displeasure with me for being so scantily dressed whilst performing chores but instead She commented that She wanted to see what i was wearing.  i stood demurely in front of Her whilst She deliciously ran Her soft fingers up and down my bra straps and across the back band - snapping it for Her amusement (and my secret arousal!).  She noticed the suspender belt and instantly recognised it as a new one for me.  She does not miss anything! 

 

Miss approved of the set, especially the suspender belt. It's from the Autograph collection by Marks and Spencer.  

 

 

Was Miss making a hint that She wants one as well?  Just make me get you one if you want one Miss.  However, having finished inspecting me and enjoying my vulnerability, Miss then told me that 'you can put your boobs in today sissy'. 

 

i can't wait!  i just have to do a few more things which require me to wear male clothing but once they are done, i'll be changing into a pretty polka dot tea dress and will wear my forms beneath my pretty bra.  i will feel even more girly and femme and i am very grateful to Miss for allowing this. x

 

 

 

Oggling Other Women

 

Whilst Miss enjoys Her second cup of tea and the laundry turns in the machine i thought i'd muse about the subject line.

 

Heterosexual men will usually ogle women.  Some of those men are single, some are dating already and some are married.  The status of the woman they are ogling is usually of irrelevance to them.  Some men are quite subtle, most are not.  Some men have become so blasé that they'll do it whilst with their own girlfriend/wife. 

 

i will admit it now.....i also look at other women.  Yes.  i love looking at them.  But the major difference of course is that i'm not lusting.  i am admiring.  i am comparing.  i am evaluating. i am considering.  What??

 

Their clothing.  How they move. What their lingerie might be.  Stockings or tights?  So that's just the same as the men right?  Wrong!  i look to get ideas.  Would Her 'look' work for me?  For Miss?  Did Miss see Her shoes - would Miss like some like that?  Did Miss see that skirt?  Would Miss like me to wear something similar? 

 

Miss knows i look.  Miss knows what i'm thinking. Miss knows that none of the Women that a sissy looks at are a threat no matter how attractive they are. Imagine how wonderful that must feel to Miss. 

 

Miss ogling men?  Why would She not?!! x

 

 

Permission Granted.....

 

 

......but opportunity not taken.

 

My gorgeous Miss gave me permission to play with myself last night just as She retired to Her own chambers.  This kind of generosity should never be passed up but foolishly that's exactly what i did.

 

A combination of tiredness and feeling slightly under the weather perhaps but it really was a matter of minutes before i fell asleep in my own chambers. 

 

One of the problems with not playing the night before is that my little clitty is usually well awake even before the rest of my body and today was no exception.  There 'she' was, in my baby blue ruffled and embroidered full panties this morning, straining and demanding attention.

 

However, Miss said last night, and now is this morning.  i will have to work out with Miss that when She does 'give permission' - is that a subtle order and that i MUST play with myself or is it optional? 

 

Bringing Miss Her tea this morning was especially challenging as seeing Her in Her bed with that morning glow does not help my clit behave - and coupled with these style of panties (i have four pairs and will do a blog on them later, they are very special!) - it was hard (well, for a sissy it was hard.....).

 

The last thing Miss needs to see first thing in the morning is a sissy with an unsightly pathetic hardness in her panties when she's serving tea.  i hope Miss did not notice. It's going to be hard today as well (sorry about this pun!) keeping my tiny clit under control - but Miss, i'm sure, will enjoy my discomfort.

 

i have a feeling i am going to be very busy today. Miss is now on holiday for the Christmas period and has lots to do.  x

More Teasing From Miss

 

She did it again this evening......

 

i was not in sissy mode.....

 

Another cutting but wonderful remark....

 

Miss was looking at some online clothing.  She found a quite lovely 'Mistress' style dress (by design or accident?).  Similar to the one above. She described at as an 'I'm in charge dress'. In male mode i remarked quite casually, 'the sort of dress you could go out wearing with sissy in tow'.

 

Her instant response....'the sort of dress I would wear whilst sissy waited outside for me'.

 

That really hit a spot.  It's something we've done before.  Miss 'delivered' to the home of a lover to enjoy Herself whilst sissy waited in the car.

 

sissy would be honoured to do the same again for Miss.

 

Is Miss thinking about a possible return to something similar?  Twice in a two day period where i have been in male mode - Miss has come up with two very erotic and highly stimulating comments. x

 Update: 19/12.  i mentioned to Miss this evening that even whilst i have been in male mode She seems to have been especially playful and teasing these last couple of days.  Miss responded that 'yes, and you were right not to carry it on'.  That's a pointed reference to our arrangement which stipulates that when i'm in male mode, Miss can continue to humiliate me and do anything She pleases either actual or fantasy relating to cuckolding but i am forbidden from becoming involved.  Miss can give permission to me when in male mode to 'carry it on'. Only sissy can actually participate or openly talk about those things.  She's becoming very good a this. x

 

 

Condom Capers.

There are times when sissy is not in girl mode but can still be embarrassed/humiliated and mercilessly teased by Miss.

 

Yesterday saw such an occasion take place and it was wonderfully executed by Miss.

 

Even though i was not in sissy mode (we were doing something that required me to be in male mode), Miss saw an opportunity when She asked me to get something from Her purse.

 

Now, men know just as much as sissies that a Woman's purse/handbag is a no go zone unless being specifically told to look inside it.  As a sissy and also in male mode i will always ask 'are you sure you want me to open it/look inside'?

 

The item i was looking for was nothing more sinister than some chewing gum but having questioned the act of opening and looking inside Her purse, Miss commented 'just get on with it, what's the worst thing you could find in there, a condom'?

 

Was there one in there?  What if there was?  Maybe even more than one?  So even in male mode, Miss was humiliating me.  It was wonderful.  i did not actually find one but what if i had?  What would i have said?  What could i have said?

 

If i had indeed come across a condom in Her purse/bag then it would have told me;

 

1.  Miss might now be in situations where She is using a condom with a lover.

2.  Miss wants to be ready, should an opportunity arise.

3.  Miss fully expects an opportunity to arise.

 

All of the above are extremely exciting but what yesterday's incident clearly shows is that Miss is going to do things to me whether i am dressed up in fully sissy mode or not. 

 

sissy may now have to learn how to prepare Miss's purse/handbag whenever told to. x

Update: 19/12.  i mentioned to Miss this evening that even whilst i have been in male mode She seems to have been especially playful and teasing these last couple of days.  Miss responded that 'yes, and you were right not to carry it on'.  That's a pointed reference to our arrangement which stipulates that when i'm in male mode, Miss can continue to humiliate me and do anything She pleases either actual or fantasy relating to cuckolding but i am forbidden from becoming involved.  Miss can give permission to me when in male mode to 'carry it on'. Only sissy can actually participate or openly talk about those things.  She's becoming very good a this. x

 

Purple Panties On Display

Yesterday, i wore a new set of lingerie that i had bought for myself some time ago.  A gorgeous purple set of bra and panties with a co-ordinating suspender belt.  The reason i chose this set was specifically because the panties have a wonderful dotted effect pattern on the rear - very much like the pair Miss made me wear of Hers.

 

i so wanted Miss to see them, so seizing an opportunity before dinner, i managed to convince Miss to allow me to show Her the panties.  First from the rear.  Miss made me stand directly in front of Her whilst She sat.  Dress raised and petticoat raised. 'Higher with the petticoat sissy'! She demanded.  i spluttered out why i had chosen this pair to wear, hoping that Miss would appreciate that 'imitation is a form of flattery'. 

 

Miss made me pirouette and then show Her the front.  My little clit was stirring and wetness was forming in the panties.  i think Miss knew it as She seemed to make me stand for such a long time.  She agreed that the panties were lovely and also decided that She wanted something similar - especially the colour. 

 

Although it was of my own doing, to be standing there, so exposed to Miss - quite obviously a full on sissy with such a pathetic excuse for a penis trying to harden in a pair of women's panties was wonderfully humiliating and i think Miss enjoyed making me squirm.  An added bonus is that i will now be looking for a set for Miss as well!

 

Miss was feeling very generous this morning and agreed to take a picture of me wearing them. 

Nowhere near as sexy or desirable as how Miss looks in Her panties but certainly very sissy! x

 

 

Her New Lingerie

 

 

i promised to buy Miss something for Her recognition She achieved with the company She works for and today that present arrived.  A gorgeous black lace bra and panties set, so sexy, so very feminine.

 

Unbeknown to Miss, i had asked for the items to be gift wrapped and with a note that said:

 

To Miss

 

For being so good at your job. i hope you get an opportunity to wear these. Love. sissy x

 

Miss loved them!  She also loved the gift wrap and the note.  For me, knowing that someone had typed the note made me feel very sissied. What Miss said, after opening the box and reading the note was truly wonderful:

 

'Thank you sissy, yes, they are lovely and such a shame that I won't be wearing them for you.'

 

And why would She? A set such as this, now owned by Miss and paid for by me deserves surely to be worn for a real man, an Alpha male lover.

 

My clit became very wet and hard when Miss said that.  It was what i hoped She would say. Whoever sees Her and enjoys Her in this set is a very lucky man. x

Scrabble Revisited

 

 

This might become a regular Friday night event.

 

Miss was definitely up for revenge after Her very close scoring defeat She suffered last week.  During last week's game Miss deployed some very astute humiliation tactics specifically designed to distract sissy and She almost pulled it off. 

 

This week, Miss was doing exceptionally well, and at one point held a very healthy lead.  However, i managed to keep scoring consistently and sneaked home with an 18 point win. 

 

Miss seemed to be holding Her 'distraction' cards back this week and chose a pinch point to declare that 'my lover was not available today sissy'.  This statement in itself made my panties very wet yet i still managed to hit a 25 point word score which left Miss with too much to do.

 

i wonder if Miss had made this remark earlier - would it have had a greater effect? Why did She reveal such a statement so late in the game?  Was it true?  Does Miss really have a lover?  Ohhhh, i do hope so!  As it transpired then, i had a very wet pair of panties but an unassailable lead - despite Miss and Her teasing.

 

Words scored of note;

 

Miss - Wet, Vaginas (a massive 78 points!), Orals, Knobs.

sissy - Horn, Dildos.

 

 

Boobs

 

i have a pair.  Those silicone falsies.  38D.  i've not worn them for Miss yet.  i'm not sure what She'd make if it?  As i was swishing around this afternoon in my polka dot tea dress, petticoat and frothy underthings, i just suddenly thought about them and how they would look.

 

Is it more 'sissy' to have them adorned in a pretty bra, to try and look like a girl, or is it more 'sissy' to be a quite obviously inadequate 'male' for Miss and wear the clothing, have the mincy mannerisms and forego the boobs?

 

Miss? 

Initiative.

 

 

Miss has not left me any tasks to do today but that does not mean a sissy can sit on her lazy hands and do nothing.  Instead i will make sure the basics are all in order for when Miss comes home.

 

Rubbish bins, dishes, Her chambers, evening meal preparation, anything that is out of place should be put back into place.  Miss has some parcels waiting.  Hopefully a few of my presents for Her. 

 

i'll also make sure i am most suitably dressed for Miss when She gets back.  A lovely feminine floaty dress with something very pretty and girly underneath.  Miss deserves to be welcomed home by a 'girl' who has at least made an effort! x

Miss Or Mistress?

We were talking about this after our mutual pleasures this morning.

 

It's Miss all the time during the day.  'Mistress' has been used when we are playing sexually....but then Miss wondered if it should be 'Miss' all the time. 

 

i don't decide.  She does.

 

Miss....perhaps you could answer for me?

 

 

 

Mutual Morning Delights

 

 

i already knew that Miss would want pleasuring this morning and i could not hide my excitement in my panties as, having delivered Her morning tea, Miss told me to come back to Her chambers in ten minutes.

 

Miss was naked except for a pair of pretty pink lace panties and i was wearing a pink chiffon baby doll with black bra and white and pink flowered cotton panties.  i was in a state of unmatched lingerie as Miss had specifically told me to remove Her black panties last night for hand washing today.

 

Miss was reading my blog and looking at some of the other sissy sites and bloggers i like.  She was being very inquisitive, asking me why i liked such and such a blog.  i lay next to Her, getting wetter and wetter in my panties as Miss took Her time looking at sister sissy blogs. 

 

She then demanded a body massage, both front and back, allowing me to spend time caressing and soothing Her luscious body.  i took my time, wanting to give Her a wonderful massage, to take away Her aches and pains from a very busy week.

 

Miss liked it lots and mused about how we could both go to a special spa day and have 'hers and hers' pampering!  Once Miss had enjoyed Her massage She ordered me to use my fingers on Her gorgeous pussy and then to use my lips.  It is a sissies rightful place, face between the legs of the Woman you worship, kissing, licking, sucking, probing.  Giving pleasure.  Miss wanted my fingers inside Her, one.....then two, slow, deep and gentle.  With my tongue on Her at the same time, Miss told me i was a 'good sissy' and that She might let me use my clit inside Her.

 

She came hard on my face, Her sweet sex pulsing as i felt Her waves of pleasure.  Miss then made me clean my fingers and to savour Her love juices.  Exercising Her power and control, Miss verbally ran through some options about how i might get my pleasure.  She decided that i would sit up in bed next to Her and be allowed to play with my clit - but.....under time pressure.  She used the countdown app on Her tablet, giving me 4 minutes to cum.

 

With the clock ticking, Miss began to delightfully verbally humiliate me.  Belittling my clit and telling me that it 'actually might be the case sissy that you never put that clit inside me, as that's only for my boyfriend and lovers'. 

 

Less than a minute.....in fact 30 seconds?  i had cum hard all over my baby doll as Miss smiled triumphantly. 

 

It's now time to hand wash those gorgeous panties Miss made me wear yesterday.

 

A beautiful start to the day. x

Summoned..

 

 

Miss, as is often the case, has had a hectic week.  Work, socialising, fitness. It takes its toll.  Tomorrow however, Miss has the day off and since i am still in Her servitude She has seen an opportunity to use me for Her pleasure.

 

i have been told to bring Her a morning cup of tea and then leave Miss to wake up gently before being summoned shortly after to pleasure Her.  Miss was feeling very horny this evening but Her tiredness won the day/night. 

 

Miss was very pleased with me for wearing Her panties today but has insisted that i remove them before bed. Wonderfully, She has told me that the panties are to be hand washed by me tomorrow.  What an honour!

 

i have also been told by Miss what She wants me to buy Her as a present for her work achievement award.  Miss has chosen a very pretty black lace bra that She told me would be for work and also for 'play'.  Miss sent me the link and it's a gorgeous bra.  Miss was a bit reticent about having me buy the matching panties as well but i am going to make sure She has the set, to wear for whenever and whoever, as and when She sees fit. 

 

i am very exited about being summoned to Her chambers tomorrow morning. i shall please Miss in whatever way(s) She desires.  i'd love it if Miss lets me inside Her or lets me play with myself in Her presence.  Those wishes however are totally at the discretion of my gorgeous, wonderful Miss. x

 

 

Wearing Her Panties

 

 

i am now experiencing what can only be described as a form of sissy nirvana.  My tiny sissy clit is encased in a pair of gorgeous black lace and sheer panties.  They feel wonderful on me, they are getting more and more damp with each passing hour.  Why are these panties making me feel like this?  Don't most panties make a sissy feel special?

 

Yes - but these belong to Miss, they have been freshly worn by Her and She demanded that i wear them today. 

 

This is the very first time that Miss has made me do this and hopefully it won't be the last.  Her timing this morning as She held them out for me to take, coupled with what She said, was beautiful and perfect.  i felt my stockinged legs quiver as i gently took the panties from Miss and held them softly against my face.  Inhaling Her sweet aromas, the musk, the perfume, Her arousal? 

 

i told Miss how grateful i was, how wonderful it was.  i curtsied and shyly said 'Oh Miss!' as i held the delicate garment tight to my bra through my pretty baby doll nightie.

 

Only hours earlier, Her sweet sex had been delicately encased in these flimsy panties as She danced away a great evening with friends.  Now, they are being worn by Her sissy.  Worn to please Her, worn as humiliation, worn as a reminder of Her superiority, worn as a tease of what might have happened last night. 

 

Maybe Miss will allow me to pleasure myself wearing them - or maybe i still have some work to do in servitude for that to happen?  x

Winners and Panties

 

 

In Her role of work, Miss is very efficient, very diligent and very good.  However, She does not really realise this and normally downplays Her abilities.  Well, last night, just before i drove Her to Her party, Miss received a message from the company She works for that She has been awarded a recognition prize. 

 

i am so pleased for Her.  She really deserves it.  Since i have known Miss, She has worked for three different companies, all in the same field of business.  With this particular one She seems most content and most appreciated.

 

i want to buy Miss something as a sign of my delight that She has been recognised.  Hopefully She will read this blog later today and think of something suitable.  Or perhaps tell me to come up with something myself? 

 

Miss was very tired last night - lots of dancing!  She retired to Her chambers in a gorgeous black lace bra and panties set.  i especially loved the panties She was wearing.  Black lace with a sheer dotted back.  Very sexy and very feminine.  Perhaps some more panties like that for Miss?

 

She told me that i had permission to play - especially as 'you are no doubt turned on by my lingerie sissy'.  Very true Miss!

 

In my own chambers last night, i gently caressed my tiny sissy clit, looking across from my bed to the door of Her chambers firmly closed.  i imagined Miss with a lover, His hands gripping Her arse tightly through those luscious panties as they kissed passionately.  i imagined the door of Her chambers opening slightly and Miss hanging those panties on the outside door handle and then closing the door again. 

 

Thank you Miss for allowing me to play.

 

i was just going to post this as Miss left for work but just five minutes ago Miss presented me with the panties She wore last night and told me:

 

'Here are my panties that i wore last night, the ones you really liked.  You will wear them today and think of me wearing them last night and dancing in them. Wear them sissy, and think of the people I fucked wearing them'. 

 

 

 

 

 

Yes, those are Her panties, which are now on me and my clit is so wet.  Miss did not give me permission to play again but Her words as She left were just.....so....beautiful. x

Miss Is Out Having Fun.

 

What makes Miss happy...makes me happy.  She is out with a big group of friends who share the same passion for fitness this evening.  It's a local do and i will be Her transport both to and from the venue.  Not sure yet if i will be driving Miss there en femme but She has already said that i will probably have to collect Her in man drab as She might have a few friends who will also need a lift home.  Miss will text me if i can collect Her en femme - which would be lovely!

 

It's an all girls affair Miss tells me so i would be very surprised if their group gets any male attention.  Not because Miss won't look luscious but men tend to shy away from very large groups of ladies as they are apparently harder to 'break down'. 

 

i hope Miss has a great time, just the fact that She is going out and socialising more is wonderful. 

 

She has told me that an old work colleague of Hers is pestering for a night out as well.

 

Miss is in demand!  x

Miss Loves Presents....

.....and i love buying them for Her!

 

 

 

A core duty of the subservient sissy is to treat the superior Female to presents.  These can be presents that have been asked for or those given as surprises.  i love it when Miss decides that She wants something and then explains how i am to get it for Her.  These gifts will usually include clothing, lingerie, shoes, jewellery, make-overs, massage pampering sessions, hair salon appointments - pretty much anything a Woman likes to have.

 

Recently Miss decided that She wanted some comfortable evening loungewear and that i was to find something suitable.  The requirements being warm, comfortable, not frumpy but practical.  i found two sets for Her and have just ordered them on line. 

 

In secret, i hope that Miss will reward me for buying Her presents, maybe rewards from my fantasy list blog?  i know She has seen that list now so i do feel especially vulnerable!  However, that is not the reason i buy Miss things as a sissy should not expect rewards.  Hope is not expectation. 

 

Just the pleasure of being told to buy Her things is enough to get me wet in my panties.  Spoiling Miss is an honour. x

Curtseying

n. pl. curt·sies or curt·seys

A gesture of respect or reverence made chiefly by women by bending the knees with one foot forward and lowering the body.

 

Whenever i present anything to Miss such as Her morning tea then i curtsy.  A gesture of servitude and an acknowledgement of Her superiority over me.  Being very flexible (thanks to the yoga element of my workout programme), i can curtsey very low for Her.  A lovely submissive gesture, delicate, dainty, graceful.  On delivery it's one hand at the hem of my dress/skirt pulling it out to flare and the other hand with wrist cocked 90 degrees outwards at waist height.  Having given Miss whatever it is She has ordered then both hands at the dress/skirt hem, bend and flare.

 

As i am more often than not wearing stockings and suspenders, my curtsies are accompanied by that wonderful whisper of brushing nylons and the tightening and relaxing of my suspender straps.  i try to have as many opportunities to curtsy Miss as possible.

 

Miss and i laughed yesterday evening at how different curtseying was for me in my wiggle skirt.  Not much skirt hem to hold and certainly not much to flare out but certainly no excuse not to perform one! x

 

 

 

Miss Says So!

 

 

Out of the blue this afternoon, Miss summoned me to bring Her a cup of tea after She had enjoyed a brief afternoon nap.  The weather snap here in the UK has meant lots of people being unable to go to work and Miss is one of them. 

 

i did not expect to be brought back to life as soon as today, even though i have had a little bit of a pout on for feeling that i have not been around as much as i could have been.

 

However, i am so glad to be back and it gave me an opportunity to 'show off' to Miss with my new houndstooth check long wiggle skirt. i was so relieved that She approved!  Along with a red satin bow blouse, red bra, panties (full vintage style), red suspender belt and barely black stockings, i have felt very sissy this evening. 

 

Miss commented that She would like to try the skirt for herself  - wow - flattered!  i know She would look hot in it and all evening i have been trying to put an extra wiggle in it so that Miss can really be tempted to try it Herself.  i know She would look so damn fuckable in it.

 

So fast forward.... and i have made dinner for Miss and i.  We have watched some tv and i sort of expected to be sleeping in my own chambers this evening.  Miss made sure of my sissy chastity by telling me there would be 'no playing'.  It's very hard for a sissy to accept that but it's also very sexually humiliating and an erotic reminder of who is in charge. 

 

i will go to my chambers like a good little sissy, i'll see Her door closed and i will slip into my gorgeous chiffon baby doll gown and drift off to sleep  - my aching sissy clit untouched. x